New job

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I just got connected to my aunts friend who is interested in my services of building her a website and maintaining it. She provides the merch photos and handles all of the shipping, and I build the website, maintain it and possibly handle marketing. That being said, after our initial conversation that went well, I realized that we didn’t negotiate how I’ll be paid, if she is going to be creating this business the correct way or if she knows that there are certain documents that need to be obtained, filled out and sent to certain government agencies.

I just pray that I’m going to be working with someone of integrity, that has done something like this before cause my initial impression is that this is her first online business and I’m going to be the one to have to teach her everything and walk her through it which I don’t mind but I hope I have the energy for it.

I also pray that I’ll earn enough that all of my basic needs are taken care of, and if I can’t from this project, that God opens up another opportunity for me in the near future that will, along with rent and utlities.

In Jesus name
Amen.

 

[Eli1]

Do you know anything about application packaging?
Are you familiar with IT or is this something you're picking up and building a website?

 

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Do you know anything about application packaging?
Are you familiar with IT or is this something you're picking up and building a website?

I don’t know what application packaging is but I talked to her today and she said she has no problem with paying me either hourly or one lump sum. She said my services will be needed indefinitely most likely as long as she is working on this project.

I’m basically going to be picking this up and building her a website using Shopify, add all of the needed apps and plugins, set those all up, add her items, make sure the pages are graphically pleasing, do all the SEO work and might be doing on going marketing. So while she is at her regular job, I’ll be working on this website and doing the daily marketing I believe.

What is application packaging?

 

[Eli1]

I don’t know what application packaging is but I talked to her today and she said she has no problem with paying me either hourly or one lump sum. She said my services will be needed indefinitely most likely as long as she is working on this project.

I’m basically going to be picking this up and building her a website using Shopify, add all of the needed apps and plugins, set those all up, add her items, make sure the pages are graphically pleasing, do all the SEO work and might be doing on going marketing. So while she is at her regular job, I’ll be working on this website and doing the daily marketing I believe.

What is application packaging?

Nice.

Application packaging is converting anything into an MSI or packaging existing EXEs into silent installs for deployment in large companies.
That type of job is completley remote (even before covid) and it pays anywhere from $70 to $120 an hour.

 

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Nice.

Application packaging is converting anything into an MSI or packaging existing EXEs into silent installs for deployment in large companies.
That type of job is completley remote (even before covid) and it pays anywhere from $70 to $120 an hour.

I think what I’ll be doing is very basic in comparison but who knows

 

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Nice.

Application packaging is converting anything into an MSI or packaging existing EXEs into silent installs for deployment in large companies.
That type of job is completley remote (even before covid) and it pays anywhere from $70 to $120 an hour.

I’ll be basically managing a Shopify store. So way more basic stuff

 

[CarriePie]

You are certainly in my prayers. I'm hoping this goes well for you, that it's not too draining and that it works out fairly for you!

I don't know anything about building/maintaining websites, but I do admire your abilities and all the positive changes you've made in life and aspire to make. That's inspirational!

Hoping for all the best for you. May the Lord guide you through this entire process, and always toward His will for your life.

 

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You are certainly in my prayers. I'm hoping this goes well for you, that it's not too draining and that it works out fairly for you!

I don't know anything about building/maintaining websites, but I do admire your abilities and all the positive changes you've made in life and aspire to make. That's inspirational!

Hoping for all the best for you. May the Lord guide you through this entire process, and always toward His will for your life.

I pray the same. It’s a little draining. I just have to work like I’m working for the lord and not for human masters and I should be good. As long as I’m treating them well and maintaining my integrity, everything should go well. This job is like any Shopify store that I ever opened but now someone else is paying me to do it, instead of me doing it all in my own. Plus, I get to work from home or anywhere, quietly, with my hands, as stated in scripture. I also negotiated a 1% commission on every item sold, so we’ll see if that is accepted. I’m basically a Shopify Store Manager.

If I can’t have privacy at home, I may have to get dressed every morning like I’m going to work and just go to a public library to work on my laptop or a coffee shop. That way I have a routine. My mother can’t help but constantly get my attention while I am trying to work at home and our dog constantly wants to go into the backyard and back inside all day while the back door is in my room, so I can see that as breaking my focus. So I will not allow that happen.

