Demons...

[Jenesis]

I had been brought up with God and have always believed in him, never have doubted his existence and have always had the desire to serve him. But it's never been easy for me especially when I became an adult.

After turning seventeen I was more interested in having fun and indulging in earthly pleasures such as pre-marital sex with my long term boyfriend and getting drunk and partying every weekend. And I have continued doing this up until two days ago. I feel I have woken up to myself because there is a possiblity that I am pregnant with a baby to a man I have no feelings for and who I don't want to see again. we went on a couple of dates and there was no chemistry and because I mentioned that I have been getting drunk almost every weekend for the last 5 years, we had sex because I was completely intoxicated and when I am that drunk it's easy to take advantage of me. It was unprotected but I was too drunk to notice and I thought that he "pulled out" but he didn't. I have not confirmed yet that I am pregnant but there are convincing physical symptoms even though I have taken 6 pregnancy tests in the last month and they have come up negative. I am worried and ashamed because this is a situation I have always been disgusted by and never wanted for myself. I have no intention of having a relationship with this guy if it turns out I am pregnant because he repulses me so I will be a single Christian mother, forever in this guys life as long as this child is living and breathing. I know it's selfish of me but I can't help thinking about how badly I hope he wants nothing to do with the baby so I can raise the child on my own. I've wanted a Christian husband to have my own family with and I feel that I've ruined my life even though i know things can work out in the end.

Anyways that is my current situation.

My background is this: Ever since I was around 12 or 13 I started having dreams of a godly nature. I know they are from God because I can feel it. They have a profound effect on me. I have also had dreams about future wars and things that are to come but I don't know what I'm supposed to get out of them. Then I started getting harrassed by demons which was my own fault because I stupidly fooled around with tarot cards thinking they were meaningless and because I didn't take them seriously they'd have no effect on me. But the cards took me seriously and for a year straight I had nightmares that I was normal and then demons would inhabit my body, the lights would flick on and off in the dream, my face would contort and I'd be biting down on my teeth trying to break them. The demons would throw me around the room in the dream and it doesn't sound that scary but the thing about these dreams is the atmosphere you feel. anyone who has had these dreams understands what I mean. I was blinded by these demons and they held me in bondage for that whole year. I never once thought to pray for deliverance, that's how blind they made me even though as a Christian, I should have prayed straight away. After that year I got sick and tired of being afraid. I couldn't sleep alone I was so scared. So I prayed for about a month straight every night and then one night in my dreams the demons were coming to get me. The lights flickered on and off in the dream and I thought "here they come" but something told me to yell out "the blood of the lamb" a couple times and I did. I started coughing out black demons. There was between 5-7 of them. after that I didn't have any of those dreams for about another year. I should have been more appreciative of what God did for me but I was completely ungrateful and kept on with my sinful lifestyle.

I then met my next boyfriend and he seemed perfect. I fell pregnant to him within two months of us dating and he propsed to me. Unfortunately I miscarried the baby at 9 weeks. After that my fiance started hitting me and pushing me and calling me names. He had been invovled in the occult and all kinds of things in his past and he hated God bitterly. He was having nightmares that the devil was visiting him and I prayed to God to rid him of the dreams and God did. The last dream he had was a demon scolding me because of my crucifix necklace in the bathroom. Scary right? My fiance had a massive alcohol abuse problem and when he would get drunk he would tell me he was going to hit me and would become violent. Then when he would sober he said he couldnt remember doing it. I believe he is severely oppressed by demons and they also blind him when he is drunk and get him to attack me because they know who I am- they know I'm a Christian or at least that I am saved even though I am struggling. I left my fiance around 6 months ago because I knew I couldn't help him and my family became afraid that one day they'd get a phonecall from the police to say I'd been beaten to death or something. My fiance still denies the domestic violence and anything that portrays him in a negative light and for months after the break up I hated him. But I was still in love with him too. The last night I slept at our house I woke up to see a snake circling in the air. I believe they have him in a bondage that he may never get out of because he cannot admit that he has problems. Everything is everyone elses fault. However I didn't smarten up. I slept with him twice after we broke up which was a huge mistake because he told me he never wanted to marry me and he cut me very deep because after the miscarriage I thought I had his love to hold onto to get me through the pain of losing our baby. But I didn't. So I next weekend I got so drunk that I caught a taxi to his house and started screaming and abusing him. Since then I haven't seen him and have been praying to be relieved of the hate I feel for him. I almost never mention him now although I do still have anger I am trying to let go of.

