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I FEEL SO BETRAYED BY GOD!!!! IM SO MAD WITH HIM AND IF THAT MAKES ME A BAD PERSON THAN SO BE IT!!! I SWEAR ON EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE TRIED TO MAKE GOOD DICISIONS SMART DICISIONS AND DEVOTE MY LIFE TO GOD!!!! BUT IVE FALLEN INTO DEPRESSION!!!! IM GETTING THROWN BAD THINGS ONE AFTER THE OTHER!!! I CANT CATCH A BREAK!!! IMMM SOOO MAAD!!! GOD KNOWS WHERE MY INTENSIONS HAVE BEEN AND I HAVE DEDICATED EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE TO HIM BUT ITS NOT TRUE THAT GOD GIVES U WHAT U ASK FOR!!! I ASKED FOR OOOONNNEEE THING AND INSTEAD OF RECIEVING WHAT I ASKED FOR IM GETTING BAD THINGS THROWN AT ME!!!!
LET ME EXPLAIN A LITTLE MORE CLEARLY.... I MARRIED MY HUSBAND KNOWING THAT HE HAS ANOTHER SON AND IM OK WITH THE KID AND EVERYTHING BUT THE MOM IS JUST TOOOOOO MUCH DRAMA. AT FIRST I WOULD DEFEND MYSELF AND SAY THINGS BACK BUT THEN I PROMISED TO GOD THAT I WOULDNT DO THAT ANYMORE AND I WOULD JUST LET HER SAY WHAT SHE WANTED AND NOT MAKE ANYTHING OF IT!!!! MY MOTHER IN LAW AND SISTERS INLAW ALL HAVE HER ON THEIR FACE BOOK AND SO I DECIDED TO DELETE MINE BECAUSE I REALLY DIDNT WANT TO SEE HER OR JUST ANY PROBLEMS. ALL BECAUSE I KNOW THAT EVERYTIMES PROBLEMS START I END UP BEING MAD AT MY HUSBAND JUST BECAUSE OF THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH HER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE SINCE I NOW HAVE A SON WITH MY HUSBAND.
SO I ASKED GOD TO PLEASE HELP ME AVOID ANY POSSIBLE SITUATION THAT HAD TO DO WITH HER... WHEN ITS ABOUT MY HUSBANDS SON I CAN TOLERATE IT BUT WHEN ITS PERSONAL I HATE IT. IVE HAD PROBLEMS WITH MY INLAWS FOR TALKING BAD ABOUT ME TO HER AND I FINALLY TOLD GOD I DIDNT CARE IF THEY TALKED TO HER FOR THAT REASON I DELETED MY FACEBOOK BECAUSE AS MUCH AS I DONT CARE IF THEY TALK I JUST DONT WANT TO COME ACROSS THOSE CONVERSATIONS.
NOW LIVING WITH MY MOTHER IN LAW I ASKED MY SISTER IN LAW IF SHE HAD LINE PAPER AND WHEN SHE GAVE ME SOME SHE GOT IT FROM A BINDER THAT HAS A PICTURE OF MY HUSBAND WITH HIS BBY MOMMA!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH I MEAN IT DOESNT SOUND AS BAD BUT REALLY THERES SO MUCH MORE TO WHY I FEEL THIS WAY!!! I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE I CAN COUNT ON GOD ANYMORE :'(
AT THIS POINT IM HOPELESS!!
LET ME EXPLAIN A LITTLE MORE CLEARLY.... I MARRIED MY HUSBAND KNOWING THAT HE HAS ANOTHER SON AND IM OK WITH THE KID AND EVERYTHING BUT THE MOM IS JUST TOOOOOO MUCH DRAMA. AT FIRST I WOULD DEFEND MYSELF AND SAY THINGS BACK BUT THEN I PROMISED TO GOD THAT I WOULDNT DO THAT ANYMORE AND I WOULD JUST LET HER SAY WHAT SHE WANTED AND NOT MAKE ANYTHING OF IT!!!! MY MOTHER IN LAW AND SISTERS INLAW ALL HAVE HER ON THEIR FACE BOOK AND SO I DECIDED TO DELETE MINE BECAUSE I REALLY DIDNT WANT TO SEE HER OR JUST ANY PROBLEMS. ALL BECAUSE I KNOW THAT EVERYTIMES PROBLEMS START I END UP BEING MAD AT MY HUSBAND JUST BECAUSE OF THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH HER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE SINCE I NOW HAVE A SON WITH MY HUSBAND.
SO I ASKED GOD TO PLEASE HELP ME AVOID ANY POSSIBLE SITUATION THAT HAD TO DO WITH HER... WHEN ITS ABOUT MY HUSBANDS SON I CAN TOLERATE IT BUT WHEN ITS PERSONAL I HATE IT. IVE HAD PROBLEMS WITH MY INLAWS FOR TALKING BAD ABOUT ME TO HER AND I FINALLY TOLD GOD I DIDNT CARE IF THEY TALKED TO HER FOR THAT REASON I DELETED MY FACEBOOK BECAUSE AS MUCH AS I DONT CARE IF THEY TALK I JUST DONT WANT TO COME ACROSS THOSE CONVERSATIONS.
NOW LIVING WITH MY MOTHER IN LAW I ASKED MY SISTER IN LAW IF SHE HAD LINE PAPER AND WHEN SHE GAVE ME SOME SHE GOT IT FROM A BINDER THAT HAS A PICTURE OF MY HUSBAND WITH HIS BBY MOMMA!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH I MEAN IT DOESNT SOUND AS BAD BUT REALLY THERES SO MUCH MORE TO WHY I FEEL THIS WAY!!! I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE I CAN COUNT ON GOD ANYMORE :'(
AT THIS POINT IM HOPELESS!!