Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[kayem77]

Things are not okay. I don't even know if I'm going to post this. I tried praying and it took three attempts before I could even formulate a thought. I think my 16 y.o. is suicidal, but she refuses to talk with me about anything that is going on. I've been depressed too, especially within the last week, but nothing like her. I feel powerless and like a failure. Part of me wants to through all this "faith" stuff out the window and seek comfort in worldly things, another part of me wants to hold tight to Jesus, silent as He is at the moment.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

Praying for you right now <3
Maybe you can talk to some of her friends or teachers or someone who might know something? She might get upset, but the conversation has to start at some point and I believe that at the end, maybe after some time, she will feel grateful. You're not a failure CatHerder. You're a great man!

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

Things are not okay. I don't even know if I'm going to post this. I tried praying and it took three attempts before I could even formulate a thought. I think my 16 y.o. is suicidal, but she refuses to talk with me about anything that is going on. I've been depressed too, especially within the last week, but nothing like her. I feel powerless and like a failure. Part of me wants to through all this "faith" stuff out the window and seek comfort in worldly things, another part of me wants to hold tight to Jesus, silent as He is at the moment.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

Dude!!!! YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE! Not by a longshot.

I'm not gonna sit here & assume I "understand" how you must be feeling...with having a child & having to deal with this,because I can't...but I can understand feeling powerless & feeling like a failure. I fight feeling that way every single day as of late.

I love you brother...and am praying even right now as I type that Jesus would comfort you,and your daughter with whatever is making her feel so terrible. I just pray protection around you & your entire household right now in Jesus Holy name..that His angels come & keep watch.
May His truth & word minister to your heart tonight,in a way like never before.

Nothing in this world will ever truly comfort you & you know this. I ask the Lord to soften your daughter's heart,that she might be willing to open up to you & just let out any anger or pain or hurt she is going through now.

Just continue to be there for her & love her. I know it feels like you don't have the strength in you now to fight...so don't!
Let God. Give it to Christ & let Him carry this burden. I know it sounds so cliche,but please know that my heart in all honesty goes out to you my friend...I love you & so do many other's here.

I'm not happy of course to hear this news but I am grateful that you shared this with us.
We're here for you & we'll stand in prayer for you & her.

 

[Jullianna]

Feeling so emotionally drained. I was unexpectedly given an opportunity to visit a cousin that my judgmental relatives have practically shunned for the drama she causes. Granted, that is a valid reason; but she isn't a believer. And all the family knows she and her mom have lived through a lot of stuff. Only my parents have consistently shown her grace.

When I told her about how far The Lord has brought us, my cousin told be about the beatings she had survived as a kid from her parents and confided in me that her husband is continuing the cycle. That broken my heart, and stirred up a lot of stuff so I cried the whole way home. I'm praying that she finds The Lord and finds freedom from the abuse in her marriage and in her past.

Things are not okay. I don't even know if I'm going to post this. I tried praying and it took three attempts before I could even formulate a thought. I think my 16 y.o. is suicidal, but she refuses to talk with me about anything that is going on. I've been depressed too, especially within the last week, but nothing like her. I feel powerless and like a failure. Part of me wants to through all this "faith" stuff out the window and seek comfort in worldly things, another part of me wants to hold tight to Jesus, silent as He is at the moment.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

Praying for both of these situations. God is with you and yours.

 

[Praus]

Things are not okay. I don't even know if I'm going to post this. I tried praying and it took three attempts before I could even formulate a thought. I think my 16 y.o. is suicidal, but she refuses to talk with me about anything that is going on. I've been depressed too, especially within the last week, but nothing like her. I feel powerless and like a failure. Part of me wants to through all this "faith" stuff out the window and seek comfort in worldly things, another part of me wants to hold tight to Jesus, silent as He is at the moment.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

The Spirit hasn't instructed me to stop seeing my psychiatrist or to go off antidepressants just because I was born again--just saying.

Lexapro + Psalm 3 + Isa 41 and I feel so much better.

