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Okay, I really love my boyfriend. We have been together for 4 years and he's one of the best guys I've ever met, just not a great boyfriend. I am crazy about him still, but that might be the problem! My dream job is to be a stay at home wife/mom but that doesn't mean I'm the quiet one! Don't worry, I can stand up for myself. He is a very sweet, generous, and generally selfless christian guy(<-- that's important to me) but it seems like he's that way to everyone but me. Everyone in my family really loves him because of how nice and great of guy he is, and they all think we are perfect for each other. Which it seems like we are! I mean we are everything each other isn't but still share the same interest. It just seems like for 4 years I've been doing all the "work" in the relationship. I mean he never comes to my house or plans dates or anything, and I cook, clean and pretty much take care of all the responsibilities ever since his parents got divorced. We don't live together but we are together pretty much everyday after college and on the weekends. He doesn't ever seem to appreciate the things that I do for him unless I tell him it hurts me that he doesn't thank me, and even then it doesn't seem 100% sincere. We have talked and prayed about it and he say he really doesn't mean to do it, and he'll work on it (it seems real) but it never lasts long. He also seems sort of embarrassed of me, I have a very outgoing and spunky personality and he is more reserved and a loner. So when I do things like dance or sing (I'm NOT a good singer, but I love it) he asks me to stop, not meanly though, but it still hurts my feelings (he knows this). I know this is silly but I feel like I am so crazy in love with him and I am more like a "logical decision" to his very logic driven mind. I'm a "creative" type, so this probably explains my deep emotions. He says he really loves me even if he doesn't always show it, but I look for it in all the different love languages and I don't ever feel like he does that often. He has a hard time expressing emotions and I dont, his dad is very similar and now his parents are divorced, he even struggles telling me I'm pretty, like it's almost embarrassing to say, though I know he means it because he is the most honest guy I know, he would never say "illogical statements" like "your the most beautiful girl in the world" because he would say he's never seen all the girl in the world. I'm sorry I'm almost done! He's also in ROTC and is about to start a life as an officer in the Army and therefore about to move away. I am done with college and when he finishes we will be together for 6 years. He thinks "logically" we should get married because I'll be a great wife and mom, plus we are best friends. He hates to talk about it though, and defiantly not around other people (hates pda) I on the other hand would love to get married, but then I get a little worried when I see others relationships. I know movies aren't real but I feel like I want someone who really appreciates me and loves my quirks, not tries to hide them. It's hard because I feel so strongly for him, but I'm not sure if it's reciprocated. After 4 years we've talked about this a lot of times and he always feels so bad because he doesn't mean to hurt me and he's a really sweet guy. I hate to always nag him because it feels like I always have complaints of him (but plenty of compliments too!) And he never really has anything to say about me. We have broken up once before for 2 weeks but I really missed him and him, me. It just didn't feel right to be without him. I have prayed about it and talked to my friends and family but it is hard because they all really like him and so they don't really get it because he's so different to other people than me. I would really like to hear your Christian advice on this, and any additional question you have I'll try and answer. Also remember that being an Army wife is like double as hard so I have that to consider also!