Wait a minute. I'm not trying to "deduce what God WILL do". I'm just observing what God SEEMS to be doing or NOT doing. I'm not deducing anything.
And again, you seem to be bringing up this common, defeatist, Charismatic refrain...that those of us who don't see miracles, it is because our "faith" isn't big enough. Somehow, we're failing God. We just don't measure up. God is not sufficiently pleased with us. We are in a doghouse. We are in the ghetto of the Christian community. The blowhards who get up in front of the congregation every Sunday with their phony claims and their phony stories...THEY are the ones whom God favors. Not miserable rejects like you and me.
My, what a lovely philosophy.
No, I disagree with your first part here. I think you
were judging God by the world and that's why you were saying: come on people, use your common sense - you can look around you at the world and clearly see that there aren't many miracles. (This is my paraphrasing of what you said and what you intended, to my mind). And don't think I haven't been there too, by the way. The world wears me down and
tempts me toward despairs of such a nature I can't even describe them.
As to your next part, I detest what you describe here. I once heard a famous woman teach about the man at the pool of water the angel stirred every day. She said it was his own fault he was there because he was guilty of "stinkin' thinkin." She said if it were her, she would pull herself to the edge, dump herself in and say, Lord, I'm either going to drown or you're going to save me because I refuse to go on this way any longer.
So this famous teacher and leader who speaks to thousands upon thousands daily blamed this man for being born crippled? Or at least for REMAINING that way. Even though this: This man was not born blind because of the parents sin or his own sin, but so that...
While I detest what you describe, this is what I was saying earlier - their shenanigans and prancing around on stage for gain have robbed me long enough. THEY are not going to have
ONE SINGLE DAMN THING to do with how I see God any longer.
As to your last sentence, this has no effect on me and I refuse to speak this way to you.(Though you are free to do it). You are my brother, with the same and similar struggles to believe Him instead of the world, the flesh and the devil. You experience the same struggle and the same temptations to despair and mistrust what God has said at times. You face the same problems of hearing two extremes and wanting to rush toward one or the other because it sounds right even though
neither extreme takes the whole counsel of God into consideration and even though both extremes try to rob me and harm me. You experience similar heartbreaks and offenses to the eternity He has set in your heart as I do. And I haven't plumbed even the first first six inches of you and your struggle, but I know our plight is similar.
I love you and want the best for you just as I want it for myself. So I can't possibly label your philosophy after a few short interactions with you. You are too deep for that. You are too complex in your workmanship for that.
And I myself can't even make a complete determination on healing when I am so hypocritical at times, saying I have great faith in God, but proving myself a liar when I worry about money and provision. If I can't trust and obey in that simple temporal thing, I can't really tackle the whole healing thing with sufficiency and firmness. Finding out I have areas of mistrust and deafness toward my Lord, I see that if I won't or can't obey Him concerning a simple temporal command, He says He can't tell me of heavenly things.