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Hey I'm turning 15 and I really need some help or advice. Is it wrong for me to pile myself with tons of work, not because I'm ambitious but because I'm trying to forget that I'm depressed? This happened after my boyfriend broke up with me 4 months ago. I know this may seem pretty typical but it really hurts especially if its all my fault. I treated him terribly but yet he was still there for me. However, I accidentally cheated (yes accidental because right now idk why i did it). He was torn. But soon I realised I was an idiot and realised that I still loved him. So I told him I would change and treat him better. It was amazing how he said he would still hold on to me. But suddenly, things change. The more I try to make it up for all my mistakes, he suddenly would push me away. He would hang out with his friends more often that me and suddenly he told me he didn't love me. After that, the start of my 2015 was filled with nothing but regret. As busy as I am, as many competitions I won, it still never felt enough. I still keep thinking of him and I still regret not being better. Now I try my best not to be alone or to be very busy because the moment I dont do anything, flashback strikes and I start to cry. Its been going on for months now and I really wanna let go. But theres that tiny part of me that is still willing to wait. I know I was a total idiot, and I know God probably did that for a reason, but now I wanna know, how do I forget entirely and how do I learn to forgive myself? Because I know, even I cant forgive myself so easily. btw, I keep seeing him like everyday in school so it really stings eventho it has been up to 4 months of not talking. Please help me!