I can understand completely.
About 15 years ago I was diagnosed with Crohns disease. I've discovered that most of the ladies that I've dated in the past either looked at my condition as a death sentence or they didn't even take it into consideration at all (didn't seem to really care) both of which made me feel very uncomfortable.
I hear you......sometimes I wonder whether having a condition and/or disability would be off-putting to people? I find myself in that position....3 years ago a non-cancerous but life threatening brain tumour was found. Most has been removed but a little bit remains because it's too dangerous to remove. The operation 3 years back left me blind in my right eye - even though people are in total shock when I say it, because I look totally normal - you would never know I was blind in one eye.. or that I had had major brain surgery..but anyway. But it's been a huge life adjustment for me and the last 3 years have been hospital, being off work for long periods and I also had radiotherapy 5 months back.....and I face another operation soon due to a side affect from the radiation that had to pass through my pituatory gland - messing up my thyroid.......so the thyroid has to be totally removed now!!
But I say all that to say this........it will take a special man to put up with me and my lifetime of medical appointments for the foreseeable future (from a medical point of view, but I beleive in miracles!!!!), the days when I might not feel well etc etc.
God knew all this was going to happen...wish it hadn't but it did....you get on with life and continue to pray for healing and trust God for a mate - no matter how bad things look to us personally
But in honesty, from the human point of view......it can be discouraging some days thinking, who would find a 'condition' attractive, regardless of whether I look attractive on the outside and have a beautiful heart.
BUT remaining positive