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Loveneverfails

Loveneverfails

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We had our engagement photo shoot today followed by our double date with my friends/photographers. The whole thing really felt like a double date, to be honest. Here I was worrying that this would be a great deal of burdensome labor for my best friends husband but no, he was having way too much fun. What should have only been 1 hour turned into 3 hours, followed by a long and relaxing dinner.

Also, it was really entertaining to see how happy and cheerful my friends husband was. He's usually so serious and reserved, but during the photo shoot and at dinner he was laughing, smiling, and FINALLY bonding with my fiancé. XD

I couldn't have asked for a better experience. Plus, we saved SO much money. o_O I may even give my friend an extra gift after he finishes editing the photos because this experience would have cost us hundreds of dollars and I am so grateful.
 
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arwen-undomiel

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I am losing weight since being on my new med as a side effect. I have to watch out that it's not too much tho. It's a weird feeling. Shirts are getting a little looser. And I know this is bad to think, but my now ex bf mentioned my belly this past spring and how he looked forward to exercising with me to get fit, and I kind of feel like it's all happening without him - even tho it's just a side effect.
 
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ww_21

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I woke up this morning with a sore throat. I can barely speak so this is the one morning my mom chooses to yell at me for everything. JOY.
 
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didymos

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ww_21 said:
I woke up this morning with a sore throat. I can barely speak so this is the one morning my mom chooses to yell at me for everything. JOY.
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My mother enjoyed yelling at me until I decided to yell back at her.
So get well soon. :)
 
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ww_21

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I wish people would think before they spoke. I was just told off in the lounge for having 'tattoos' it made me kind of sad that someone would judge what type of person I am because of my hands.
 
Pipp

Pipp

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The lounge people can be very rude.... I got asked if I was a transvestite there once.... it doesn't matter if you do have tattoo's on your hands, feet , arms and legs.... doesn't change How God loves you and sees you. Don't pay them people no mind. Love you Em
 
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The lounge people can be quite rude. I got asked If I was a transvestite there once... no clue why. Anyway....other doesn't matter if you have tattoos on your hands , feet , arms and legs... doesn't change how God sees or loves you. Don't pay them people no mind. Love ya Em
 
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ServantStrike

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ww_21 said:
I wish people would think before they spoke. I was just told off in the lounge for having 'tattoos' it made me kind of sad that someone would judge what type of person I am because of my hands.
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Pipp said:
The lounge people can be very rude.... I got asked if I was a transvestite there once.... it doesn't matter if you do have tattoo's on your hands, feet , arms and legs.... doesn't change How God loves you and sees you. Don't pay them people no mind. Love you Em
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Seriously?

Why would someone even ask such a thing...
 
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Tintin

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Pipp said:
The lounge people can be quite rude. I got asked If I was a transvestite there once... no clue why. Anyway....other doesn't matter if you have tattoos on your hands , feet , arms and legs... doesn't change how God sees or loves you. Don't pay them people no mind. Love ya Em
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Did you kick his sorry butt or report him?
 
Pipp

Pipp

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No...I was new here... so I just sorta ran off in shock.. too bad..let it happen now... I'm not afraid to stand up for myself anymore..

I have no idea why I posted twice up there... lol
 
wisebeardman

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So someone asked me about my rules for life. Well here is 20... I'll let you decide if I am serious or not... I will never tell.

#1 Never cry, it shows weakness.
#2 Never apologize. Its a sign of weakness.
#3 Never take anything for granted.
#4 Never get attached.
#5 Never involve a lawyer.
#6 Never date a coworker.
#7 Never go anywhere without a knife.
#8 Never date a friend.
#9 It's better to seek forgiveness than ask permission.
#10 There is no such thing as coincidence.
#11 If it seems someone is out to get you, they are.
#12 Clean up your own mess.
#13 Enemies' promises were made to be broken.
#14 Don't believe what you're told.
#15 Don't trust anyone, expect anything.
#16 He that has too many friends has none.
#17 Eliminate any threat.
#18 If someone is about to burn you, burn them first.
#19 When the job is done, walk away.
#20 Don't fear anything. Be ready to die anytime and die free.
 
Fenner

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It's funny when something happens regarding mental illness, ex: Robin Williams, or a school shooting something like that, social media blows up with so many who think they are Nero scientists. I've been in that deep pit of depression like many of you have. It's a horrible dark scary place. Even thinking about it makes me uneasy. I've known three people in my life who have killed themselves. On the receiving end of the news, I was horrified. It's such a frightening concept to me to do that. I have a brother who is manic depressive, one day he will make you laugh like crazy and the next day he is so down you don't even recognize him.

My fear is someday someone will find him dead in his apartment. Before he moved across the country if I couldn't get a hold of him, I would make some excuse to go to his house and make sure he was OK.

I over dosed once when I was young, I can't even explain why I did, I just didn't want to be here anymore. By the grace of God I'm still here. All this talk lately has brought me back to those memories. A few years ago my friend got into some legal trouble. He killed himself with carbon monoxide poisoning. Let the car run in the garage. It was of course horrible. The guilt everyone feels after a suicide is horrible. I pray to God anyone who has these thoughts talks to someone and doesn't do it.
 