 

[WhiteWolfOfTheBlackForest]

These Nike shoes are one of the worst pair of shoes I have ever had - I do not think I will ever buy a pair of Nike's again - now I have to go shoe shopping again -.-

 

[kenthomas27]

Things are not okay. I don't even know if I'm going to post this. I tried praying and it took three attempts before I could even formulate a thought. I think my 16 y.o. is suicidal, but she refuses to talk with me about anything that is going on. I've been depressed too, especially within the last week, but nothing like her. I feel powerless and like a failure. Part of me wants to through all this "faith" stuff out the window and seek comfort in worldly things, another part of me wants to hold tight to Jesus, silent as He is at the moment.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

I will pray for you but there's also a lot that we can do. Is she exhibiting some common symptoms? Like is she preoccupied with death or violence? Is she doing strange things like giving away stuff to her friends? Is she severely anxious or agitated or always wanting to be alone? What led you to come to this realization? Did she say something about wanting to kill herself? Is she withdrawing herself from her friends or family?

One thing to remember and this is going to kill you, but there's not a lot you can do. Unless you're a professional (and even if you are) you not going to give this girl the right kind of help. She's going to need professional help to work on depression and other aspects that teenagers have a difficult time handling. If your daughter won't talk to you then maybe one of her friends will? Her friend's parents maybe? Any one where maybe you can glean some information?

I'm sure you're going nuts but I would treat this with the kind of intensity that you would if she dragged some 30 year old biker home with him saying he'd take good care of her..... (somebody kinda like me now that I think about it...)

We can work on her first and then you... God bless you man.

 

[shawntc]

The Spirit hasn't instructed me to stop seeing my psychiatrist or to go off antidepressants just because I was born again--just saying.

Lexapro + Psalm 3 + Isa 41 and I feel so much better.

Here here. I have no qualms with psychiatry or medication to help with mental/emotional issues. God gave us the ingenuity to make and use these things for a reason.

 

[Jullianna]

I agree with kenthomas. I've been praying for quite some time here about the depression in this forum and for Catherder's daughter. Please, please, please...intervene. Now. Find a way to help. Get help.

Catherder, she may get upset with you, but at least she'll still be here to GET upset with you, you know?

Praying...oodles.

 

[CatHerder]

Thanks for your prayers, everyone. She finally responded to a text message and said she's okay. She had called her mom to pick her up in the middle of the night and left a note for me to find in the morning. I'm kind of bummed that mom is more in the loop than I am, but this can't be about my pride right now.

 

[Jullianna]

Thanks for your prayers, everyone. She finally responded to a text message and said she's okay. She had called her mom to pick her up in the middle of the night and left a note for me to find in the morning. I'm kind of bummed that mom is more in the loop than I am, but this can't be about my pride right now.

It might be some girl stuff that she's more comfortable discussing with her mom, you know? She may have girl-type questions for her mom. They should have contacted you sooner though.

I'm glad she is okay. Will keep praying for both of you. I pray too that her mom will work with you on this and be better about keeping you in the loop.

 

[Jullianna]

Have a blessed evening everyone. My spirit is a little empty now and I need some restoration time.

 

[BrotherG]

be encouraged you are not forgotten God is still in the blessing business and he will look after you ...BrotherG

 

[Yahshua]

I'm praying for the right words to type for encouragement for you who are suffering, but lately I've realized that maybe this may not be my strength. Still...God's grace is sufficient in my weakness so I write on. And maybe that's what I'm supposed to say; that his strength is perfected in our weakness.

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Blessed Father in heaven, you know the hearts of your children. Even as each of us admittedly fail in our articulation, your word says your Spirit intercedes for us even when all we can do is groan. We are not perfect. We are broken. Some of us have recurring sicknesses, some of us have past pains & abuses to overcome, and even present pains & abuses to suffer through; wounds still fresh. We've loved ones who are suffering with this evil or that, evils we ourselves may be dealing with...

