Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[homwardbound]

People often say that when one is first converted, they experience a 'honey moon stage' that lasts for about a year or so before the spark dwindles away, things get harder and your new levels of growth, test and trials gives you right of passage to let that passion run dry.

To be honest, I'm sick of people saying this. We are called to move from glory to glory. I want my heart to get bigger, I want the Lord to draw closer, I want more of Him. In the 22 months I have been His, He has taken my hand and lead me through situations and trials I thought were going to see the end of me. But He was so faithful, He was so patient, He remained and in my heart breaks and trials, He revealed more of His divine and breath taking nature to me.

The more He reveals of Himself, the more I hunger, the deeper I fall in love. I am not going through a stage that will suddenly end. The sweetness and captivating beauty of this relationship is not going drop like a veil that has been covering reality all this time. I want so much more than this. God comes, and He fulfils the needs of the deepest part of my being, and at the same time that fulfilment creates a new sense of hunger and need for God to move in me like I've never experienced before.

I never want to say there was a time when love awakened me, stirred within, and then lost its flame. I NEVER want to say that. Oh, how the Lord took me out of the depths of complete despair and darkness and loved me when everyone I knew had turned their backs on me. I could never turn my back on the love that brought me back to life. I will swim the depths of that love and allow it to consume me for all of my days.

I want to be overwhelmed with that kind of passion and fan the flames in my heart until it ignites like wild fire... and to see that light spread. I used to think, "I want to do good"... then I thought, no, "I want to make a difference." But those words don't seem to capture how I feel anymore. Now, "I want to be part of something that changes the world". I want to see a move of God that has the world at a stand still. I don't want anything less.

There i9s a book then I recommend "Classic Christianity" at Basic Gospel :: Home or call 1.800.727.2828
And not sure where to find this on called " what is so amazing about grace" really at least to me were insightful, as Classic Christianity is exactly about what you wrote here

 

[Pipp]

What did you do, vaccum them?

Not quite.... The typical walk into a dark room and accidently kick something.

 

[Fenner]

You are not alone Sister, you are not alone. you are discerning truth from error and being set free, four steps forward one back, may be two, then more steps forward, and sometimes more backwards, And telling truth here God never leaves us =nor forsakes us, ever and we do grow to all truth that sets us free
God does not leave us alone to be stupid we are taught trust in order to see and be strong in Father through Son having the ability in agreement to say no, with the utmost confidence, knowing you are delivered by trust.
And this is not to brag, been dry for 30 years now, and God gets all the credit for this, as well as now food binge I was on. lived in Las Vegas and "All you can eat" was my Smorgasbord. Glad God moved me, and went through what appeared as tragedy when i went to emergency room and was cut open, and have been disabled ever since, 11-2012, yet by Faith am up much better than was, praising God most of the way through, not at first, yet stood fast.knowing there was a reason for it. Just not seeing it at first. finally now do
So stand Sister no matter what and that dark glass we all are seeing through becomes clearer

Congratulations on 30 years of sobriety!

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

for kenthomas27...............I was bored....reeeeal bored. lol

 

[Arlene89]

No worries but I think you're the one that's too kind. Love your black and white photo. Very mysterious.

Last time I attempted to be mysterious, I dressed up like this guy.



Haha, but I am a sucker for black and white.

 

[Arlene89]

So after a shower, I'm going to hit the road and buy some new reading material from the Christian book store. Then at 12pm, I'm going to road trip it to this amazing location and stay there for four days. No people, no internet, and no food for three days to fast. Excitement face activated.

 

[just_monicat]

someone pointed out to me today that i have an innate ability to pick up scars and bruises. you'd think that i am some fragile klutz, moving from obstacle to sharp object. i'm really not.

sometimes i have recollections of how i end up getting hurt, but more often not. a couple years ago, some chick at the stable saw a couple bruises on my arm and asked me of i was in an abusive relationship.

i told her, "only with myself". i thought it was funny. she just looked at me like i was a freakjob. apparently, i also have a knack for inappropriate humor...

i have a giant bruise my leg from climbing into the barn loft at the stable today, and then later cut my hand helping someone move something.

the upside is that i have some super cool scars.