 

[CarriePie]

I pray the same. It’s a little draining. I just have to work like I’m working for the lord and not for human masters and I should be good. As long as I’m treating them well and maintaining my integrity, everything should go well. This job is like any Shopify store that I ever opened but now someone else is paying me to do it, instead of me doing it all in my own. Plus, I get to work from home or anywhere, quietly, with my hands, as stated in scripture. I also negotiated a 1% commission on every item sold, so we’ll see if that is accepted. I’m basically a Shopify Store Manager.

If I can’t have privacy at home, I may have to get dressed every morning like I’m going to work and just go to a public library to work on my laptop or a coffee shop. That way I have a routine. My mother can’t help but constantly get my attention while I am trying to work at home and our dog constantly wants to go into the backyard and back inside all day while the back door is in my room, so I can see that as breaking my focus. So I will not allow that happen.

I get distracted easily, so I'd definitely have to go to the library. I'm glad you have a plan and a place you can go when needed. That's very helpful. I hope your commission will be accepted.

It can be nice working alone, whether at home or somewhere else. I used to work mostly alone counting money in an accounting office. My entire shift was just that, counting money. I'd come out of the office and the people who worked outside of the office would be curious about my work. "What's it like to work with all that money?" I wasn't supposed to talk much about it, so I'd just say something funny, "I always knew I'd have a lot of money, I just didn't know it wasn't going to mine!" We'd all chuckle and I'd move on.

Anyway, I hope you find privacy and success in your work and maybe some humor once in a while. You'll continue to be in my prayers!

 

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I get distracted easily, so I'd definitely have to go to the library. I'm glad you have a plan and a place you can go when needed. That's very helpful. I hope your commission will be accepted.

It can be nice working alone, whether at home or somewhere else. I used to work mostly alone counting money in an accounting office. My entire shift was just that, counting money. I'd come out of the office and the people who worked outside of the office would be curious about my work. "What's it like to work with all that money?" I wasn't supposed to talk much about it, so I'd just say something funny, "I always knew I'd have a lot of money, I just didn't know it wasn't going to mine!" We'd all chuckle and I'd move on.

Anyway, I hope you find privacy and success in your work and maybe some humor once in a while. You'll continue to be in my prayers!

i definitely need humor in my life. Probably why I’m drawn to stand up comedy. I just recently watched the a comedian on Amazon prime video and I think I laughed maybe once or twice. What happened to all the good comedians, who aren’t trying to sell you a worldly belief? I like dark comedy and it seems like all of those comedians got “cancelled”. The last funny comedian I saw was 70 years old and his opening line was “I just paid off my student loan” and I thought it was the most clever, funniest thing an older guy can say.

I remember working at Olive Garden with all the tips I would earn as a server. So many people would ask how much I earned. It was uncomfortable.

 

[seantspence]

You are certainly in my prayers. I'm hoping this goes well for you, that it's not too draining and that it works out fairly for you!

I don't know anything about building/maintaining websites, but I do admire your abilities and all the positive changes you've made in life and aspire to make. That's inspirational!

Hoping for all the best for you. May the Lord guide you through this entire process, and always toward His will for your life.

She is a winner @tourist

 

[CarriePie]

i definitely need humor in my life. Probably why I’m drawn to stand up comedy. I just recently watched the a comedian on Amazon prime video and I think I laughed maybe once or twice. What happened to all the good comedians, who aren’t trying to sell you a worldly belief? I like dark comedy and it seems like all of those comedians got “cancelled”. The last funny comedian I saw was 70 years old and his opening line was “I just paid off my student loan” and I thought it was the most clever, funniest thing an older guy can say.

I remember working at Olive Garden with all the tips I would earn as a server. So many people would ask how much I earned. It was uncomfortable.

My laugh reaction was for the student loan joke lol. I agree with comedy not being what it used to be. Comedy isn't something I get into, but even I've noticed that it's changed. There is a guy who talks about social engineering in movies, shows, etc. He used to be on yt, but is mostly on Rumble now due to being kicked off yt. Anyway, he did a video one time talking about comedy not being funny any more. It was informative.
I went to a comedy movie with some people from work one time. I didn't find it funny at all, it was mostly lewd and disgusting humor. And people say what I watch is disgusting! lol

I never understood why people have to ask questions about money. I even feel uncomfortable asking money related questions. Some people are just wired differently.

