And what does it say about the character of God if He withholds faith from some?
Wow, as I read more and bounce from thread to thread, trying to keep up,
which is near imposs, you ppl are quick and knowledgeable
and obviously many of you have years of computer experience
and know how to manipulate the keyboard
and probably have fun leaving ppl in the rear pack,
but nevertheless, I just can see so much misunderstanding
that happens, and probably leads to some animosity as well,
even a lack of grace and forgiveness ,
and that seems wrong and unnecessary.
And I can see on diff threads alot of the same ppl 'liking' the same ppl,
and ignoring the the same others.
The patterns unfold when sitting back and reading/observing.
Yet most everybody here claims the name 'christian'.
I sure wish I had even a fraction of the knowledge
that alot of you folks have here,
But instead of being in church and the bible,
I wasted much of my life in selfishness.
Now, as get older and slower in thinking/learning abilities,
I realize I'm doing alot of scrambling to try to catch up
to a crowd that has pretty much left me in the dust.
I only know I believe in Jesus, I don't feel I have any gifts
or talents to be able to help anybody or teach anybody,
and just hope I can accomplish something in this life for Him,
but time marches quickly.
I probably could use a partner for prayer,
accountability, encouragement, and just genuineness and care,
but church and online forums are all so involved these days,
ppl are very busy, so proper learning to be able to help others
is probably wishful thinking on my part.
So I have to just struggle through on my own
and hope I don't get too
kicked around along the way.
God gave Jesus, Jesus gave Himself, as a gift,
to be our Savior, I believe in Jesus, and I don't think
I could say that and Truly believe it in my heart if it wasn't
a gift, because I really don't know why He would save a wretch like me,
but His love is His gift, and His Word is His gift,
and His Word says let whosoever
will, come and drink of the water of life freely,
whosoever believes in the Lord Jesus Christ has eternal life,
shall not come into the condemnation,
but is passed from death to life.
Now I've got to figure out the proper response
and find what it is I'm supposed to do with whatever
is left of my life, and hopefully find someone to do it with, too,
and I wonder what role being on this site will play
in any of that, but I do pray for everybody here,
and I am understanding a little more about that great prayer
our Savior prayed in John17.
God bless you all and thanks for letting me get that out,
I wasn't expecting it.
And if you could, please pray for me too,
I could use it for a number of reasons...physically, vocational/ministerial, etc.
And also for that true companion to grow in grace
and worship and serve the Lord with,
as I'm finding isolation is not a good place,
for me, at least, and leaves one vulnerable.
Still hope I can find a way to contribute in a fruitful
way along the path,
And I really desire that fulness of joy,
Not just for myself, but to share,
And to share some love.
Not much else matters, really.