Jilly81

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In addition to what Fenner said, if you commit suicide you make the wrong people happy. The only people who will be glad are those who hate you. The ones who love you will be sad. Don't let the haters win!
 
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Fenner, thank you for saying this. I've tried to write about it a total of 6 times since I heard of Robin's death but I didn't because I thought people would think I was being negative. I have to admit I am a bi outraged. I've struggled with depression from the age of 14 and they told me to get over it, they told me it doesn't matter and that it's only because I'm weak. Same people who said this to me jumped the bandwagon when they heard of Robin Williams' suicide. They are sharing pictures on Facebook in support of those that struggle with depression. Funny how the death of a celebrity will cause such a dramatic change yet there are people like me who have been struggling with it for years and no help has ever come to us.

If you look on my wrists, you will see the self harm scars. If you get to know me a little more, you would know of my four suicide attempts as well as my over dose. I've struggled for years and they didn't care yet a celebrity does it and... everyone is suddenly so award of it? This includes my cousin who told me that depression is just something to 'get over' and is now posting hypocritical quotes on her facebook page. I am tempted to point this out to her.

I am tempted to tell her that everyday I wake up asking God why he woke me up. Why didn't he take me in my sleep? Yet they don't seem to care. Why? Perhaps it's because I am not a celebrity.
 
Jilly81

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I totally agree with you about things being different in peoples' minds if a celebrity is going through or went through the same thing, but "regular" people are often looked at as needing to "get over it", Emily. It is a shame and a horror that people look at others as being less important if he or she never became famous. This is yet another reason to only care what the Lord thinks; He's the only One Who TRULY knows our hearts, even better than we do ourselves, and loves us anyway. Caring about what the rest of mankind thinks about us will only make mental issues worse, though, admittedly, it can be very difficult to block out such thoughts. Takes a lot of prayer some times, and we're still not perfect on this planet.

As to why we don't get to just go home if we are as loved as Jesus says He loves us, He often simply wants us to stay down here to help others. Believe me, others will listen to the story and advice of someone who's been through the same thing generally MUCH better than one who has not, so long as they come out of the horror victoriously and respond with kindness and love. We'll get to go home soon enough, but we can help point people to Jesus while we're down here.

Also, it probably would be freeing to point out your cousin's hypocrisy to her, Emily. If she responds poorly, she's just another person to remove from your FB contacts.
 
hoss2576

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wisebeardman said:
So someone asked me about my rules for life. Well here is 20... I'll let you decide if I am serious or not... I will never tell.

#1 Never cry, it shows weakness.
#2 Never apologize. Its a sign of weakness.
#3 Never take anything for granted.
#4 Never get attached.
#5 Never involve a lawyer.
#6 Never date a coworker.
#7 Never go anywhere without a knife.
#8 Never date a friend.
#9 It's better to seek forgiveness than ask permission.
#10 There is no such thing as coincidence.
#11 If it seems someone is out to get you, they are.
#12 Clean up your own mess.
#13 Enemies' promises were made to be broken.
#14 Don't believe what you're told.
#15 Don't trust anyone, expect anything.
#16 He that has too many friends has none.
#17 Eliminate any threat.
#18 If someone is about to burn you, burn them first.
#19 When the job is done, walk away.
#20 Don't fear anything. Be ready to die anytime and die free.
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I'd say you like like NCIS, because most of those are Gibbs' rules.
 
Fenner

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ww_21 said:
Fenner, thank you for saying this. I've tried to write about it a total of 6 times since I heard of Robin's death but I didn't because I thought people would think I was being negative. I have to admit I am a bi outraged. I've struggled with depression from the age of 14 and they told me to get over it, they told me it doesn't matter and that it's only because I'm weak. Same people who said this to me jumped the bandwagon when they heard of Robin Williams' suicide. They are sharing pictures on Facebook in support of those that struggle with depression. Funny how the death of a celebrity will cause such a dramatic change yet there are people like me who have been struggling with it for years and no help has ever come to us.

If you look on my wrists, you will see the self harm scars. If you get to know me a little more, you would know of my four suicide attempts as well as my over dose. I've struggled for years and they didn't care yet a celebrity does it and... everyone is suddenly so award of it? This includes my cousin who told me that depression is just something to 'get over' and is now posting hypocritical quotes on her facebook page. I am tempted to point this out to her.

I am tempted to tell her that everyday I wake up asking God why he woke me up. Why didn't he take me in my sleep? Yet they don't seem to care. Why? Perhaps it's because I am not a celebrity.
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You're welcome Emily, when I was a kid I was depressed too, no one took it seriously. I don't think people believe kids get depressed but they do. If my parents had been alcoholic, child abusers maybe someone would have not thought that I could get over it. Thank God they weren't.

I am glad the world is more aware that children do and can suffer from depression. As far as your cousin block her stuff. I don't mind quotes and things, but I know a couple self righteous people who post them and it sort of makes me giggle. They are wanna be Ghandi' s but they certainly don't act like it in life. When you post something like, We should be nice to everyone, then the next day your status is, I'm so F word mad, I could just throat punch so and so. Or complain about the long line at the shoe store. Those are actually things I've seen on FB. Blizzaro world. I guess in my old age I've learned to laugh at the hypocrisy, and I post pictures of cats. :)
 
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