 

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My laugh reaction was for the student loan joke lol. I agree with comedy not being what it used to be. Comedy isn't something I get into, but even I've noticed that it's changed. There is a guy who talks about social engineering in movies, shows, etc. He used to be on yt, but is mostly on Rumble now due to being kicked off yt. Anyway, he did a video one time talking about comedy not being funny any more. It was informative.
I went to a comedy movie with some people from work one time. I didn't find it funny at all, it was mostly lewd and disgusting humor. And people say what I watch is disgusting! lol

I never understood why people have to ask questions about money. I even feel uncomfortable asking money related questions. Some people are just wired differently.

I don’t mind talking money with family members, such as a budget but when it comes to employees that I work with, it just seems odd to me, like they are trying to compare themselves.

 

[CarriePie]

I don’t mind talking money with family members, such as a budget but when it comes to employees that I work with, it just seems odd to me, like they are trying to compare themselves.

That and also nosy. My mother was a nosy person. She was often asking people uncomfortable questions lol. Maybe I seen that and decided to not be nosy. I dunno, but I figure that anything about another person is none of my business unless they open up to me about it or they make it my business. Besides, most of the time I really don't want to know lol. Sometimes ignorance really is bliss.

 

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That and also nosy. My mother was a nosy person. She was often asking people uncomfortable questions lol. Maybe I seen that and decided to not be nosy. I dunno, but I figure that anything about another person is none of my business unless they open up to me about it or they make it my business. Besides, most of the time I really don't want to know lol. Sometimes ignorance really is bliss.

I agree. It is bliss. My mom compares our house to the rest of the neighbors and is more interested in celebrities lives than realizing the problems in her own life. Her room was stuff almost piled to the ceiling. I have told her many times to seek a therapist for it but she doesn’t think there is anything wrong with how the inside of her room or the rest of the house looks like, that she won’t let anyone organize without her permission. My room is organized and clean. My brothers room is somewhat organized and clean. You would think that when her room is the way it is, she would take responsibility and get help. She also drinking jegermeister with rocks star about 4 times a day, every day for ten years and says she doesn’t have a problem. She also eats tons of junk food every single day but because her job as a package handler at FedEx is so physically demanding, she is able to manage her weight but that doesn’t mean she is healthy. I can go on and on about how I would fix my mom. I’ve prayed so much for her but it seems like she is so stubborn and stuck in her ways, that she will die this way.

 

[CarriePie]

I agree. It is bliss. My mom compares our house to the rest of the neighbors and is more interested in celebrities lives than realizing the problems in her own life. Her room was stuff almost piled to the ceiling. I have told her many times to seek a therapist for it but she doesn’t think there is anything wrong with how the inside of her room or the rest of the house looks like, that she won’t let anyone organize without her permission. My room is organized and clean. My brothers room is somewhat organized and clean. You would think that when her room is the way it is, she would take responsibility and get help. She also drinking jegermeister with rocks star about 4 times a day, every day for ten years and says she doesn’t have a problem. She also eats tons of junk food every single day but because her job as a package handler at FedEx is so physically demanding, she is able to manage her weight but that doesn’t mean she is healthy. I can go on and on about how I would fix my mom. I’ve prayed so much for her but it seems like she is so stubborn and stuck in her ways, that she will die this way.

My father was disorganized and accumulated things. He didn't drink or smoke or anything else. He was just very grumpy and disorganized, but I loved him lots. After someone passes away that had a lot of stuff, going through it is so overwhelming. It's been a trying process for me. Besides it being a lot to handle, it also adds to the sorrow. Also, his stuff is rarely what it seems. Just one example, I needed an antibiotic one day. I grabbed one of his bottles of antibiotics, but that wasn't what was in the bottle...there is bullets in there lol.

I lived with my grandparents growing up. They built/owned/ran a bar. Admittedly, I've tried a good number of alcohols, but I hadn't tried jegermeister until just late last year. When I was a child, I had to get some immunizing shots and also the nurse gave me some kind of medicine to drink. I thought the jegermeister tasted just like that medicine I was given lol

I agree that someone can look healthy, yet not be healthy. I worked with a guy who was slender, but he drank a 2 liter bottle of soda through the day at work and he told me that he drinks another after work. This is not to mention the unhealthy foods he ate.

