Mine too. The difference between us is that I'm responsible in how I go about it. Guns, knives, and weapons are tools as fire extinguishers, safety equipment, and many other types and classes of tools.
If I was as irresponsible as you, I'd take all the smoke detectors out of my house along with the fire extinguishers and cancel my alarm service. I'd remove every safety feature from every piece of equipment I own including the guard off my chainsaw. I'd toss the seatbelt and air bags from my vehicles. Etc...
Because to keep those, in your misinformed view, means that I'm not trusting God.
But what it really means is that I'm both trusting God and I'm living my life responsibly. I know that personal self-defense is legitimatized in Scripture just as the use of safety devices, construction tools, cooking tools, transportation tools, etc... are legitimized by Scripture.
I trust that He will help me draw my weapon and use it appropriately in my time of need. As Jesus pointed out in Luke 11:21 "When a strong man, fully armed, guards his own palace, his goods are safe."
Solomon recorded in Proverbs 25:26, "Like a muddied spring or a polluted fountain is a righteous man who gives way before the wicked."
Nehemiah understood it and gave responsible instructions in 4:17-18 , "Those who carried burdens were loaded in such a way that each labored on the work with one hand and held his weapon with the other. And each of the builders had his sword strapped at his side while he built."
Etc... etc... etc... so forth and so on.
Trusting in God is not an excuse for acting irresponsibly and recklessly with your life and the lives of others which leads to unnecessary suffering, disability, and death as I hear you advocating.
And if despite trusting God and acting responsibly I am martyred, die in an accident, or overcome by some evil person or persons and murdered then I know I will go to heaven. Why? Because I am trusting God.
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