I've been wanting to get high a lot. I'm trying not to get high for the sake of my job but I really want to get high. Just seeing something about it on TV and I want to get something. I got alcohol and sleeping medicine but that's it. I'm trying to distract myself binge watching TV shows in my free time and alcohol and sleeping medicine in moderation. I have a speech tomorrow for a class and plan on taking some stuff to get a little high so I can be okay for that but otherwise I don't want to do anything bad.