I have a lot of good things going for me. At 28, I'm starting on my master's and I don't want to fail. I'm definitely like my father in a lot of ways. I've struggled with addiction my whole life, but there have been periods of me going almost a year without any drugs, alcohol and porn. And then there's the schizophrenia of my delusions of grandeur. However, there's one thing I will not be like my father: a racist. There's so much temptation, but I have to keep busy for God. I recently left a conservative church due to my belief that God does not want us to focus on the Bible as fact but truth. Also, I only became a member so I could partake in communion. It was a pretty church. Anyways, that's my story.
Hi PT can I make one suggestion, make Jesus your crutch. We all need something to
lean on and make it Jesus.
I once heard a sermon where the minister asked where are all the limping Christians.
He was referring to the story of Jacob who wrestled with God and dislocated his hip,
so would have needed something to lean on.
People who stand strong and tall are too proud to lean on God, Yet the bible says when
we are weak then we are strong. Why, because it’s then we have to lean on Jesus.
God bless you in your realisation that you need to put everything else aside.
I pray that you will be one who over comes.
Revelation 3:20-21 NKJV
[20] Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and
opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.
[21] To him who overcomes I will grant to sit with Me on My throne, as I
also overcame and sat down with My Father on His throne.