So if anyone has noticed I have not exactly been active I think you all deserve to know why. My grandma has not been doing good for a the past ten years and has been getting worse and worse. When I was young she was the best grandma ever and honestly I have never lost anyone before especially someone so close and dear to me. I have been doing my best to keep from drowning in depression and misery I have my ups and downs and sometimes I can even laugh and be happy for a time when I am distracted.
I know she is going to a much better place and I thought that would make it easier but honestly it doesn't. This last week she was placed in the hospital and for they gave her at most a week to live. Being a softy as I am I am taking it much harder than the rest of my family and some days i can barely find enough reason to get out of bed, I have been emotionally and physically drained for a good while now but I am still doing all I can for God and I am still seeking him out.
But the heaviness that is inside me is so hard to shake off and honestly it's exhausting mentally physically and emotionally
I know she is going to a much better place and I thought that would make it easier but honestly it doesn't. This last week she was placed in the hospital and for they gave her at most a week to live. Being a softy as I am I am taking it much harder than the rest of my family and some days i can barely find enough reason to get out of bed, I have been emotionally and physically drained for a good while now but I am still doing all I can for God and I am still seeking him out.
But the heaviness that is inside me is so hard to shake off and honestly it's exhausting mentally physically and emotionally