Tough question to ask. I have been building on my salvation since 7-years-old.
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USA
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United States
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Utah [USA]
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I am a mother of 3, and have struggled deeply with faith. Recently, however, I was powerfully convicted by the Holy Spirit and have been reading The Word daily. This is something I have attempted many times but failed to go through with. I know the only difference now is having a better understanding of letting go, and allowing God to work. I used to attempt to read and would try to set up my environment to be perfect (in my eyes) by being sure everything was neat and tidy. Making sure my mind was at ease and I felt positive. Making sure it was very quiet (impossible with 3 kids). and would find that I would simply stop reading, and put it off with the idea that "maybe soon I can make sure everything is perfect and clean and quiet and my anxiety will leave, so that I can finally make time for God" All of this I would do without praying (I would feel awkward and felt like my prayers were forced, fake, and weird). I have been staying in a state of prayer throughout these recent days and have kept diligent in the word, ESPECIALLY when feeling anxious and unclean and fearing things are not perfect.