So I've still been living an unclean lifestyle which as I mentioned I may be pregnant. I think it's a 90% chance that I am. I've been going out and getting more drunk than ever and having sex with this guy I don't care about even though this is not who I am at all. It really isn't who I am but like my ex there are forces around me that I find hard to resist. I want to be a good Christian and live cleanly and walk with the Lord but it's so hard for me. And the demonic dreams have returned but they seem real like they are really happening. The demons won't let me say anything so I can make them leave. Although I have prayed about this to the Lord and last night I had a dream and was able to squeeze out the word "rebuke" and then they left and I think I woke up.

Can anybody offer me some advice to get me right with the Lord and to help me to be the person I should be because I feel helpless and exhausted by the constant temptations that I can't seem to pass up. I keep thinking that life will be boring if I have to give up partying to serve the Lord but I also know deep down this isn't true. I am struggling and really need some help from fellow Christian's.

sorry if this is all over the place and if it's a big read!

Thanks

 

[Beeb0]

Giving up the ways of the world can be hard, I know from experience, but once you are able to fully dedicate yourself to Jesus, you will no longer want any of those things. You will be filled with a newfound peace & have comfort that you have never known before. Pray in Jesus name for him to come into your life & guide you. From what i've gathered in your post, you've always been a child of God who just got on the wrong path ..don't let that discourage you from living the way you know you are meant to.

Once we dedicate ourself to the Lord, no matter if we get strayed away from his path, he will always bring his children back to righteousness. As far as those demons go, they will do anything to keep you away from God ...Fight them at all costs, praise our God at all times & let them know who you are & what you stand for, Satan himself trembles in fear at the mere thought of anything to do with our Lord. You are a child of God & you will overcome this. My prayers are with you.

 

[DansChance]

Hi sister,

When demons enter our lives we often feel torment. They hate God and when you become a christian there is a target on you as well. Fortunatly there is help for us. God is on our side.

When we sinfully engage in the occult it gives demons "legal rights" to enter us and we have provided them with a stronghold. The way to break strongholds is to first renounce what we did. I recomend that you pray this: God I am sorry for sinning against you. I renounce any and all involvement in the occult and especially tarot cards. Lord forgive me forthe sin of playing with tarot cards. Lord rermove any and all demons from me. Amen.

This will help, as you renounce what you did but may not be enough. You may need to visit with someone who is skilled in deliverance. Meeting with a "deliverance minister" never hurts and may make your life a whole lot better. He or she can bring you closer to God. he/she may be able to bring and God's presence back to you. Sorry this is kinda short. If you have any questions, please ask.

 

[Ashkuhn]

All of the above answers are good. What you are going through is terrible.. The only other advice that I can give you that hasn't been mentioned yet is to look to your Bible for guidance and inspiration. God has brought you here for love and support. We are your friends and here to give that to you, especially in this extremely difficult time. You are in my heart and prayers!

