I have a major mental conflicting opinionative battle. I feel my conscience /god is telling me to give up martial arts because if I do it, I condone as an image to others, it's OK to do combat for fun. Even though the martial arts I do is quite passive.
My teacher says there's nothing wrong with training, if I think of it as a meditative state, reacting to force etc. He says my thinking needs to change. I like martial arts training, but don't want the mental imagery of aggressive actions when I am at home etc. It's not yoga, so there is a mental connection to fighting. I keep getting talked into continuing, and it would be a waste of training if I gave it up because im over thinking things, but also if I continue, am I not letting God in. Will I quit later dragging it out, or get over it. Is it god or me? Help
My teacher says there's nothing wrong with training, if I think of it as a meditative state, reacting to force etc. He says my thinking needs to change. I like martial arts training, but don't want the mental imagery of aggressive actions when I am at home etc. It's not yoga, so there is a mental connection to fighting. I keep getting talked into continuing, and it would be a waste of training if I gave it up because im over thinking things, but also if I continue, am I not letting God in. Will I quit later dragging it out, or get over it. Is it god or me? Help