Forgive me if I don't write this in quite the right way, but it is weighing heavy on me this morning.
As I am starting my day, I receive news that a friend had been contemplating taking her life. Every life is important, but this woman holds a special place for me. I stop what I am doing to pray for her. As I pray for her and ask the Lord to be with her , I say to the Lord that "no one deserves to feel that way about life and to suffer in such a way." Then something happened that has never happened before. I stopped my train of thought about her situation to go back and explain to the Lord that "okay I know deserve may not be the right word, because we all are sinners and deserve all of the pain that comes to us, but it is through Your grace we don't."
I have NEVER done that before. Why? The Lord knows where my heart is when I talk to him, and I have never felt the need to necessarily be that careful with my words with Him. He knows me and what I am trying to say. After this happened, I sat down for a moment and thought about what would possess me to think I now had to be more careful of word choices when I chat with Him. Then it came to me, and to be honest, I find the answer somewhat frustrating.
I am not trying to knit-pick at anyone, but I realized what caused part of my frustration. It is found in some of these forums. Countless times I have read a post by someone shredding another person's post based on one word they may have used while ignoring the overall point to the message. It makes a feller nervous or afraid to ever write anything. The idea that this nervousness has now found its way into my prayer life is unbearable.