I've just been let down so much that it's really not worth it anymore. I can easily befriend males and find those are the most quality of friendships that I've had in the past. But those are always temporary. But it's just so complicated, and the closeness and great feelings of inclusion have always been temporarily. Everyone moves along. Everyone parts from me. Not just a saying, I have proof. Little initiation of contact on their part. It's just the way things are for me. I suppose I am not very entertaining to keep people around. I've accepted this long ago, but still I reach out to connect with others.