 

[Richard1979]

Hi, I too have troubles with demons. I think we who have such trouble should remember the scripture in Luke 18:1-8 which basically say's that when we have trouble that we should continue to come to Him repeatedly in prayer and that He will help us. If the problem doesnt disappear instantly then we must persist and not give up in seeking the Lords help for He will set us free.
About you saying "Can anybody offer me some advice to get me right with the Lord and to help me to be the person I should be because I feel helpless and exhausted by the constant temptations that I can't seem to pass up." If you contine to confess your sins and to ask for help to stop doing them then the Lord will certainly help that stop too.
God loves you, He doesnt want to give us commands and then not help us when we come to Him for help. The Lord also is patient. The demons want us to belive that He gives up on us and wont help us through our troubles but thats a lie.
I will pray for you, take care and God bless

 

[Baptistrw]

I had been brought up with God and have always believed in him, never have doubted his existence and have always had the desire to serve him. But it's never been easy for me especially when I became an adult.

After turning seventeen I was more interested in having fun and indulging in earthly pleasures such as pre-marital sex with my long term boyfriend and getting drunk and partying every weekend. And I have continued doing this up until two days ago. I feel I have woken up to myself because there is a possiblity that I am pregnant with a baby to a man I have no feelings for and who I don't want to see again. we went on a couple of dates and there was no chemistry and because I mentioned that I have been getting drunk almost every weekend for the last 5 years, we had sex because I was completely intoxicated and when I am that drunk it's easy to take advantage of me. It was unprotected but I was too drunk to notice and I thought that he "pulled out" but he didn't. I have not confirmed yet that I am pregnant but there are convincing physical symptoms even though I have taken 6 pregnancy tests in the last month and they have come up negative. I am worried and ashamed because this is a situation I have always been disgusted by and never wanted for myself. I have no intention of having a relationship with this guy if it turns out I am pregnant because he repulses me so I will be a single Christian mother, forever in this guys life as long as this child is living and breathing. I know it's selfish of me but I can't help thinking about how badly I hope he wants nothing to do with the baby so I can raise the child on my own. I've wanted a Christian husband to have my own family with and I feel that I've ruined my life even though i know things can work out in the end.

Anyways that is my current situation.

My background is this: Ever since I was around 12 or 13 I started having dreams of a godly nature. I know they are from God because I can feel it. They have a profound effect on me. I have also had dreams about future wars and things that are to come but I don't know what I'm supposed to get out of them. Then I started getting harrassed by demons which was my own fault because I stupidly fooled around with tarot cards thinking they were meaningless and because I didn't take them seriously they'd have no effect on me. But the cards took me seriously and for a year straight I had nightmares that I was normal and then demons would inhabit my body, the lights would flick on and off in the dream, my face would contort and I'd be biting down on my teeth trying to break them. The demons would throw me around the room in the dream and it doesn't sound that scary but the thing about these dreams is the atmosphere you feel. anyone who has had these dreams understands what I mean. I was blinded by these demons and they held me in bondage for that whole year. I never once thought to pray for deliverance, that's how blind they made me even though as a Christian, I should have prayed straight away. After that year I got sick and tired of being afraid. I couldn't sleep alone I was so scared. So I prayed for about a month straight every night and then one night in my dreams the demons were coming to get me. The lights flickered on and off in the dream and I thought "here they come" but something told me to yell out "the blood of the lamb" a couple times and I did. I started coughing out black demons. There was between 5-7 of them. after that I didn't have any of those dreams for about another year. I should have been more appreciative of what God did for me but I was completely ungrateful and kept on with my sinful lifestyle.

