*note: I've been trying to write this reply all night. But it has been one of those nights with nearly every type of interruption imaginable. Now that everyone's FINALLY in bed, I'll try and finish and post. Hope I didn't lose my train of thought to much*
It sounds as though you are struggling with this.
One the one hand it sounds as though you feel it may be time to let go........
on the other hand, it sounds as though you struggle because you have enjoyed and followed it for so long, and as you stated you know as much about them as you can with out personally knowing them.
okay, side note of a personal story/experience to help explain my point of view here:
I had been picking up a couple magazines for several years. One was a weekly publication, one was a monthly publication. Both centered around personal care, home care, recipes, etc. Well, in the very back of them on half a page was horoscope junk. I never read that page, but it just being there sorta troubled me. I kind of though maybe I shouldn't get them any more. But the recipes always looked and sounded so good! And the self care columns were very informative. So, I started pulling out those pages and tossing out the rest.
Then I started realizing how much money was going towards these publications. Didn't seem like much, a few dollars a week plus a few extra with that once monthly. But that started to bother me too. And this time, that "feeling" of maybe it's time to stop buying them grew a little stronger. The following publication I glanced at the rack they were on, but was busy so didn't get around to grabbing them.
Shortly thereafter I started cleaning out drawers that I had stuffed all those recipes and articles in, some issues never made it to toss out, so I saw the dates and realized they had been sitting around cluttering up my space and life, and recipes were never going to be made, nor "advice" put to use. It felt good and freeing to toss it all out.
Now at first, when I first stopped buying them it was a little difficult. I felt a pulling towards them, very drawn to reach over and pick one up. But, I knew if I did that it would end up in a wasted pile at home, so I didn't. Now, when I pass them by in the store I almost don't even notice them, nor care.
My point is, maybe you are questioning this because you feel the Lord is leading you away from certain things in life to make room for better things He has in store for you. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to walk away for a few weeks/sessions/shows (not really sure how the time frame works for UFC) and spend that time in a Bible study or prayer, or even just quality time with loved ones.
(oh, and I realized my library has subscriptions to BOTH magazines -uhhhh! Think of the $$ that I could've saved over the years by reading them there instead of purchasing them- but I don't even care to spend time flipping through them while at the library
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