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I am speaking from experience. I have been a Christian for 27 years. Of that time I can only think of one person who said they were a Christian that really loved with the love of Christ. That is the man who led me to the Lord, and he is long gone to be with the Lord.
Sometimes I feel bad. I wonder have I ever done that? Have I ever loved someone with a sacrificial love? But then I know that I have.
This one man who became a pastor of a Bible preaching church of what is almost the Calvary Chapel demonination is who I will expose now. I went to his house and slept there one summer Friday. The next day I cultivated a garden, and the whole summer I helped the garden to grow. One day I raked his lawn. An hour or so after I started I went inside to find him napping with his kids. I joined the church in helping him move. This is the same guy who I asked to help me move a month later. I had no help, and he said he didn't want to help either. Another time we were going to meet at a coffee house and "fellowship." I waited for a half hour. I then called his house. I found out that he wanted to spend time alone with the Lord. But he didn't have the respect for me even to tell me. This is christianity in a nut shell to me. As far as my experience in this world, THE LOVE OF JESUS BEING THE MOVING FORCE IN CHRISTIANITY IS A 100% LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know the Bible is true, and I know Jesus as my Savior. But His followers since I became a Christian 27 years ago are as far from His example as any followers of Him could be.
I do need the Spirit to help me become strong. I have had a few days of resisting temptation and praise God. But Christians could not care less.
I wrote a few days ago about being empty. That is the feeling i get from the church. Those of you who get such wonderful warm emotions from the church are blessed.
I do wish people would stop telling me how much they love me. Those are just words you know? You need to prove it. How easy is it to say I love you, say a brief prayer, and hit send?
I guess you may pray for me and that is loving, but it is not really a sacrificial love is it? No not really.
There is a book called the 5 love languages. For me to love me is to spend time with me. Outside of that your words are just words, easily said, but rarely done.
I am bitter at the lie of love that christianity is supposed to give. So, out of my bitterness, I lash out and tell you to prove it. 27 years of Christianity and I have never been loved with a sacrificial love. Jesus said that the world would know we are Christians by the way we love each other. If that is the measuring stick, the love of Jesus is dead to me in this world.
How do I close? God bless you? In bitterness my heart would not be in that. Go with God. Yea. That seems to apply.
Sometimes I feel bad. I wonder have I ever done that? Have I ever loved someone with a sacrificial love? But then I know that I have.
This one man who became a pastor of a Bible preaching church of what is almost the Calvary Chapel demonination is who I will expose now. I went to his house and slept there one summer Friday. The next day I cultivated a garden, and the whole summer I helped the garden to grow. One day I raked his lawn. An hour or so after I started I went inside to find him napping with his kids. I joined the church in helping him move. This is the same guy who I asked to help me move a month later. I had no help, and he said he didn't want to help either. Another time we were going to meet at a coffee house and "fellowship." I waited for a half hour. I then called his house. I found out that he wanted to spend time alone with the Lord. But he didn't have the respect for me even to tell me. This is christianity in a nut shell to me. As far as my experience in this world, THE LOVE OF JESUS BEING THE MOVING FORCE IN CHRISTIANITY IS A 100% LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know the Bible is true, and I know Jesus as my Savior. But His followers since I became a Christian 27 years ago are as far from His example as any followers of Him could be.
I do need the Spirit to help me become strong. I have had a few days of resisting temptation and praise God. But Christians could not care less.
I wrote a few days ago about being empty. That is the feeling i get from the church. Those of you who get such wonderful warm emotions from the church are blessed.
I do wish people would stop telling me how much they love me. Those are just words you know? You need to prove it. How easy is it to say I love you, say a brief prayer, and hit send?
I guess you may pray for me and that is loving, but it is not really a sacrificial love is it? No not really.
There is a book called the 5 love languages. For me to love me is to spend time with me. Outside of that your words are just words, easily said, but rarely done.
I am bitter at the lie of love that christianity is supposed to give. So, out of my bitterness, I lash out and tell you to prove it. 27 years of Christianity and I have never been loved with a sacrificial love. Jesus said that the world would know we are Christians by the way we love each other. If that is the measuring stick, the love of Jesus is dead to me in this world.
How do I close? God bless you? In bitterness my heart would not be in that. Go with God. Yea. That seems to apply.