I then met my next boyfriend and he seemed perfect. I fell pregnant to him within two months of us dating and he propsed to me. Unfortunately I miscarried the baby at 9 weeks. After that my fiance started hitting me and pushing me and calling me names. He had been invovled in the occult and all kinds of things in his past and he hated God bitterly. He was having nightmares that the devil was visiting him and I prayed to God to rid him of the dreams and God did. The last dream he had was a demon scolding me because of my crucifix necklace in the bathroom. Scary right? My fiance had a massive alcohol abuse problem and when he would get drunk he would tell me he was going to hit me and would become violent. Then when he would sober he said he couldnt remember doing it. I believe he is severely oppressed by demons and they also blind him when he is drunk and get him to attack me because they know who I am- they know I'm a Christian or at least that I am saved even though I am struggling. I left my fiance around 6 months ago because I knew I couldn't help him and my family became afraid that one day they'd get a phonecall from the police to say I'd been beaten to death or something. My fiance still denies the domestic violence and anything that portrays him in a negative light and for months after the break up I hated him. But I was still in love with him too. The last night I slept at our house I woke up to see a snake circling in the air. I believe they have him in a bondage that he may never get out of because he cannot admit that he has problems. Everything is everyone elses fault. However I didn't smarten up. I slept with him twice after we broke up which was a huge mistake because he told me he never wanted to marry me and he cut me very deep because after the miscarriage I thought I had his love to hold onto to get me through the pain of losing our baby. But I didn't. So I next weekend I got so drunk that I caught a taxi to his house and started screaming and abusing him. Since then I haven't seen him and have been praying to be relieved of the hate I feel for him. I almost never mention him now although I do still have anger I am trying to let go of.

So I've still been living an unclean lifestyle which as I mentioned I may be pregnant. I think it's a 90% chance that I am. I've been going out and getting more drunk than ever and having sex with this guy I don't care about even though this is not who I am at all. It really isn't who I am but like my ex there are forces around me that I find hard to resist. I want to be a good Christian and live cleanly and walk with the Lord but it's so hard for me. And the demonic dreams have returned but they seem real like they are really happening. The demons won't let me say anything so I can make them leave. Although I have prayed about this to the Lord and last night I had a dream and was able to squeeze out the word "rebuke" and then they left and I think I woke up.

Can anybody offer me some advice to get me right with the Lord and to help me to be the person I should be because I feel helpless and exhausted by the constant temptations that I can't seem to pass up. I keep thinking that life will be boring if I have to give up partying to serve the Lord but I also know deep down this isn't true. I am struggling and really need some help from fellow Christian's.

sorry if this is all over the place and if it's a big read!

Thanks

I think repentance and surrendering your will to God is what you need. One cannot life that type of lifestyle and be Christ's. I will be praying for you though.

 

[Jenesis]

Thanks everyone for your answers. I am not pregnant, the lord has shown me mercy there.

 

[kermit]

good morning.

dont apologize for your posted testimony being all over the place and a long read. you have a lot to say and you've experienced a lot and you seem to have somewhat of a handle on what is going on with you. your ex...the occult fool...stay away from him. pray without ceasing. when you can't think of anything to say, pray the lord's prayer. jesus taught it to us in matthew 6 and told us specifically, "this is how we are to pray." there is a saying of mine: PRAY, OR BE PREY. so i know a little something about demons i have wrestled with them myself.

seek ye the lord with all your mind, all your body, all your spirit, with all that you are, and you will find him.

draw near to me, he says, and i will draw near to you.

seek ye first the kingdom of god and all his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.

be strong in the lord. he will never leave you or forsake you.

peace.

derek

 

[Bree]

Hello after reading your story I came to the realization that I live like that aswell.. Not the same circumstances but there are times when I have al clear hear and can hear the Lord but then one weak moment will topple all the work and i feel so ashamed and useless and picking up the pieces becomes too hard. But i have now accepted that there will be times when i will falter on the path and it will seem like there is jut too much baggage for the Lord But i must pick myself up and try again. Always get up. Once you stop trying and lie there on the beaten path you will be vulnerable and at prey for other things to consume your mind. Im not sure if this helps you. But know you are not alone in all this suffering.

 

[Ell-]

I had been brought up with God and have always believed in him, never have doubted his existence and have always had the desire to serve him. But it's never been easy for me especially when I became an adult.

