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i met an amazing girl of God named brianna in sept 2011, may-june 2012 i made a facebook account and friended her saying i was my cousin that she knew. she believed it and we talked almost everyday. i can honestly say i dont remember almost anything we talked about, ive regretted it ever since. in june i deactivated it and in jan 2013 when i found out i could completely delete it for good i did(the account has been deleted since valentines day 2013) since i deactivated it in june i wanted to let her know im sorry and im not going to do it again, and since oct 2012 i havent gone to sleep til after 12 am every night thinking about it. i wonder will she hate me? will she forgive me ?will she never want to talk to me again?, the biggest reasons i did it were 1) because i liked her since the day in sept 2011 i met her, i saw the love of God, the gratefulness in the gift of singing hes given her and how she uses it to praise him, and just her natural beauty, and i just wanted to talk to her anyway i could....my thoughts were corrupted from the month before which is the second reason 2) from easter sunday to the first week of may i was in a "relationship" with a girl named amanda i had met at my online school. the "relationship" was dumb it was full of worldly desires and conforming to the world to make her happy, but it never did. she "broke up" with me five times in the relationship and would "forgive me" and "take me back" when all i did was try to put God first in my life and reply five minutes late to a text cuz i was in church and she knew where i was. she broke up with her bf easter sun and "got with" me......and the day i broke up with her she had a new guy she was saying 'i love you" to that night. two days later i make the account and do that whole thing. so what im wondering is should i even bother telling brianna? we've been getting closer but i dont want to let it get further and then have this lingering in my mind. ive beeen praying about it wondering if i should tell her and i think she'd appreciate the truth i was just wanting some other opinions or suggestions on what else i could do. i think she might like me but i also think that this could take away any feelings she might have