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So, for over a year I have wanted to bodybuild and even after a year of asking my parents again and again they refuse to support my decision to do it. They won't let me bodybuild. I've been patient and did things I didn't even want to do (sports and jobs), still my parents refuse to let me bodybuild because it's not something you can write down for college. I understand their concern for college but at this point I'd rather go to community college than continue to do things I am not passionate about. Now I'm depressed because there is nothing that I want to do that I'm allowed to do. I'm insecure about my body, and bodybuilding, the one thing that could fix my insecurities and make me confident my parents won't let me do. I know someone will post and say that what your body looks like doesn't matter, but I can't help it. I want to improve my physique and be in good health. I'm not sure what to do now, I told a coach at school that I would go out for a sport that I hate and now I'm so angry that I have to maybe do a season of this. Even though I said I would play can't I back out if it makes me this mad to play?
Finally, the real reason I'm posting this is because I feel like either A) God exists but he doesn't care about me and my situation and feelings or B) He doesn't exist and can't and never will help me.
I don't know, I feel that His ways are right and without Him life is hopeless, but how could he do this to me!? I have tried and tried to do the right thing and live according to His Word and even then He still has me sitting here miserable. I don't know what to do?
Finally, the real reason I'm posting this is because I feel like either A) God exists but he doesn't care about me and my situation and feelings or B) He doesn't exist and can't and never will help me.
I don't know, I feel that His ways are right and without Him life is hopeless, but how could he do this to me!? I have tried and tried to do the right thing and live according to His Word and even then He still has me sitting here miserable. I don't know what to do?