After turning seventeen I was more interested in having fun and indulging in earthly pleasures such as pre-marital sex with my long term boyfriend and getting drunk and partying every weekend. And I have continued doing this up until two days ago. I feel I have woken up to myself because there is a possiblity that I am pregnant with a baby to a man I have no feelings for and who I don't want to see again. we went on a couple of dates and there was no chemistry and because I mentioned that I have been getting drunk almost every weekend for the last 5 years, we had sex because I was completely intoxicated and when I am that drunk it's easy to take advantage of me. It was unprotected but I was too drunk to notice and I thought that he "pulled out" but he didn't. I have not confirmed yet that I am pregnant but there are convincing physical symptoms even though I have taken 6 pregnancy tests in the last month and they have come up negative. I am worried and ashamed because this is a situation I have always been disgusted by and never wanted for myself. I have no intention of having a relationship with this guy if it turns out I am pregnant because he repulses me so I will be a single Christian mother, forever in this guys life as long as this child is living and breathing. I know it's selfish of me but I can't help thinking about how badly I hope he wants nothing to do with the baby so I can raise the child on my own. I've wanted a Christian husband to have my own family with and I feel that I've ruined my life even though i know things can work out in the end.

Anyways that is my current situation.

My background is this: Ever since I was around 12 or 13 I started having dreams of a godly nature. I know they are from God because I can feel it. They have a profound effect on me. I have also had dreams about future wars and things that are to come but I don't know what I'm supposed to get out of them. Then I started getting harrassed by demons which was my own fault because I stupidly fooled around with tarot cards thinking they were meaningless and because I didn't take them seriously they'd have no effect on me. But the cards took me seriously and for a year straight I had nightmares that I was normal and then demons would inhabit my body, the lights would flick on and off in the dream, my face would contort and I'd be biting down on my teeth trying to break them. The demons would throw me around the room in the dream and it doesn't sound that scary but the thing about these dreams is the atmosphere you feel. anyone who has had these dreams understands what I mean. I was blinded by these demons and they held me in bondage for that whole year. I never once thought to pray for deliverance, that's how blind they made me even though as a Christian, I should have prayed straight away. After that year I got sick and tired of being afraid. I couldn't sleep alone I was so scared. So I prayed for about a month straight every night and then one night in my dreams the demons were coming to get me. The lights flickered on and off in the dream and I thought "here they come" but something told me to yell out "the blood of the lamb" a couple times and I did. I started coughing out black demons. There was between 5-7 of them. after that I didn't have any of those dreams for about another year. I should have been more appreciative of what God did for me but I was completely ungrateful and kept on with my sinful lifestyle.

I then met my next boyfriend and he seemed perfect. I fell pregnant to him within two months of us dating and he propsed to me. Unfortunately I miscarried the baby at 9 weeks. After that my fiance started hitting me and pushing me and calling me names. He had been invovled in the occult and all kinds of things in his past and he hated God bitterly. He was having nightmares that the devil was visiting him and I prayed to God to rid him of the dreams and God did. The last dream he had was a demon scolding me because of my crucifix necklace in the bathroom. Scary right? My fiance had a massive alcohol abuse problem and when he would get drunk he would tell me he was going to hit me and would become violent. Then when he would sober he said he couldnt remember doing it. I believe he is severely oppressed by demons and they also blind him when he is drunk and get him to attack me because they know who I am- they know I'm a Christian or at least that I am saved even though I am struggling. I left my fiance around 6 months ago because I knew I couldn't help him and my family became afraid that one day they'd get a phonecall from the police to say I'd been beaten to death or something. My fiance still denies the domestic violence and anything that portrays him in a negative light and for months after the break up I hated him. But I was still in love with him too. The last night I slept at our house I woke up to see a snake circling in the air. I believe they have him in a bondage that he may never get out of because he cannot admit that he has problems. Everything is everyone elses fault. However I didn't smarten up. I slept with him twice after we broke up which was a huge mistake because he told me he never wanted to marry me and he cut me very deep because after the miscarriage I thought I had his love to hold onto to get me through the pain of losing our baby. But I didn't. So I next weekend I got so drunk that I caught a taxi to his house and started screaming and abusing him. Since then I haven't seen him and have been praying to be relieved of the hate I feel for him. I almost never mention him now although I do still have anger I am trying to let go of.

