There's a song for that.
His daddy told him when he was five
Real men don't cry
The whole world sold him this pack of lies
Real men don't cry
Thankfully, that is one lie that I never bought into.
Last night, I asked if anyone could recommend a movie to me because I am, and have been, pretty much bedridden with a severely sprained foot (which I needed like a hole in my head on top of the many other issues that I am currently dealing with). Nobody recommended anything, and I wound up watching a movie that I found online. I am pretty sure that it was called "Breakup season." Basically, it was a movie about a young guy who travels with his girlfriend from Los Angeles to Oregon in order for her to meet his parents for the first time during the Christmas holiday. On their first night there, the couple broke up, and the guy was devastated as he watched his now ex-girlfriend seemingly just flip a switch while no longer having any feelings at all for him. In other words, he was left to wonder/consider/question if their relationship had ever been real at all at her end. Of course, she wound up getting snowed in there for about a week, and I was pretty much hooked as I hoped beyond hope, even though it was just a movie, that they would be reconciled in the end, but they were not.
The movie momentarily devastated me (again) because it was basically the story of my life, and not just in regard to relationships with women, but in relationships with almost everybody that I know. Over the years, I have been repeatedly devastated as I have watched, in horror, as people who I loved deeply just discarded me like a piece of trash, and without any conscience whatsoever. After watching the movie, or after getting another painful reminder of what my entire life has been like, I truly considered that it might have been better for me if I had never been born.
One thing that I did not consider was to be angry at God.
God is perfect, and sinful men, women, and children who are being led by Satan and/or demons are the real problem.
As I said earlier, all that I am sure of in this vain life is this:
Jesus is Lord, and no hardship that I might ever face will change that reality.