 

[lil_christian]

I went driving today through the local arboretum. I went through a part I hadn't gone through before that I guess is a bit more challenging. I did pretty good, though I took one of the curves too fast. I kept control, just was a bit scary because Dad went all, "Whoa whoa whoa, not so fast!" I probably wouldn't have even freaked out inside so much if he hadn't had said anything. But y'know, I'm glad he told me so I know NOT to do that again.

I think I'm going to be going out on the actual road soon. That'll be nice.

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

I went driving today through the local arboretum. I went through a part I hadn't gone through before that I guess is a bit more challenging. I did pretty good, though I took one of the curves too fast. I kept control, just was a bit scary because Dad went all, "Whoa whoa whoa, not so fast!" I probably wouldn't have even freaked out inside so much if he hadn't had said anything. But y'know, I'm glad he told me so I know NOT to do that again.

I think I'm going to be going out on the actual road soon. That'll be nice.

I laughed at your dad's reaction... I was riding with my daughter a while back and she took a turn so fast that I literally tried to climb up the side of the car before realizing what I was doing. I do the fake-break-stomp in the passenger floorboard sometimes too... Fun times... fun times.

 

[PopClick]

someone pointed out to me today that i have an innate ability to pick up scars and bruises. you'd think that i am some fragile klutz, moving from obstacle to sharp object. i'm really not.

sometimes i have recollections of how i end up getting hurt, but more often not. a couple years ago, some chick at the stable saw a couple bruises on my arm and asked me of i was in an abusive relationship.

i told her, "only with myself". i thought it was funny. she just looked at me like i was a freakjob. apparently, i also have a knack for inappropriate humor...

i have a giant bruise my leg from climbing into the barn loft at the stable today, and then later cut my hand helping someone move something.

the upside is that i have some super cool scars.

Lol, that sounds just like me. I always have an odd crop of scratches, dings, animal bites, and bruises. I once slammed my own arm in a door, which made bruises that looked exactly like someone had jerked me around.

 

[lil_christian]

I laughed at your dad's reaction... I was riding with my daughter a while back and she took a turn so fast that I literally tried to climb up the side of the car before realizing what I was doing. I do the fake-break-stomp in the passenger floorboard sometimes too... Fun times... fun times.

lol! Thankfully, that was the only real blunder I made. XD

 

[Tintin]

Arlene, so that's where you get your super-powers from! Very tricksy. But no food for three days? That part almost made me cry. Lovely location though. Enjoy God's goodness!

 

[lil_christian]

Dark chocolate with forest mint....I'm in love.

 

[lil_christian]

(By the way... I know some of you have my number and may or may not have texted me - I'm not intentionally ignoring you. Just until I found an actual charger that works on my phone. *sigh*)

 

[blueorchidjd]

This made me laugh a lot.

 

[lil_christian]

This made me laugh a lot.

Seriously...where do you get your gifs?? They're HILARIOUS.

 

[wisebeardman]

I went driving today through the local arboretum. I went through a part I hadn't gone through before that I guess is a bit more challenging. I did pretty good, though I took one of the curves too fast. I kept control, just was a bit scary because Dad went all, "Whoa whoa whoa, not so fast!" I probably wouldn't have even freaked out inside so much if he hadn't had said anything. But y'know, I'm glad he told me so I know NOT to do that again.

I think I'm going to be going out on the actual road soon. That'll be nice.

want to go for a ride? I can take you over snow and ice covered roads at 60+MPH as we say dirt trackin' it.

 

[BugeyeSTi]

want to go for a ride? I can take you over snow and ice covered roads at 60+MPH as we say dirt trackin' it.

Just a note if you try to impress the ladies with fast driving and/or generally dumb things while driving...it usually doesn't work. I may or may not know this from experience.

 

[just_monicat]

Just a note if you try to impress the ladies with fast driving and/or generally dumb things while driving...it usually doesn't work. I may or may not know this from experience.

oh dear! i'm so sorry. so very sorry. hopefully your girlfriend has forgiven you.

*hugs*

 

[Fenner]

5 days until I go away with my husband for an overnight out of town, kids are staying with my Mom. I can't wait! We need some time to ourselves.