It's hard to not be stubborn. My mother always told me that I'm hardheaded. Hopefully in a good way

 

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That and also nosy. My mother was a nosy person. She was often asking people uncomfortable questions lol. Maybe I seen that and decided to not be nosy. I dunno, but I figure that anything about another person is none of my business unless they open up to me about it or they make it my business. Besides, most of the time I really don't want to know lol. Sometimes ignorance really is bliss.

My father was disorganized and accumulated things. He didn't drink or smoke or anything else. He was just very grumpy and disorganized, but I loved him lots. After someone passes away that had a lot of stuff, going through it is so overwhelming. It's been a trying process for me. Besides it being a lot to handle, it also adds to the sorrow. Also, his stuff is rarely what it seems. Just one example, I needed an antibiotic one day. I grabbed one of his bottles of antibiotics, but that wasn't what was in the bottle...there is bullets in there lol.

I lived with my grandparents growing up. They built/owned/ran a bar. Admittedly, I've tried a good number of alcohols, but I hadn't tried jegermeister until just late last year. When I was a child, I had to get some immunizing shots and also the nurse gave me some kind of medicine to drink. I thought the jegermeister tasted just like that medicine I was given lol

I agree that someone can look healthy, yet not be healthy. I worked with a guy who was slender, but he drank a 2 liter bottle of soda through the day at work and he told me that he drinks another after work. This is not to mention the unhealthy foods he ate.

It's hard to not be stubborn. My mother always told me that I'm hardheaded. Hopefully in a good way

I laughed out loud when you said your dad had bullets in a medicine bottle.

I think I might just throw it all out. A lot of it is my great grandmothers and my grandmothers clothing piled up. There are a few things of value, such as a painting from some artist whose paintings go for around 500k.

I would literally throw everything out, sell that painting, pay off what is left of the mortgage, pay off my sister and brother their equal inheritance by taking money out of the house and creating another mortgage, build one of those diy houses from Home Depot in the backyard, rent out the three bedrooms that come with that house to pay off this house and just continue with life, God willing.

All of that seems like it would take a lot of energy to do but I may be able to push through it or really just take my time.

I really don’t have any idea how my mother or father’s deaths are going to affect me. I’ve seen my mother almost every day for ten years. It may or may not have a massive toll on me and this may sound heartless but sometimes I ask God to take her sooner, so I don’t have to live every day asking permission to do what I think would benefit everyone in the house. I could just do it without asking for every little decision. I’m 36, I was living with other families or roommates from the age of 15 to the age of 26. She treats me like I’m incompetent. The more she treats me like I’m incompetent, my more I just start pretending I’m incompetent cause obviously she just wants someone she can explain something to on repeat day after day. It’s insanity. It’s like abuse of power. That is why I think that I’m a playable character and my mom is just an non playable character that says the same things over and over and over again.

Even when I was paying rent, she still treated me like I’m just a roommate in some random persons house that I never met before. I haven’t been able to pay the last two months cause I wasn’t earning enough but now I can again but still, no power to do anything. It’s like straight up oppression being here.

I’ve tried moving out again but I can’t because I care about their safety and well being too much. We live in Long Beach so the moment I move out, my mom and brother will be a target and they have no idea the value that a man brings to this household. They take it for granted and treat me like a 36 year old 12 year old. Yet they have never even come close to accomplishing anything on my level. Now I sound just straight up prideful. Ugh… rebuke me.

 

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My father was disorganized and accumulated things. He didn't drink or smoke or anything else. He was just very grumpy and disorganized, but I loved him lots. After someone passes away that had a lot of stuff, going through it is so overwhelming. It's been a trying process for me. Besides it being a lot to handle, it also adds to the sorrow. Also, his stuff is rarely what it seems. Just one example, I needed an antibiotic one day. I grabbed one of his bottles of antibiotics, but that wasn't what was in the bottle...there is bullets in there lol.

I lived with my grandparents growing up. They built/owned/ran a bar. Admittedly, I've tried a good number of alcohols, but I hadn't tried jegermeister until just late last year. When I was a child, I had to get some immunizing shots and also the nurse gave me some kind of medicine to drink. I thought the jegermeister tasted just like that medicine I was given lol

I agree that someone can look healthy, yet not be healthy. I worked with a guy who was slender, but he drank a 2 liter bottle of soda through the day at work and he told me that he drinks another after work. This is not to mention the unhealthy foods he ate.

