Right well here goes, this is a mixture of real events and experiences.
I feel well enough to say all this now, it is something that happened March 2012. It has taken me a long time to have the confidence to share this, and I know (and expect) some people won't beleive it.
I have since came to Christ and am only sharing this story as I feel I should and pray that I wont face any consiquences for doing so. Also as my local priest told me "I would not be the only person who has seen this"... which makes me feel like I may be able to relate to somebody out there too.
This is quite a long story so please bare with me...
I used to make alot of music (rap/hiphop) which has now stopped since last year. I would rap things because they rhymed and not because I really beleived in the meanings behind the words. The things that used to come out of my mouth were completely out of character for me deep down, I am not a thug, gangster etc and am lucky enough to of been raised in a nice home with a lovely family.
There was a point on the internet where lets just say one of my tracks got 'noticed' by without naming who, a very well known icon in the music industry. I had a fanbase which gained 1000 people in a few days and was growing very fast. As first it I thought it was cool, but then I realised I didn't like the attention at all.
Ok this is where it got strange, I heard this really 'messed up' and super slow motion track which got sent to me saying something like 'let me take you' and other strange stuff at the time it seemed kind of euphoric. I got a very high pitched ringing sound in my ears after hearing this track which lasted for a about 5mins after I had stopped this strange track. Almost immediatly after hearing this track I was overwhelmed with paranoia.
-- I am only mentioning this next paragraph as it may or may not be of relevance.
The next day me and a close friend went out for a drive, and I was telling him about what had happened and what I had heard. We decided to goto the local mcdonalds for some food. Whilst we were eating about 9 jets arrived were flying in some sort of formation about half a mile away from mcdonalds, they where in some weird triangular formation. They then came directly above mcdonalds and made the same triangular formation, this time one of the jets pointed its nose at the mc donalds car park, I actually thought they were gonna suicide into us and so did my friend, was scary. The jet turned around and flew straight into the middle of this triangle formation. Then they all flew away.
I was at home that evening and listening to music on my computer. I was just waving the mouse around the screen, and moved the cursor to the rhythm of the music ( It was like I was drawing the letters n and m on my screen ). this is where I expect most will not beleive... as soon as I did this I had the same rining come back to my ears, this time it was more intense. I went outside and sat staring up at the stars. There was one particular star which was shining to brightly, I felt like the long I stared at it the brighter it was getting. All of a sudden I saw the 'all seing eye', it appeard out of no where moved in from the left and then dissapeared above this star. The star then kind of 'danced' in the exact same pattern I was moving the mouse previously ( n & m shapes) in time with the music - (I was obviously the only person who could see this happening). This star then appeared like a butterfly briefly before changing to an egyptian ank thing. At this point I was speachless/breathless I literally couldn't speak - as much as I wanted to tell my parner what I had just seen I literally couldnt speak anything about it. That night when I finally went to lay down in bed I closed my eyes I immediatly had an out of body like experience, I had my eyes closed, but it was like I was in the clouds all I could see was a bright blue sky and clouds and felt like I was lifted of the bed. I thought I dead, or was in the process of it - I was in a complete state of shock. I remember coming round from this, unable to comprehend or even beleive the things that had happening to me. Later on that night I had my eyes closed, and what I now know to be the eye of horus appeared to 'float down' from nowhere onto my right eye - it was bright yellow/gold . (I did not sleep for literally 7 or 8 days after this, and it took about 4/5 months before I could sleep without sleeping tablets).
I started to see faces in the carpets, walls or anywhere I looked I could not rest my eyes at all. I heard voices in my head, I had never experienced any of these things previously in my entire lifetime ever...
I went to see my doctor firstly, it took some courage, and he could not explain anything to me or give any reason for what happened, and commented "we dont want you dissapearing into the ether" and arranged for me to have a cat scan straight away. When the resulsts came back clear I went to my local church to discuss these things with the priest. This turned into a few confessions, I repented for any involvement in music and for all things I have said and lyrics I had written down.
Now for the good news - Since then I have repented for every sin I could think of, prayed (and received) guidance to sins I had forgotten to repent from, my prayers became that regular it was a state of mind, I now read the bible everyday and am constantly praying for forgiveness and for explanation of what happened.
I have experienced after praying a few 'electric shock' like sharp feelins in my head, which in the first case stopped me seeing all these weired faces wherever I looked. And more recently another, which I can literally pin point to when I stopped hearing tourmenting voices.
Well.. that's some of what happened.
I left out the parts about
seeing a bright blue shadow/angel,
coming face to face with a demon,
seeing 3 people around a campfire, one wearing white cotton others in sack cloth(illusive dream),
words which these voices told me to say which possibly have some meaning, which I wont repeat for other peoples safety
I dont expect anybody to be able to say "yeah I know what this was"..
I needed to get this off my chest and put it out there.
After feeling like I lost my soul, was being hunted and after thinking that this horus on my right eye was the mark of the beast (and realising it's not as I dont need it to buy or sell things) , I hope I can get on with my life and serve our mighty lord Jesus Christ.
