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iTOREtheSKY · May 29, 2013

Miss Jullianna's thread has got my mind wandering now...
what would life have been
if I had never been
would the sky not still
bring forth the rains
would the trees cease to grow
would the flowers of the fields not still bloom
would anyone really ever know
if I had never been
so much of my life
a wasted folly
so much time spent in toil
a mind with hands so idle
days gone by lived in denial
what would life be
if I chose not to see
all the things place in me
by your will
by your hand
by your grace
the only reason I stand
though I fall
like a once mighty mountain
into deepening black seas
no matter what depths
your love is there to find me
but sometimes
I still can't help but wonder
if there never was a me

PrettyBelle · May 29, 2013

Not having a computer is driving me batty. Trying to post on a phone doesn't work very well but I need to reach out and vent.
My job is going to put me in an early grave from stress and no one at work seems to care. I've begged for a transfer and am getting nowhere.
I am wearing my stress like a suit obviously because everyone notices and asks "What's wrong" all day. I wish I was invisible so they would just stop asking.
I feel ashamed because I keep praying and God's not moving so my faith is little. I'm sorry Lord. Help me to see out of this trial and focus on your goodness.
Keep me in your prayers all.

shawntc · May 30, 2013

I have pipe dreams of making money by being a freelance programmer/writer and doing Minecraft let's plays.

Well, it is summer and at most I can hope to get a part time job until school starts. Maybe I should pursue one or two of my pipe dreams.

Loveneverfails · May 30, 2013

Someone just resurrected the "wives submit to your husbands" thread and for some reason I thought it would be a good idea to read through all nine horrible pages of it.

I regret that decision. >.<

GreenNnice · May 30, 2013

Being single may be just for me. Nobody has to want to 'please' me. That Scripture always gets me, that if a woman is married to a man, her desire will be for her husband. That's the way we are wired, I guess, well, 'you,' anyway

For awenbaggins who may be peaking from the fold somewhere out there, out waiting, to NAB someone responding, I am NOt responding, I am not responding, I am just adding. I am just adding. I am just adding....

Please, don't reprimand me, milady, and, make me write what I just wrote on a chalkboard a 1000 times , except it would say, ahem: "I am responding. I am adding. I am responding. I am adding. I am responding. I am......

OK, the Lord is working on me now, I'm dig deep into something I'm not really confident about for work now, and, let's not go into detail, let's just say, I need to really focus on Him for this work, so, I ask for your prayers. Just so I can focus. And, again, I am NOT responding, but I pray for anyone out there who may be thinking of going into game programming, for minecraft or WOW, or whatever, just go, there's GAME companies all over, get on linkedin.com, INVEST in yourself, brother, OK, am i really just talking to myself

I am, I am, and, yes, I did tawt I saw a puddytawt. And, I did, I did.......
*sometimes, green, you amaze me even with the off-color (oh, please, let it not be about anything but green

), out of the way, weird, wild way you say things. I dunno, kid. Good thing, the Lord leads you

)

Hey, did someone just say something, what was that? Did I just hear a puddytawt ?

Good night, God bless you, all, thanks for listening, your prayers, your friendships, and, most of all, for gratitude to God for who He is in your life so that it shows here on c.c. for me to enjoy and witness and see and be a part of folks who 'get' me. I'm with God

Markum1972 · May 30, 2013

Just an observation...
I have met quite a few women that seem to obsess about not being with a controlling man. Yet they seem to test men by telling them to go away and the only ones that they are left with are the controlling ones that don't respect them. How do they not see this?

iTOREtheSKY · May 30, 2013

Woke up this morning just before 6am. Another day of throwing out things I don't need or want. I find I have more paperwork saved for no good reason. The paper shredder was one of the best investments I ever,well I guess invested in. I am getting rid of all my wedding pics,etc... Can't decide if I want to bother wasting hours shredding or just tearing them up. One of my buddies in NY suggested I sell them on ebay,as there might be some sort of fetish for that sort of thing.

Like I want some crazy person looking at pics of me & my ex at our wedding. Then again,maybe they would fetch a pretty penny...we did look pretty snazzy. lolz. Ugh! No. I've considered finally sitting down & watching our wedding dvd once before that get cracked in half,but I prob. won't. Sometime's it's still so hard to believe I wasted such a good chunk of my life on a lie. I guess it's better than other's who were married for 20 or 30 years & then they find out their spouse was unfaithful or an ax murderer. That must do one's head in. God is my only sanity these days. The more I go on in life,I realize how by ever putting trust in anyone or anything else is so foolish. I feel sad when I read posts by so many on CC that want to rush into a relationship or hurry to get married,some to the point of feeling like they have to settle because it's been so long since they've been with someone physical to share their love with...some never at all. If only they knew the pain & problems that lay ahead if it's not in God's timing & they jump the gun or settle for less than He has in store for them.
I wonder many times what my purpose is. Hmmm maybe God can use my life as a warning to others..like "Hey,you don't wanna end up like this dude,do ya?" Meh...I dunno,it's hard to comprehend such things. Then enters faith & that's what I have to go on..always trusting that God must have some master design for me. We'll see...or maybe not. At the end,when I am with him I can only hope that in His eyes I have done something that counts,even if it was only one thing.