It's hard to not be stubborn. My mother always told me that I'm hardheaded. Hopefully in a good way

It’s overwhelming just having the stuff here now, so I can only imaging what it is going to be like when she passes. She is 60 this year, so she may have 20 years to go or less.

 

[CarriePie]

I laughed out loud when you said your dad had bullets in a medicine bottle.

I think I might just throw it all out. A lot of it is my great grandmothers and my grandmothers clothing piled up. There are a few things of value, such as a painting from some artist whose paintings go for around 500k.

I would literally throw everything out, sell that painting, pay off what is left of the mortgage, pay off my sister and brother their equal inheritance by taking money out of the house and creating another mortgage, build one of those diy houses from Home Depot in the backyard, rent out the three bedrooms that come with that house to pay off this house and just continue with life, God willing.

All of that seems like it would take a lot of energy to do but I may be able to push through it or really just take my time.

I really don’t have any idea how my mother or father’s deaths are going to affect me. I’ve seen my mother almost every day for ten years. It may or may not have a massive toll on me and this may sound heartless but sometimes I ask God to take her sooner, so I don’t have to live every day asking permission to do what I think would benefit everyone in the house. I could just do it without asking for every little decision. I’m 36, I was living with other families or roommates from the age of 15 to the age of 26. She treats me like I’m incompetent. The more she treats me like I’m incompetent, my more I just start pretending I’m incompetent cause obviously she just wants someone she can explain something to on repeat day after day. It’s insanity. It’s like abuse of power. That is why I think that I’m a playable character and my mom is just an non playable character that says the same things over and over and over again.

Even when I was paying rent, she still treated me like I’m just a roommate in some random persons house that I never met before. I haven’t been able to pay the last two months cause I wasn’t earning enough but now I can again but still, no power to do anything. It’s like straight up oppression being here.

I’ve tried moving out again but I can’t because I care about their safety and well being too much. We live in Long Beach so the moment I move out, my mom and brother will be a target and they have no idea the value that a man brings to this household. They take it for granted and treat me like a 36 year old 12 year old. Yet they have never even come close to accomplishing anything on my level. Now I sound just straight up prideful. Ugh… rebuke me.

My dad has bullets everywhere, as well as gun parts, tools, etc. I looked down into a Pringles can and I said to myself, "That looks like something wrapped up, what is that?" Upon further inspection I found out it's dagger lol. One day, I was working on a project. I was sure I had left some things for my project in a basket of mine. I went to look and found .357 parts instead. He had a big trash bag of paperwork tied up. I needed to find some of his paperwork, so I looked at every piece of paperwork in that bag. In the middle of all this paperwork was a flare pistol. And on and on it goes. I guess you could say it's a bit like a treasure hunt lol

I can relate (at least somewhat) to how you feel about your mother. My mother left me when I was 13 and I didn't live with her anymore after that ever again and I never asked her for any kind of help. I had to go live with my grandparents (they've since passed on years ago) and after I was done with school I moved into town to live with my dad. And I pretty much seen him daily and helped him daily for the rest of his life. I didn't talk to my mother much in my 20s because I was still sore about the past (lots of dirty laundry I won't go into). But we did get along and hang out sometimes in the years before she passed away. We'd go on hay rides in the fall and to Christmas events in December and picnics in the warmer months. I didn't see her daily, but often enough that her passing did get to me. I dreamed about her many times for at least 3 years after she passed. Dad's passing though...that is changing me. Like that quote I mentioned recently, "There are two kinds of pain in this world. Pain that hurts. Pain that alters." Dad's death is doing both. Dad was 69 upon passing, and Maa was 60. I'm older than you are and I've lost just about everyone close to me...and I don't feel old enough for all this loss lol


It's annoying and very stressful when a parent or parents treat you like your are still a child. My mother, though I didn't live with her and never asked her for anything and I had my own place and job, she'd call me up in the morning and tell me I'm lazy. Mind you, I worked late shifts. I often didn't get off work until after 3am and sometimes 7am. Then it takes time to unwind. She'd call me at 9am. "Is your a** up yet? You're lazy!" Grrrrrrr, with a parent like that it's no wander I'm grumpy lol.


My heart goes out to you. I'm such a solitary person and maybe that's one of my flaws. I did get out for several hours yesterday and it was smashing, so I can still function around people. I haven't turned into a hermit...yet! But you seem to have so much more patience than I have at living with people and in other ways, and an amazing desire to move forward in a positive manner.