So I've still been living an unclean lifestyle which as I mentioned I may be pregnant. I think it's a 90% chance that I am. I've been going out and getting more drunk than ever and having sex with this guy I don't care about even though this is not who I am at all. It really isn't who I am but like my ex there are forces around me that I find hard to resist. I want to be a good Christian and live cleanly and walk with the Lord but it's so hard for me. And the demonic dreams have returned but they seem real like they are really happening. The demons won't let me say anything so I can make them leave. Although I have prayed about this to the Lord and last night I had a dream and was able to squeeze out the word "rebuke" and then they left and I think I woke up.

Can anybody offer me some advice to get me right with the Lord and to help me to be the person I should be because I feel helpless and exhausted by the constant temptations that I can't seem to pass up. I keep thinking that life will be boring if I have to give up partying to serve the Lord but I also know deep down this isn't true. I am struggling and really need some help from fellow Christian's.

sorry if this is all over the place and if it's a big read!

Thanks

If a person is the Son or Daughter of GOD, then GOD will not leave that person be. Admitting that GOD exists will not save you, even the DEMONS did admit that Jesus was the Son of God. IF you truly are from GOD then you will do the will of GOD. As harsh as this may sound, it is the truth.

Ecclesiastes 11:9
Be happy, young man, while you are young,
and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth.
Follow the ways of your heart
and whatever your eyes see,
but know that for all these things
God will bring you to judgment.

 

[imoss]

If you feed the spirit the spirit will flourish... if you feed the flesh destruction will follow. Start every morning thanking God that you werent pregnant & praising and worshiping him for his wonderful gift of your salvation through Christ & all of the other blessings he's provided you. You are his beautiful prodigal daughter. Set your alarm for 20 min earlier and read your Bible, focusing on the new test. Just a bit every day. Read a proverb a day and truly reflect on this throughout the day. Speak to the Lord ALL DAY. Have conversation with him as you drive, do dishes, see things that hurt your heart or are tempted to fall back into your old lifestyle. I sincerely think the Lord had you have those symptoms to truly SHAKE you up. Dont pursue another man until you have effectively pursued God. Now repent and when you are done be sure to forgive yourself as Christ offers forgiveness. This is a huge one as after living such an unclean lifestyle you feel absolutely dirty and satan uses this against you and will use it to draw you away from the Lord. we are washed white as snow by the blood of our Lamb Lord Jesus Christ! Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord that you are here and fellowshipping with your Christian brothers and sisters. As far as the demonic oppression goes, when I was saved in a Pentecostal church all of that garbage went away in an instant (what an amazing occurance that was!!!) so I dont rightly undersand it & cant comment on what to do about it. I do know that you absolutely need to have it dealt with and think you should speak to a pastor about this. God Bless you sister in Christ and I pray that HE will send you a Godly sister to fellowship with, confide in and grow in your knowledge of Christ Jesus.

read my little poem below by D. DeHaan... try to listen when the Holy Spirit guides you.

 

[Jenesis]

Thanks everyone for your input.

 

[Happymom32]

You have the athourity through Jesus Christ to fight demons. I know a little about this because the last year was very very hard. But I found that authority in Christ and It is amazing. God asked me and my husband if we would do the last year over and at first we both said no way. But God said didn't I get you through this last year and aren't you suposto thank him through the trials. So I thought about it and if it wasn't for the things we went through I wouldn't be closer to God. So I said yes I would do this year all over again. Some times it seems that he is not there but he is he steps back to see what you are going to do, but he never leaves you. God Bless.

 

[Jenesis]

Yes luckily he never leaves us or else we'd be in trouble.

 

[imoss]

how are things going now Jenesis?

