blue_ladybug's uterine cancer battle

A post I wrote on another thread.
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2010 I had terrible pain in my neck but it wasn't muscle or anything to do with my vertebrae. I advised to see oncologist as I had lumps. The first time it was benign. But, it just was persistent. So I went back again within 2mths. The results came back as Stage 1. I think it was the stress of just thinking about it which escalated it. I broke down and cried as I didn't want to die. I sort the comfort of a best friend Vaughn. Who I would never forget his open arms and I stayed with him and his family as I was living alone. I had chemo. I was tubed through my shoulder and ... I better not let you know of my personal experience. I don't want to cause you grief.

I'm not good with medical names as I'm dyslexic. I can't even learn my own native tongue Maori of New Zealand. I just have trouble with those things. But the Bible...I memorizes verses like my life depended it on it.

Anyway, it went away.

Liver cancer I was diagnosed with Stage 2 - July 2013. I had a stomach cancer scare while I had the liver cancer December 2013 which was Stage 0. Everything just went wrong. I believe it was the fact I was literally alone again. My only family a half-sister couldn't see me here in Thailand. Wouldn't even get a loan from the bank. Which upset me a lot. My friends betrayed me by not coming neither when they know I will travel to see them around the world if I had to.

I think it was the surmounted stress took it's toll hence the reason why I had two types of cancer. This time I sought self medication testimonies and learned of Dr. Sommai about 1.5hrs from Bangkok. He was healing many cancer patients and said his treatments had to be caught early. Though I was at Stage 2 he still took me in and I stay at this clinic for a few days. Going through his treatments plus his medical advice. A few months after back in Phuket. He passed away and now his assistant and son has taken over. It's all donations. Which is something out of the norm as he was brilliant and kind. I didn't get the chance to preach the GOSPEL to him. Thinking about myself. I'm still upset about what I didn't do for JESUS, as he was Buddhist.

From Dr. Sommai helps and from my own research and friends sending me their material as their family members were going threw cancer. I used unconventional methods such as 1g of Sativa Cannabis Oil and a big change of diet. Cut out meats, sugars, sodas, breads, flour products. Cut out alcohol. Though the Dr say I can still drink when it's completely gone but I have been good for the whole time. Turn into a vegan for awhile. And I smoked a lot of marijuana to take my mind off it. People won't agree with my self medication methods but it is my life that was at hand not theirs. I just didn't want to go through chemo ever again.

Now, the stomach cancer is totally gone! Liver cancer is now Stage 0 and I have my next check up at the end of this month. I hope it will be gone by the end of the year. I know it will be gone! The doctors were baffled. I did tell them what I had done and I was shunned so I change hospitals and kept quiet. I mean the western medications were making me feel more ill. I have a scar from the laser surgery on my right side but that will be covered up soon. Another tattoo!

What got me through was JESUS. Although I do not fear death not all not one single bit. I kept asking our Lord and our GOD to please to keep my one earthly dream alive. A family of my very own to protect, love, provide and care for. It is want an orphan such as myself wants.

Now after 1.5yrs today. I'm looking forward to a better tomorrow. I lost a lot of weight. I was a 105kg 10% muscle as I was competing professionally in Muay Thai, Boxing and MMA. I came straight down to 63.3kgs now I'm back at the gym and I'm 82kg after 3mths of training. But still very weak. I'm building my body back up for the Lord not for myself as He takes great joy in His child who worships Him. My Church is great and I'm always filled by the Holy Spirit. I read the Bible a lot. There is nothing I want to read. And I dig into scripture. My mind, body and soul is taken care of. I have balance because I understand.

I have one many wars. And you will when this battle and the victory, glory and power belongs to our Lord and our GOD JESUS.

WIN FOR HIM!


GOD BLESS

May The Lord continue to bless you sister

God bless

Wow wow wow!!! I've only just read the OP. Praise in sickness - God bless you Ladybug! Must be coming up to 5yrs now huh? You have my admiration, you go girl!

​We never know how strong we are until being strong is the only choice we have..

**DISCLAIMER #1.) Long post alert, but please read it entirely!! Thank you!!

**DISCLAIMER #2.) Contains some personal, graphic information but I would like to keep it in my testimony so that the full impact and symptoms of uterine cancer are fully understood. If you cannot handle TMI, then please dont read this testimony!! I am sorry if it makes you uncomfortable, but it is needed for medical and testimonial purposes.

Hi everyone,

I am blue_ladybug. Most of you know me, others may not. First of all, I want to give credit to my great friend tashmeyer for encouraging me to pull my story from the confines of christian ladies forum, into Miscellaneous so that my story can be shared with all of you. I hope you find strength and courage in my story.
It was 2010, and I was 39. I had an appointment with my gynecologist, and I was telling him that I had been having very bad periods for quite some time. Heavy bleeding, alot of HUGE clots, and so on. It was so bad that I couldnt leave my house during my periods, and it interfered with personal relationships and daily activities. I questioned him about the possibility of maybe having an hysterectomy done to alleviate the symptoms. He informed me that as a general rule, they only do that IF the patient has cancer. I then asked him to do a pap smear on me, and he agreed.

