Feeling neglected by God

Need more prayer as I am tired, stressed, depressed and feeling neglected in my struggles. I have bailiffs and Bill collectors on my back, I ask for help but all I get is encouragement to keep the faith, keep praying, keep trusting God, blah blah blah but each month the debt just keep getting worse, my job is on the line. The Holy Spirit encouraged me to have faith but why would God allow me to loose even my job before he steps in? I am tired. Not suicidal as I am aware that doing that destroys any hope of being in the kingdom but I just scared a friend by telling her ii understand why a young lady recently killed herself. I just feel extremely brittle from all that's happening over the past years

The Lord may allow circumstances that you lose your current job so that he provides you with a better one. The spirit has lead me to ask at all times to seek for the best in regards to everyone that's involved.

I know it may seem harsh but it's possibly true. I have started to brace for that already due to what's happening at work.

Okay okay okay not to come across as a stoic or dissociated from feelings but focus on what our Lord did on the cross. Telling you this is actually a reminder for myself to keep my eyes on the reality of my spiritual deprivation going through consequences and or life trials. Peter walked on water till he looked down. Think about that for a minute and tell me how focusing on christ may help you elevate your perception.

I know as followers of Christ we must arm ourselves to suffer but in the midst of his grief, Christ asked "why hast though forsaken me?

My bad if I quote scripture wrong but was it christ that said to the father " not my will, but thy will"

I am still saying that too, unknowing of what his will is in all this, he hasn't told me. He repeatedly told me he is coming through for me but it still doesn't feel that way, had to ask maybe the promise is to be fulfilled in my generation after me, like those faithful men of old..

That seems to be the way he works the best for us. Actually I am sure he has told me his will many times that I did not recognize but I do not recall ever knowing his will. There have been times I felt or thought I was pursuing his will after seeking and knocking but that is still a process of trial with errors for this servant. Someone once told me not to worry if I don't see the fireworks, I am not missing the show.