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I'm new to the whole christian religion and to be honest I dont feel like I'm doing it right. I want to change. I need to change but I dont know how to change my ways. I swear, I'm critical of people and ocassionally I drink to excess then feel guilty afterwards and think that maybe christianity just isnt for me. But I want to believe.
Although since giving my life up to God I realise that nothing in this world really matters. I have been living my life all wrong and wasted so much time partying and drinking and spending money on material things that are all pointless in the end. I appreciate this world more than I ever have in my 24 years of life and I'm excited about life. I see the beauty in everything, of the love between partners, between friends, between parents and their children. I see the beuty in a simple joke, a laugh, a smile and the glint in an eye. I see the beauty of the world in all seasons and its magical and its my belief that that I finally see these things and I take notice now. I believe that God has a special plan for my life. There have been many many periods in my life where I could have gone down the wrong path but somehow that didnt happen. I've watched as many of my friends and family have either become junkies, alcoholics or dead but I have been saved.
Perhaps I need to stop thinking too much about what I should do to please god and just go with the flow and trust in God. Perhaps I need to stop and listen to what he's telling me and how I feel deep in my heart. Perhaps I need to learn more about the story of christ before I call myself a christian.
I dont know God yet and maybe its takes a while but I do want to get to know him. Although one of my aunts is a christian none of my immediate familiy believe in God and maybe that is part of the problem too. I cant talk to them about Jesus and my belief and if I do they mock me and laugh as if it is a big joke and this making me feel a little embarrassed to tell anyone else in my family.
Any advice.
Although since giving my life up to God I realise that nothing in this world really matters. I have been living my life all wrong and wasted so much time partying and drinking and spending money on material things that are all pointless in the end. I appreciate this world more than I ever have in my 24 years of life and I'm excited about life. I see the beauty in everything, of the love between partners, between friends, between parents and their children. I see the beuty in a simple joke, a laugh, a smile and the glint in an eye. I see the beauty of the world in all seasons and its magical and its my belief that that I finally see these things and I take notice now. I believe that God has a special plan for my life. There have been many many periods in my life where I could have gone down the wrong path but somehow that didnt happen. I've watched as many of my friends and family have either become junkies, alcoholics or dead but I have been saved.
Perhaps I need to stop thinking too much about what I should do to please god and just go with the flow and trust in God. Perhaps I need to stop and listen to what he's telling me and how I feel deep in my heart. Perhaps I need to learn more about the story of christ before I call myself a christian.
I dont know God yet and maybe its takes a while but I do want to get to know him. Although one of my aunts is a christian none of my immediate familiy believe in God and maybe that is part of the problem too. I cant talk to them about Jesus and my belief and if I do they mock me and laugh as if it is a big joke and this making me feel a little embarrassed to tell anyone else in my family.
Any advice.