About two weeks later, he did a combination pap smear and D&C. A D&C is a fancy name for scraping out the uterus of blood clots and such. It was a same-day surgery, meaning that I got to go home a few hours later. I waited for him to contact me with the results of the pap smear. Two weeks later, I got "the call." The dreaded call, in which he proceeded to tell me, on the phone instead of in his office like he SHOULD have, that "we found cancerous cells and need to operate as soon as possible." That information did'nt slap me in the face until I got off the phone with him. I went outside and waited for my mom, because we were going shopping. In the few minutes that I waited, a multitude of thoughts ran through my head: "Why ME? Why is it me, and not my sister who has smoked like a chimney for 30-something years!!" Why are you allowing me to get cancer, God? After all I've suffered through already with my periods, you dump this on me too?!!"

That was my mindset that day. Anyway, my mom came and we left. She asked me how I was and I started bawling and said, "the doctor just called and I have cancer"!! She kept looking at me and saying, "are you kidding?" I think she was in shock too. I asked her not to tell my dad, or sisters and brother. I wanted to do that myself. I dried my eyes because I was grocery shopping and didnt want everyone staring at me bawling. LOL. My dad took me back home and helped me bring my groceries in. I then told him I had cancer, and I can still remember the look on his face to this day. He told me it would be okay, they would do the surgery, and I would be fine. His words echoed my moms words almost verbatim. She told me the same thing. My dad then pointed to a picture of a person I have on my fridge door, and said, "do you believe in this man?" The picture, as you probably have guessed, was of Jesus, and I said, "of course I believe in Jesus." My dad then said, "then trust in him right now." I tried to, I really did, but it was hard because my head was full of what ifs?. What if its more than they saw? What if they dont get it all? I'm not one to trust people easily, but I have always tried to trust God. He alone is the great healer. Modern doctors and medicine are limited, but God is not.

Anyway, two weeks after I got the results, I had the surgery. It's kind of odd how everything happened exactly two weeks apart. Two is now my lucky number. LOL. The day of the surgery, the surgeon called me and told me to get to the hospital earlier than planned, because he had a surgery cancellation and was able to take me right there and then. I live in Vermont, the surgery was at Dartmouth-Hitchcock in New Hampshire, so it took about an hour to get there. My dad had a lead foot all the way down there!! LOL.

They took me right in and hustled me into surgery. I was glad they took me earlier because that morning, out of extreme stress, I had started my period AGAIN!! It had ended only two weeks earlier. I thought they wouldnt be able to do the surgery now because of it, but they did anyway. The doctors, who are both gynecologists AND married to each other, disputed whether I would be there only overnight or for a couple of days. Well, I HATE hospitals, so that entire night, I took my IV and walked up and down the hallways all night!! There was no way I was gonna give them an excuse to keep me for two days!!

That ordeal was almost exactly four years ago. It will be four years on July 7th. I made it through my ordeal with cancer. I did not have to do chemo or radiation, nor would I have done them. It did not make sense to me why I should make myself SICKER to make myself BETTER. Doctors did not heal me. Medicine did not heal me. GOD healed me!! He gave me cancer for a reason, and I'm blessed enough to know what that reason is. I am not being prideful, or presumptuous when I say that. God gave me cancer, to alleviate the symptoms of my periods. I went through unimaginable horror with them, and every month I would say, "please Jesus help me!! I cant take this anymore"!! It took several YEARS, but God finally answered my prayers by giving me the gift of cancer. Yes, I consider my cancer to be a gift. I didnt consider it a gift at the time, of course, lol, but looking back now, I see that it was.

I know some of you are reading that statement in shock. Shock that I can consider something so horrible as a wonderful gift!! Well, then you will really be shocked to know that I am also truly GRATEFUL for getting cancer!! It's crazy, but getting cancer SAVED my life.

Please dont leave any replies saying "how dare you say something like that!! That's blasphemous!!" It is not blasphemous to ME. It is the God's honest truth. Only someone who has stood where I was in this, can truly understand those two comments of gratefulness and gifts. I'm alive today by the grace of God. Thank you God, for letting me live to share my story with these people. I hope you will be given hope and strength by reading my story. If you know someone who is going through something similar, please encourage them to read this. Sorry so long, thanks for reading this and God bless you all!!

Okay that almost gave me a heart attack until I read through and saw 2010.
...breathes... takes a glass of water... lol...
Same thing happened when somebody bumped tourist's old thread when his wife died. Man I almost died when I read that.
You guys need to be more careful about how you tell stuff... ya know?

View attachment 97753 Sister.............

very inspiring. You have encouraged me to share my testimony. I praise God for you and may your story continue to be a blessing of Gods goodness. God bless u my sister. To God be the glory!