Powemm · May 30, 2013

Markum1972 said:

When I didn't have a relationship with God , I thought the controlling ones were the good ones (I know right ?!).. Not knowing Gods character , on top of having no father in my life to teach me what a good man is or how to be treated or an example to watch ... there was no comparative .. Now however I do know Gods character.. I do know His treatment .. I can say ... I think I was allowed go get a real good taste of what sour is so when Jesus came along I definitely knew what sweet fruit tastes like, acts like, speaks like .. I'm glad for those experiences now .. I count them as gain ...
Since coming into my relationship with Christ .. I am so happy to wait for who God intends me to share in that kind of precious fruit, if anyone at all , He brings along. Hope that sheds a little light on matters

shawntc · May 30, 2013

Last night I wrote about pipe dreams of being a freelancer. I also prayed about it last night. Context: I have an account on Fiverr, a freelancing site. You get paid $5 (after taxes and stuff, $3.92) to do some work you offer to do. For me such work includes programming, Minecraft, and sermon writing stuff. I wake up this morning and someone has hired me for programming work.

Maybe this is some divine confirmation that I should do the freelancing more. This is arguably the third "confirmation" of it I've gotten already.

Powemm · May 30, 2013

God is so awesome !! I just walked out to back yard to stand by the water and it is permeated with the smell of honeysuckle .. the scent is so strong I ran inside and opened all the windows to my house .. What an amazing scent ..
This verse came to
Mind when I smelled it

Numbers 14:8
If the Lord is pleased with us, he will lead us into that land, a land flowing with milk and honey, and will give it to us.

Wich is interesting I only remember the part of the verse that said land flowing with milk and honey ..
Over the weekend something I had been praying about and had told no one in my family came to light ..
I was praying about my family living as one farming or raising cattle on a ranch ..Together ..this weekend My brother and His wife approached me with a proposal .. starting an organic farm , raising an organic cattle heard.. shall be interesting to see how the Lord leads ..

Powemm · May 30, 2013

Went to the corner store .. was talking to the lady behind the counter .. When an old farmer walked in lol.. We talked for about an hour .. He is a cattle farmer and has had his hand a lot in organic farming and cattle ranching .. Knows a lot of people around , he invited my brothers family and I out to their place to visit also gave me the name of one if his best friend who has an organic dairy ranch , lives a few miles away .. Said he would give him a call.. I asked if they take in any hired hands during milk production .. He said yes .. I said "well what better way to learn than to get right in the middle of it and learn .. He said he would give them a call.. ... The lord leads .. His plan, His will .. Lifting all up to Him for His direction .. I know nothing about all this .. it's fun learning Sonething new

rachelsedge · May 30, 2013

I just adore clouds. So very much.

Actually, I think it'd be awesome to have it outside with a storm approaching. The big, puffy clouds, a slight breeze to gently move my hair around a bit and cool everyone off, the rumbles of thunder, the smell of coming rain, all while I'm promising my life to another man. I can't control the weather, but if I could, I think that's what I'd do.

yac11 · May 30, 2013

Thank God for CC....I am down again, and if I didn't find this site 2 months ago.....I would be sitting here watching paint dry!

rachelsedge · May 30, 2013

rachelsedge said:

My wedding. "It" meaning my wedding. I had talked about it earlier in my post but then edited part of it out, and then forgot to clarify again.

shawntc · May 30, 2013

Has anyone really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?

iTOREtheSKY · May 30, 2013

^^^^^^^^^

Fenner · May 30, 2013

MissCris said:

I love that! So cute!

Fenner · May 30, 2013

I've always been an independent person. Even as a child I wanted to do things on my own. When I was first married I had a tough time giving my all to someone. Sharing a bank account a budget, time. It took me a while to grow up and realize what I thought was controlling was actually my poor Husband desperately trying to work together and for me to stop being so stubborn. Thank you GOD for sending me a patient Godly man who loves me warts and all.

Chrissy77 · May 30, 2013

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Why is that people don't want someone to put them in the "friends" category when that is all I desire?
I want the man God blessed me with-if that is what He decides -to be my best friend. If that means being
stuck in just the friend zone until he realizes I am Gods desire for his life, so be it.

My ex and I were friends at a young age and then did the whole bf and gf thing at 15. Then when we broke up at 16 that is when we truly became best friends. For the next two years, we talked about everything and that included who liked us. In that time neither of us dated other people but we did hang out with people of the opposite sex. Out of the blue one day, he called me up and asked me out. I never stopped being the one he turned to when he was upset until things got really bad. While we are no longer married, we are still friends.

The addition of friendship only solidified our life of marriage. Our failure to make things work wasn't because of any lack of feelings, instead it was completely our selfishness. I want my best friend to be my life. I don't to turn to some other person to confess my dreams.

Who do you turn to when you are hurting or needing prayer? Why do we over think everything? Why don't we ever see what is in front of us until we lose it? When will we ever wake up?

Chrissy77 · May 30, 2013

^^^^^^ That was not referring to my ex and I getting back together.

( Had to clarify since I was asked.)

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