Ok I need help. Advice. Ideas. Prayers.
I'll do my best to make this brief as possible.
My ex and I went through a horrible seperation which led to divorce.
During that time there were lies made against me which led to an arrest, a whole lot of boyfriends and adultery, drugs, prostitution and a suicide attempt in hopes to keep me around.
A few months ago (after I'd already had suspicions) my ex wife's best friend contacted me revealing to me that my ex had been prostituting for her boyfriend and that I needed to get the baby away.
Literally her entire family tried talking to her, praying everything she just kept throwing the middle finger up at everyone, me especially.
No matter how sweet, caring, long suffering I was to this woman she kept slapping me in the face with the grace I offered her.
I begged and begged and begged her to come around and be a mother to our daughter as I was left raising her on my own.
She refused and always had excuses.
Currently its been 2 months since my daughter has last seen her. In fact I face timed her Christmas week to express my concerns with her absence one last time and she cursed me out dropping "f" bombs and called me a b****
That was my final straw.
I want absolutely no contact with her at this point.
A couple days ago a big chaotic situation happened online where things were exposed about her to hundreds of people who knows both of us. It really didnt bother me.
She had been out of state with her pimp I'm guessing and according to her had exposed a lot of stuff about her videos, pics etc and beat her, tried to kill her and left her stranded in Nevada.
NOW.
My heart is huge! I forgive sooooooo much stuff done to me I really do. Even with her I had forgiven her time after time man even now, but I want nothing to do with her.
So I forgave her, I just won't deal with her to protect my soul and my daughter.
I won't allow my daughter around her. Not until she gets counseling and provides me a clean drug test.
shes contacted me in hopes to see my daughter but I won't let her, not yet anyways. She says she needs to see her because of everything she went through in a matter of days. I think it's bull. Because less than a week ago she's cursing me out.
Now she's back home and saying that God has saved her (which is great) but accusing me of being hard hearted towards her and God will deal with me.
THAT part frustrated the hell out of me.
This has to do with me protecting my baby from the nights I had to comfort her crying because her mother wasn't there.
No I do not care about what she went through, I really don't. Because man she put me through so freaking much that I didn't deserve to go through, and I'm busting my butt to clean it all up and she goes off does her dirt, comes back and expects me to just be okay with her? Or hand her my daughter? When just 2 days ago you're high on drugs??? Absolutely not!
I can go on and on with this but you get the gist
Am I wrong for how I feel from what you've read?
I don't feel I have bitterness towards her...I feel like she wants to dodge accountability and hide behind religion or Gods grace while trying to judge me lol and my thing is you still have to deal with the consequences of your choices, we all do.
I'll do my best to make this brief as possible.
My ex and I went through a horrible seperation which led to divorce.
During that time there were lies made against me which led to an arrest, a whole lot of boyfriends and adultery, drugs, prostitution and a suicide attempt in hopes to keep me around.
A few months ago (after I'd already had suspicions) my ex wife's best friend contacted me revealing to me that my ex had been prostituting for her boyfriend and that I needed to get the baby away.
Literally her entire family tried talking to her, praying everything she just kept throwing the middle finger up at everyone, me especially.
No matter how sweet, caring, long suffering I was to this woman she kept slapping me in the face with the grace I offered her.
I begged and begged and begged her to come around and be a mother to our daughter as I was left raising her on my own.
She refused and always had excuses.
Currently its been 2 months since my daughter has last seen her. In fact I face timed her Christmas week to express my concerns with her absence one last time and she cursed me out dropping "f" bombs and called me a b****
That was my final straw.
I want absolutely no contact with her at this point.
A couple days ago a big chaotic situation happened online where things were exposed about her to hundreds of people who knows both of us. It really didnt bother me.
She had been out of state with her pimp I'm guessing and according to her had exposed a lot of stuff about her videos, pics etc and beat her, tried to kill her and left her stranded in Nevada.
NOW.
My heart is huge! I forgive sooooooo much stuff done to me I really do. Even with her I had forgiven her time after time man even now, but I want nothing to do with her.
So I forgave her, I just won't deal with her to protect my soul and my daughter.
I won't allow my daughter around her. Not until she gets counseling and provides me a clean drug test.
shes contacted me in hopes to see my daughter but I won't let her, not yet anyways. She says she needs to see her because of everything she went through in a matter of days. I think it's bull. Because less than a week ago she's cursing me out.
Now she's back home and saying that God has saved her (which is great) but accusing me of being hard hearted towards her and God will deal with me.
THAT part frustrated the hell out of me.
This has to do with me protecting my baby from the nights I had to comfort her crying because her mother wasn't there.
No I do not care about what she went through, I really don't. Because man she put me through so freaking much that I didn't deserve to go through, and I'm busting my butt to clean it all up and she goes off does her dirt, comes back and expects me to just be okay with her? Or hand her my daughter? When just 2 days ago you're high on drugs??? Absolutely not!
I can go on and on with this but you get the gist
Am I wrong for how I feel from what you've read?
I don't feel I have bitterness towards her...I feel like she wants to dodge accountability and hide behind religion or Gods grace while trying to judge me lol and my thing is you still have to deal with the consequences of your choices, we all do.