There's that saying, "Jesus save me from your followers". I too have been hurt by some of His followers, painfully so and in His name. It can be more painful because we expect them to know better. I remember a church here advertising for congregants and telling listeners that there was no judgment and bad treatment in their church so it is a known issue. But I have met some awesome Christians who exhibit nothing but His love. I am going to pray God sends some loving Christians into your life and that God will heal you from these wounds.