2Timothy,
I appreciate the compliment and everything you wrote.
Without going into great detail, I seeked like no one I ever met. Over the last 10-15 years while under extreme affliction stress and oppression nonstop.
You and hatedfornoreason if you was given the power and holy spirit which I believe you have, you feel totally safe and accepted.
But no matter how much I wanted God, no matter how much I learned and tried to obey and do what others said, no matter how much I prayed or asked for prayer, God never came to give me the Holy Spirit.
And as we have talked and discussed, the elect chosen always experience the power of the Holy Spirit that alone changes a person acceptably. Without it a person can’t be saved.
So basically I have been tortured all my life from mental physical extreme illness torture and then found that God the creator of me created me to reject me and afflict me with constant hurt. That I never had a chance and He created me to doom me. And that when I prayed for all my family and people I know realizing even tho many abused me with hate while sick, I wanted all to be saved eternally and experience God to love and be changed. But to find that more than likely all of everyone is doomed without a chance even if they wanted God or believe.
So this truth has not been joyful but absolute terror and pain. That the creator created most everyone I know to hate them and not love as I was taught. Even tho a person may be healthy and feel good, if God has not chosen them with Holy Spirit, they are hated cause God only sets His affection on those He chooses.
Wow, Gibson . . . I read and feel your stress, strains, and concerns. That said, I am not concerned about your Salvation as you are, despite the fact that you haven’t had a Spiritual Experience to speak of. Keep in mind that there is no Promise or Guarantee that you will feel a Powerful Indwelling by God’s Spirit; at least, not that I am aware of.
I don’t recall what I had previously written to you, but before a person is able to receive the Holy Spirit, they must receive the Circumcision of Christ. Colossians 2:9-15 tells us what this Circumcision is:
Colossians 2:11-14 NLT –
“When you came to Christ, you were "circumcised," but not by a physical procedure. Christ performed a spiritual circumcision--the cutting away of your sinful nature. For you were buried with Christ when you were baptized. And with him you were raised to new life because you trusted the mighty power of God, who raised Christ from the dead. You were dead because of your sins and because your sinful nature was not yet cut away. Then God made you alive with Christ, for he forgave all our sins. He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross.”
Circumcision is the first Primary Work of Christ. The second piece of Spiritual Work is granting, or Enabling you to Turn and Repent of your sins. Third, God sends the Holy Spirit, and lastly, the death of Jesus pays the debt for your sins. The first element of Salvation is for Jesus to relieve His Chosen ones of the Adamic Curse, the attached Sinful Nature. Until this Evil Nature is removed, it is impossible to Turn and Repent of sins (obey).
Romans 8:7-9 NLT –
“For the sinful nature is always hostile to God. It never did obey God's laws, and it never will. That's why those who are still under the control of their sinful nature can never please God. But you are not controlled by your sinful nature. You are controlled by the Spirit if you have the Spirit of God living in you. (And remember that those who do not have the Spirit of Christ living in them do not belong to him at all.)”
So you see, it is impossible to Turn to Christ unless the Curse of Adam and Eve has been lifted. It is impossible, otherwise, humans could do something about their own Salvation. But this is impossible:
Ezekiel 7:13b RSV –
“. . . and because of his iniquity, none can maintain his life.” – As you can see, if we are Cursed, there is nothing we can do about it but wait for Christ to alleviate that Curse. And Jesus has been doing exactly that since the days of Adam and Eve, for Able was the very first prophet. How can one be a True prophet of God, yet be Cursed at the same time? So . . . the Curse must be lifted and this is your primary focus and aim. The single most important thing that you can pray for, and hope to obtain in this life, is to experience the Circumcision of Christ.
Spiritual Experiences do not Transform us . . . the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit procure the required changes within us. A Holy Romans 12:2 is not dependent upon an Experience, but it depends on the Spirit of Christ.
Now . . . we need to talk about your sufferings. First, don’t you realize that those who the Lord Loves are the ones who are suffering?
Psalm 146:8 CSB –
“The LORD opens the eyes of the blind. The LORD raises up those who are oppressed. The LORD loves the righteous.”
But those who live wonderful, carefree lives . . . here is what the Lord has to say about these types of people:
Read all of Psalms 73 for encouragement, but for now, here is a piece of it:
Psalm 73:3-9, 12, 18 NKJV –
“For I was envious of the boastful, When I saw the prosperity of the wicked. For [there are] no pangs in their death, But their strength is firm. They are not in trouble as other men, Nor are they plagued like other men. Therefore pride serves as their necklace; Violence covers them like a garment. Their eyes bulge with abundance; They have more than heart could wish. They scoff and speak wickedly concerning oppression; They speak loftily. They set their mouth against the heavens, And their tongue walks through the earth. “... 12 “Behold, these are the ungodly, Who are always at ease; They increase in riches.” ... 18 “Surely You set them in slippery places; You cast them down to destruction.”
My point is that those who are suffering are the ones who must Endure. Note that I capitalized the word Endure, because, in my opinion, this is a most Holy word. I can tell from all that you wrote that your bank of Holy Wisdom will understand what I am about to say – Only those who are suffering must “Endure.” And you also must Endure, for you have, in fact, been Chosen. In my estimation, you absolutely belong to the Holy Elect. In my estimation, based upon all that you have written . . . you are a True Child of God!
I want you to view your many forms of suffering as Holy evidence of who and what you are. And yes, this means that those who want to be a True Child of God, must be prepared to be hated in this world; to be viewed as rubbish, while the children of the Devil live wonderful, easy lives. But you and me? We are promised to be miserable, for how else are we to feel like Strangers in a foreign land? How else are we to feel like Aliens? We are foreigners and Aliens because we are hated! And we are hated because we tell the Truth . . . hence the name, “Hatedfornoreason.”
As of today, I want you to feel joy because of your sufferings!
James 1:2-3 NIV –
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.”
Gibson . . . you ARE going to Persevere. You ARE going to Endure!
Hebrews 12:5-6 NIV –
“And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says, "My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son."
From this day forward, no more will you become discouraged because of your sufferings. You are suffering because the Lord Loves you, and in your sufferings, He expects you to turn to Him and no one or nothing else. The more you suffer, the more you are to turn to the Lord for his Love, Holy Guidance, and Eternal Friendship.
If you like, pick the Gospel of Mark and read the entire writing. Why? Because I want you to recognize that Jesus only healed those who were suffering. And this is how it is for you and me. God heals those who are suffering, just as Jesus only healed those who were physically experiencing ailments. But, these physical healings were Living Allegories to demonstrate what happens to a person on the inside . . . their Hearts. Jesus never healed, nor could he (or His disciples) if the person receiving the “healing” did not possess Faith. To be physically healed, and know that the Lord does not squander His pearls upon pigs, a person must already possess Faith. And this Faith is what? Faith is pronounced by Christ when He Spiritually Circumcises the Hearts of His Children.
Gibson . . . I am concerned about your stress over how you are “seeing” things. I don’t want you to feel this way anymore. Rather, I want you to view yourself with confidence as you recognize that God disciplines (sanctifies) you. How else are we to be Sanctified? It seems that to correct behaviors, we must be disciplined by the Lord, and this just isn’t going to feel good. So as long as you know these things, you should rejoice in knowing that you are not of those who live sinful, carefree lives! You are different . . . and you do not belong in this world, and you never will . . . ever again.
I believe in you!
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