 

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You are certainly in my prayers. I'm hoping this goes well for you, that it's not too draining and that it works out fairly for you!

I don't know anything about building/maintaining websites, but I do admire your abilities and all the positive changes you've made in life and aspire to make. That's inspirational!

Hoping for all the best for you. May the Lord guide you through this entire process, and always toward His will for your life.

I think ever since I asked the lord for a house on balboa peninsula, and drove there every weekend for years looking at the houses, who knows what he is preparing me for. I currently live in like an under 600 sq foot humble house in Long Beach. Balboa peninsula is in Newport Beach, Orange County where I was born and grew up around. Our current house is super tiny but the lot is big. The house that I lived in when I was born was in Corona Del Mar. I think that is still Newport Beach but the house was in Spyglass hills and was last listed at $16m. Back then

My dad has bullets everywhere, as well as gun parts, tools, etc. I looked down into a Pringles can and I said to myself, "That looks like something wrapped up, what is that?" Upon further inspection I found out it's dagger lol. One day, I was working on a project. I was sure I had left some things for my project in a basket of mine. I went to look and found .357 parts instead. He had a big trash bag of paperwork tied up. I needed to find some of his paperwork, so I looked at every piece of paperwork in that bag. In the middle of all this paperwork was a flare pistol. And on and on it goes. I guess you could say it's a bit like a treasure hunt lol

I can relate (at least somewhat) to how you feel about your mother. My mother left me when I was 13 and I didn't live with her anymore after that ever again and I never asked her for any kind of help. I had to go live with my grandparents (they've since passed on years ago) and after I was done with school I moved into town to live with my dad. And I pretty much seen him daily and helped him daily for the rest of his life. I didn't talk to my mother much in my 20s because I was still sore about the past (lots of dirty laundry I won't go into). But we did get along and hang out sometimes in the years before she passed away. We'd go on hay rides in the fall and to Christmas events in December and picnics in the warmer months. I didn't see her daily, but often enough that her passing did get to me. I dreamed about her many times for at least 3 years after she passed. Dad's passing though...that is changing me. Like that quote I mentioned recently, "There are two kinds of pain in this world. Pain that hurts. Pain that alters." Dad's death is doing both. Dad was 69 upon passing, and Maa was 60. I'm older than you are and I've lost just about everyone close to me...and I don't feel old enough for all this loss lol


It's annoying and very stressful when a parent or parents treat you like your are still a child. My mother, though I didn't live with her and never asked her for anything and I had my own place and job, she'd call me up in the morning and tell me I'm lazy. Mind you, I worked late shifts. I often didn't get off work until after 3am and sometimes 7am. Then it takes time to unwind. She'd call me at 9am. "Is your a** up yet? You're lazy!" Grrrrrrr, with a parent like that it's no wander I'm grumpy lol.


My heart goes out to you. I'm such a solitary person and maybe that's one of my flaws. I did get out for several hours yesterday and it was smashing, so I can still function around people. I haven't turned into a hermit...yet! But you seem to have so much more patience than I have at living with people and in other ways, and an amazing desire to move forward in a positive manner.

Your dad seems like him and my dad would enjoy one another’s company. My dad loved hunting when i was younger so he’d have all kinds of rifles in the closest and in his garage. He has since collected hot wheels when I was a teenager and now he is a big watch collector, watches motocross, formula 1 and baseball. He is like the average all american dad. Except one thing that makes him different is he believes aliens created everything. He used to fall asleep to the show ancient aliens on the discovery channel and ever since then, it completely transformed his beliefs. When I was a teenager, he was a drummer at a church but instead of playing Christian music they played rock music which now thinking about that, maybe it was a cult. One thing that really effect our relationship is I could get passed the fact that when I was 5 years old, he beat my mother almost to death while wearing a bunch of rings on his fingers. I have since forgiven him but that was something that really affected my relationship growing up. I always thought he was going to lose his temper with me growing up, which he did a few times. If you’ve never had a Christian therapist, I highly recommend one if you ever need to process any past traumas or anything like that. The ones that specialize in trauma, really help you find the pain in your brain. Then they have you sit there, while you focus on that pain and just talk about it, while you let it go. It’s really nuts.