I discovered last night how burnt out I am in the church life. I spent the better part of 12 years volunteering in the worship ministry (sometimes every weekend for a year straight) not to mention countless hours volunteering my expertise in my field while running my own business. I'm tired of the "Christianese"...,the trite little phrases that they say like "you're doing it for God" or my favorite "God never gives you more than you can handle".
Is it any indication that I feel better, I'm a better parent, a better friend, a better more organized worker, my brain is uncluttered and I have more peace in my life than I've ever had. My relationship with Jesus is better and I don't feel guilt and shame anymore. I've dont really remember being on the other side of ministry, where I can just be a person, not having to learn songs every weekend or having worship nightmares where I don't know the songs, or my amp stops working or I'm late or I'm getting yelled at cuz I don't know the songs...or that I have to be something that I'm not because of my "visibility" in the community. I don't have to worry if what I say or do offends some religious nazi.
The "mega" church wore me out. I'm in mega church recovery I guess.
Is it any indication that I feel better, I'm a better parent, a better friend, a better more organized worker, my brain is uncluttered and I have more peace in my life than I've ever had. My relationship with Jesus is better and I don't feel guilt and shame anymore. I've dont really remember being on the other side of ministry, where I can just be a person, not having to learn songs every weekend or having worship nightmares where I don't know the songs, or my amp stops working or I'm late or I'm getting yelled at cuz I don't know the songs...or that I have to be something that I'm not because of my "visibility" in the community. I don't have to worry if what I say or do offends some religious nazi.
The "mega" church wore me out. I'm in mega church recovery I guess.