Recent content by selenah2

Feel sad and want to kill myself lately.

If people can know God without the Bible, then why is there a rush to read the Bible? Salvation is a personal decision and if everyone knows God exists then why preach try to save people since only God can change people?

Why do Christian’s mentor people for short periods of time but then after a while they stop/lose interest. Like the relationships are disposable. Like it’s not convenient anymore so they just quite pursuing a relationship and mentor ship with someone. I’ve seen this happen multiple times.

Why do Christian mentors abandon the people they are mentoring?

Not sure if I’m allowed to talk about it but I have been thinking a lot about killing myself. It is difficult to connect with people and see God. Not sure what to do.

I guess when I say there’s nothing there I mean it feels empty. I am not as angry now. I think the 5htp was not good too.

Probably. I have been listening to a lot of darker music more lately. Idk I am thinking I am more agnostic than anything.

A vitamin supplement that is supposed to help with depression

I think I am having demons around me. I feel really angry and agitated and hate things. Idk if it is that or 5htp idk but i really am very angry and like there's nothing there. Just feel really agitated.

Idk that’s what it says online. I’m thinking about doing a non religious therapist site though now. I feel like maybe I need to separate the religious side of things and my mental and substance abuse problems. I’ve tried talking to Christians about stuff before but it has never helped because it...

I have bad anxiety sometimes so going to a therapist would be really stressful and cost more money just now isn’t a good time. I have had police called on me when I try to talk to people in person so that’s not good and I can’t talk to friends.

I am starting taking general multivitamins. I took St. John’s wort for a while but I was worried it my like mess with me or make me not able to have kids or something idk. I can’t remember exactly but I stopped taking it because I was worried about something. I took http5 for a while. I guess I...

It’s a website called Faithful Counseling. It supposedly means you can contact the counselor anytime. Idk

I get bad social anxiety in certain situations and talking to a counselor would be one so I would probably just never go to a counselor if I had to see them face to face

I'm thinking about signing up for counseling online but idk if it is a good idea. It is expensive and idk if it will do much good. But I have been depressed and everything for a long time now.