 

[Jenesis]

Things are awesome. I've been living cleanly for 4 weeks now and I'm just getting more strength and more hungry for Christ everyday. I am so thankful that I know God. Thanks for asking!

 

[StrangeSavant]

My guess is that you were raised Christian. Therefore, you experience deep guilt for indulging in "worldly" acts. Your subconscious mind houses all those guilts and manifests them in dream form.

It's interesting to note, I think, that people who aren't religious don't have dreams in which "demons" are stifling them. For example, I had a dream the other night that I had duffle bags full of raffle tickets that I used as cash. But that's not the point.

I am glad that you have been able to sleep peacefully, but I think there are still subconscious issues which you have not yet addressed. I think you should speak to a professional, personally, but any person willing to listen, Christian brethren or otherwise, can help you dig deeper to the root of your guilt.


Best of luck.

 

[Jenesis]

You don't believe in demons? strangesavant?

 

[mercyswolf]

My guess is that you were raised Christian. Therefore, you experience deep guilt for indulging in "worldly" acts. Your subconscious mind houses all those guilts and manifests them in dream form.

It's interesting to note, I think, that people who aren't religious don't have dreams in which "demons" are stifling them. For example, I had a dream the other night that I had duffle bags full of raffle tickets that I used as cash. But that's not the point.

I am glad that you have been able to sleep peacefully, but I think there are still subconscious issues which you have not yet addressed. I think you should speak to a professional, personally, but any person willing to listen, Christian brethren or otherwise, can help you dig deeper to the root of your guilt.


Best of luck.

Ok I don't mean to sound rude or out of line here but don't you think that guilt comes from conviction. Come on. Anyone who's anybody who knows that God is real and Satan the like knows that demons are REAL. I've known this girl for about a month and some change now and have been praying in faith for her and her situation. I can tell you that the minute I set my foot down and swore to help her overcome the things of this world and lift her up to the father and pray for her endlessly I can tell you I came under fire from hell itself and everything it had to throw at me and am still dealing with a lot of those problems in my personal life. I can tell you that demons are real myself as I'm struggling and fending them off daily. The bible talks about demons in various locations and how they were cast out of different people. Is it not enough for you that the bible even says they're real? Is it not enough for you to actually outright say that a person needs psychological help but in the reality of it they were going through hard times? Correct me if I'm wrong but this is no better than pooring salt into an open wound. Need I say more?

 

[imoss]

Bless your heart Jenesis, was thinking about you & this hymn came to mind. One day at a time sweet Jesus.

I’m only human–I’m just a man/woman.
Help me believe in what I believe and all that I am.
Show me the stairway that I have to climb,
Lord, for my sake, teach me to take, one day at a time.
One day at a time, sweet Jesus, that’s all I’m asking of you.
Teach me today, to do all the things that I have to do.
Yesterdays gone, sweet Jesus, and tomorrow may never be mine.
Lord, for my sake, teach me to take, one day at a time.
Do you remember, when you walked among men?
Well, Jesus you know, if you’re looking below, It’s worse now than then.
There’s cheating and stealing–violence and crime.
So for my sake - teach me to take one day at a time.
One day at a time, sweet Jesus, that’s all I’m asking of you.
Teach me today, to do all the things that I have to do.
Yesterdays gone, sweet Jesus, and tomorrow may never be mine.
Lord, for my sake, teach me to take, one day at a time.

Way to go girl! right now there is a whole lot of rejoicing going on! And do prepare to rebuke satan when he comes a callin, cause i tell you what he isnt going to just passively fade away thats for sure!! & boy does he know how to use those closest to us. Arm yourself with the breastplate of righteousness & the sword of the spirit (the word of God) Read Ephesians 6:10-20. Dont let anyone on here bring you down or shake your faith, you are doing just fine! Joyce Meyer says I'm not where I need to be but I'm not where I used to be... I know she's controversial on here but you know what, I had a similar background so alot of her ministry encouraged me early in my faith walk. Talk to you soon Marcia.