We have debts against you and others, and hold unforgiveness in our hearts for those who've wronged us. But please forgive us for our lack of faithfulness. Please forgive us for not quite being where we need to be spiritually. Wipe our debts clean. Don't hold our offenses against us as we make our requests to you, as we forgive the offenses of others against us.

You know the words we've spoken to you in secret about these your children...but for their edification and encouragement I post this publicly. And if I have the smallest bit of credit with you my God, any credit at all, please count it towards them...especially during this dark time. But it's when we're in darkness that your light shines most brilliantly, as your word says...

"The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned."

May your angels shield the minds and bodies of so many of your people who are suffering. Guard them from the works of evil others may subject them to or that we may unwittingly subject ourselves to. Keep us hidden in you. And heal us. And fill us with your powerful Spirit. You said that whatever we ask in prayer, believe that we have received it and it'll be ours so I ask you all of these things standing in full assurance that what you've said is true.

Grow us and teach us to walk daily in the footsteps of your Son, our king and captain...until the day when we walk side by side with him in you, in Paradise.


As it is written, so let it be done.

I ask all of this in the name of your Son,

Amen.

 

[persNickety]

It's kind of neat that I have a distant relation to a lion/tiger sleeping on my bed.

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

It's kind of neat that I have a distant relation to a lion/tiger sleeping on my bed.

I'll just take the liberty & post this in proxy for MissCris...."I still hate cats"



LOLz


then again..they do make fan-tabulous artwork when they set their minds to it!

 

[Searching4Truth]

How does one love God with all of heart, soul, and mind?

 

[MissCris]

This forum is a mess.
Here's hoping there's no irreparable damage.

G'nite, crazy world.

 

[Ugly]

Things are not okay. I don't even know if I'm going to post this. I tried praying and it took three attempts before I could even formulate a thought. I think my 16 y.o. is suicidal, but she refuses to talk with me about anything that is going on. I've been depressed too, especially within the last week, but nothing like her. I feel powerless and like a failure. Part of me wants to through all this "faith" stuff out the window and seek comfort in worldly things, another part of me wants to hold tight to Jesus, silent as He is at the moment.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

Yeah, this is not really an issue of failure as a parent. There could be bullying going on at her school. Or she may just have a chemical imbalance that causes her to be this way. Neither of these things can you be blamed for or indicate you are a failure.

But i get it. I've suffered so much depression and even suicidal thoughts before. So i know how she feels. And i've witnessed friends go through similar spells and i know how it feels to watch someone else go through it. Its such a scary feeling, and that feeling probably magnified when it's your own child.
She may not want to talk to you, but don't stop showing her love and reminding her you are there for her if she changes her mind. Don't hound her about these things. But every day remind her. Sometimes knowing that you will hurt someone can be enough to keep you alive. Often times when you feel suicidal its because you convince yourself no one cares. No one would miss you anyways, so that's one less reason to keep yourself alive. But if someone is always reminding you they love you, and doing so in a selfless manner (that is the key) then it may be enough to keep them going. I know this from my own experiences. Consider seeking some professional help for her. Or maybe just come out and ask her if there is anyone she Would talk to.. and if so volunteer to take her there. She will resist you. Don't take it personal. Sometimes the resistance is that person trying to prove to themselves you don't care. So they hurt you to turn you away from them. Long as you don't give up on her you give her one more reason to stay alive. Its hard and i'm sorry you're battling both your own thoughts and whats going on with her. Perhaps you both may need some professional help.

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

This forum is a mess.
Here's hoping there's no irreparable damage.

G'nite, crazy world.

As long as we have people like you here Cristen,there's some hope for us. Thanx for putting up with all of us demented,needy,goofy "singles". (or in my case ....damaged goods divorceeeeeees) lol

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

As long as we have people like you here Cristen,there's some hope for us. Thanx for putting up with all of us demented,needy,goofy "singles". (or in my case ....damaged goods divorceeeeeees) lol

Damage adds strength and character if you ask me.