I'm glad to answer your question. Why would I need to wait until I die? I am with God now and God with me. God accepts me because God created me. I have no heaven or hell so the possibility of going to one or the other is a non-issue. May I ask a question? If there were no dangers of heaven or hell would you believe what you believe? So, If damnation was not an actual consequence of unbelief because, and correct me if Im wrong, but the only way to "save" yourself from eternal damnation is through the belief that Jesus was the messiah and he died so that you could live free of the burdens of sin. Would that change what you believe?
Yes I would still believe what I believe in. God is just and it is true He does love you. How much does He love you? Historically, it is proven that Jesus did indeed die on the cross. That can't be denied. He also was raised from the dead and shown to thousands of people. That too can't be denied. Why did Jesus, who was sinless die on the cross in the first place? I think you know the answer to that one. In case you don't, to wash away our sins. You say you are a bonafied sinner for if you say you're not puts you as a liar! Since God is just, and you have sin, as well as I, and God will not allow sin in His kingdom....
Rom 5:8
But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.
That means any sin, which you have, must be dealt with accordingly. Just how do you plan to rectify your sins and pay the price for it knowing God will not allow you in with even one sin? What would please God enough to satisfy that need?
You said God loves you. Yes, He does love you. How much? We have a dilemma here where we have a God that loves you but He won't let you into the kingdom of heaven because you have sin. Sorry, but those are the facts! If you want to take your chances based solely on "God loves you" standpoint all alone, you will fail. That's not conjecture on my part. You will fail. That is a promise. Why?
1 Tim 2:5-6
For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus; Who gave himself a ransom for all, to be testified in due time.
John 3:17
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
You can't save yourself. If you think you can achieve heaven (if that is truly where you want to ultimately be when you die) without Jesus, you're sadly mistaken. But, if you honestly think you need no help, we won't force you. You will ultimately be living outside the presence and protection of the Holy God. As I asked you before but never answered my own question, how much does God love you?
John 3:16
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
Do you still think you can get to heaven without Jesus on your side? Without this mediator, we stand no chance. Satan, whether you like it or not, isn't messing with you because he knows you are going to hell. Why? There is only one thing Satan doesn't want you to do. More on that in a moment. Satan is OK with you loving God. If you are considerate to other people, no problem. Satan doesn't care if you even go to church regularly and tithe to boot! Helping the poor and other kind acts is permitted by Satan. So, what's the big deal, right? God likes these things so therefore if I follow the 10 commandments I get to go to heaven, right? Satan really doesn't care much about that as well. So, what's the problem?
John 3:18
He that believeth on him (Jesus) is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
There is a pile load of plenty more references to show the true love of God. Satan right now appears to me is in control of you telling you that you don't need Jesus. Whatever that information is, one thing is for sure. Satan doesn't want you to have Jesus in your life and as long as you don't want Jesus in you life, Satan's OK with that. You can do anything you want EXCEPT allow Jesus to come into your life. If you're OK with that, God himself will have you pay for your own sins. That's the whole purpose for his death on the cross so that he can pay that price for you. That's how much God loves each and every one of us. Jesus didn't die willingly on the cross, as painful as it was, for pure enjoyment. No. He did it for you.