I feel well enough to say all this now, it is something that happened March 2012. It has taken me a long time to have the confidence to share this, and I know (and expect) some people won't beleive it.
I have since came to Christ and am only sharing this story as I feel I should and pray that I wont face any consiquences for doing so. Also as my local priest told me "I would not be the only person who has seen this"... which makes me feel like I may be able to relate to somebody out there too.
This is quite a long story so please bare with me...
I used to make alot of music (rap/hiphop) which has now stopped since last year. I would rap things because they rhymed and not because I really beleived in the meanings behind the words. The things that used to come out of my mouth were completely out of character for me deep down, I am not a thug, gangster etc and am lucky enough to of been raised in a nice home with a lovely family.
There was a point on the internet where lets just say one of my tracks got 'noticed' by without naming who, a very well known icon in the music industry. I had a fanbase which gained 1000 people in a few days and was growing very fast. As first it I thought it was cool, but then I realised I didn't like the attention at all.
Ok this is where it got strange, I heard this really 'messed up' and super slow motion track which got sent to me saying something like 'let me take you' and other strange stuff at the time it seemed kind of euphoric. I got a very high pitched ringing sound in my ears after hearing this track which lasted for a about 5mins after I had stopped this strange track. Almost immediatly after hearing this track I was overwhelmed with paranoia.
-- I am only mentioning this next paragraph as it may or may not be of relevance.
The next day me and a close friend went out for a drive, and I was telling him about what had happened and what I had heard. We decided to goto the local mcdonalds for some food. Whilst we were eating about 9 jets arrived were flying in some sort of formation about half a mile away from mcdonalds, they where in some weird triangular formation. They then came directly above mcdonalds and made the same triangular formation, this time one of the jets pointed its nose at the mc donalds car park, I actually thought they were gonna suicide into us and so did my friend, was scary. The jet turned around and flew straight into the middle of this triangle formation. Then they all flew away.
I was at home that evening and listening to music on my computer. I was just waving the mouse around the screen, and moved the cursor to the rhythm of the music ( It was like I was drawing the letters n and m on my screen ). this is where I expect most will not beleive... as soon as I did this I had the same rining come back to my ears, this time it was more intense. I went outside and sat staring up at the stars. There was one particular star which was shining to brightly, I felt like the long I stared at it the brighter it was getting. All of a sudden I saw the 'all seing eye', it appeard out of no where moved in from the left and then dissapeared above this star. The star then kind of 'danced' in the exact same pattern I was moving the mouse previously ( n & m shapes) in time with the music - (I was obviously the only person who could see this happening). This star then appeared like a butterfly briefly before changing to an egyptian ank thing. At this point I was speachless/breathless I literally couldn't speak - as much as I wanted to tell my parner what I had just seen I literally couldnt speak anything about it. That night when I finally went to lay down in bed I closed my eyes I immediatly had an out of body like experience, I had my eyes closed, but it was like I was in the clouds all I could see was a bright blue sky and clouds and felt like I was lifted of the bed. I thought I dead, or was in the process of it - I was in a complete state of shock. I remember coming round from this, unable to comprehend or even beleive the things that had happening to me. Later on that night I had my eyes closed, and what I now know to be the eye of horus appeared to 'float down' from nowhere onto my right eye - it was bright yellow/gold . (I did not sleep for literally 7 or 8 days after this, and it took about 4/5 months before I could sleep without sleeping tablets).
I started to see faces in the carpets, walls or anywhere I looked I could not rest my eyes at all. I heard voices in my head, I had never experienced any of these things previously in my entire lifetime ever...
I went to see my doctor firstly, it took some courage, and he could not explain anything to me or give any reason for what happened, and commented "we dont want you dissapearing into the ether" and arranged for me to have a cat scan straight away. When the resulsts came back clear I went to my local church to discuss these things with the priest. This turned into a few confessions, I repented for any involvement in music and for all things I have said and lyrics I had written down.
Now for the good news - Since then I have repented for every sin I could think of, prayed (and received) guidance to sins I had forgotten to repent from, my prayers became that regular it was a state of mind, I now read the bible everyday and am constantly praying for forgiveness and for explanation of what happened.
I have experienced after praying a few 'electric shock' like sharp feelins in my head, which in the first case stopped me seeing all these weired faces wherever I looked. And more recently another, which I can literally pin point to when I stopped hearing tourmenting voices.
Well.. that's some of what happened.
I left out the parts about
seeing a bright blue shadow/angel,
coming face to face with a demon,
seeing 3 people around a campfire, one wearing white cotton others in sack cloth(illusive dream),
words which these voices told me to say which possibly have some meaning, which I wont repeat for other peoples safety
I dont expect anybody to be able to say "yeah I know what this was"..
I needed to get this off my chest and put it out there.
After feeling like I lost my soul, was being hunted and after thinking that this horus on my right eye was the mark of the beast (and realising it's not as I dont need it to buy or sell things) , I hope I can get on with my life and serve our mighty lord Jesus Christ.
amen hearing things like that really are encouraging so thank you!