Condemning Voices

Hi paisleypanther, thank you so much for your very encouraging reply! You are right about trauma being one of the hardest things to overcome, especially when paired with sin. Shame is a difficult thing for me and an area where I can be weak toward the enemy so I find myself having to be careful the instant past sins spring to my mind - daily communion has been helping me with that. It certainly feels like incessant attack, so much so that I would have to be God himself to rebuke every single voice! So when I have run out of energy, I ask Jesus to do the rebuking for me and He knows my heart and knowledge of which scriptures I would use to counterattack

The "He will quiet you by His love" part of the Zephaniah verse brought a warmth and hope up for me, I would love nothing more than quietness and His stillness in my mind. I trust that will come as I keep striving for Christs light as you urged me to.
That couldn't be more true that the enemy is fighting back even harder now, as I've been going to church and getting deeper into the Word. Just last week after seeing a christian counsellor for the first time, I felt it was a sure step in the right direction. When I got back to the train station, I realised my bike was stolen and at that point my mind was plunged into chaos. Thankfully I called a prayerline during all that chaos and the lady who answered was very firm in stressing my standing firm on the word no matter how strong the attack. I was so upset about my bike but I got passed it and now have a new bike that I will guard with my life!
I will check out that daily devotional and bible apps, thank you for the suggestion. Yes the book of Psalms I am almost at the end of reading all of them for the second time this year, they are the book I identify most with in the Bible and especially David's psalms.

Thanks for the music suggestions, I have already gone through a few on the list and will get round to the rest soon. I loved "Hold Me Near" by Enter the Worship Circle so I will definitely be checking out more of their stuff on YouTube!

I will surely still keep seeking therapy, it is an important road for me to go down as I've found in my life that I don't receive the level of commitment and consistency I need anywhere outside of a therapeutic relationship. I worked with a christian therapist for over 8 years until May 2014 and healed; I never experienced such burning joy in my heart and gut as I did toward the end and some months after that therapy. Now it seems that healing has been stolen and taking it back it apart of the spiritual battle I am in.

Thank you for your prayers, I really appreciate them and your response.

I'm glad these words were able to give you some comfort and advice. Remember that you are fighting the good fight and God is fighting alongside you! I am praying that you will be able to find peace and joy today! Another song I just recently discovered is Surrounded by UPPERROOM. I hope you'll give it a listen!

UPPERROOM are my favourite worship group!! I love the very end part of Surrounded, "now my heart is bursting at the seams..." I literally play UPPERROOM all day from the moment I wake up till I go to bed Their versions of Open the Scroll and Burn us up are also amazing and worth checking out if you haven't already

Hi, this evening a few times, I have heard voices coming from outside my apartment telling me things like I am in hell or there are people who know I am in hell. It really is testing my mind, throwing up thoughts that the world around me is actually gone and that this is hell. It's so frightening to think about. I have prayed though and felt much better but I don't want to keep this to myself, I need to keep connections with my brothers and sister - I value privacy and solitude but seeking those things has often led into isolation for me, making me vulnerable to attack.
I remembered the Pastor preaching just yesterday the verse about the gates of hell not even prevailing against the church. I hear positive voices, some of which I think are calling me for a very special purpose and that could be the reason for the relentless attack against my mind.

Hi, this evening a few times, I have heard voices coming from outside my apartment telling me things like I am in hell or there are people who know I am in hell. It really is testing my mind, throwing up thoughts that the world around me is actually gone and that this is hell. It's so frightening to think about. I have prayed though and felt much better but I don't want to keep this to myself, I need to keep connections with my brothers and sister - I value privacy and solitude but seeking those things has often led into isolation for me, making me vulnerable to attack.
I remembered the Pastor preaching just yesterday the verse about the gates of hell not even prevailing against the church. I hear positive voices, some of which I think are calling me for a very special purpose and that could be the reason for the relentless attack against my mind.

The devil wants to get you alone, isolate you and destroy you. are you atleast going to church for fellowship?

Don't be afraid.
The Lord can help you with things like that. This website is very good for spiritual freedom:
Freedom in Christ Ministries

ficm.org

It's vital not to try and fight spiritual warfare without help.
Mental voices can come from many sources.
Some people used to think that it is mostly medical, but now many people understand that it can be normal for Christians to hear voices.

This website teaches how to find freedom in Christ, and help to be protected from malicious spirits and voices, and how to overcome things like this.