I don't think i have had a most difficult battle as they all are most difficults. The hardest part is always being able to accept Gods
plan for whatever the issue is, and live to it. For me what i have learned over time was not to look for escaping it, but rather go through it but watch God will do while accepting the fact that He exists to defy the logic of whatever nonsense im going through.
I remember about a year ago i had to get a new drivers license but i was afraid of going because i didn't want to take an eye exam.
My indoor vision sucks, i can't read words or letters very well while inside, so i knew if i had to take that i would fail and not get my new license. The night before going to the DMV for my test i prayed. I spent a lot of time agreeing and affirming that when i go there I WILL GET MY NEW LICENSE because it is His will. I believed that this place, this circumstance existed just so He can defy it like that. When i was in line waiting i kept agreeing and affirming in my mind and reasoning with myself that," this is what i am here for". When i finally got in i had to fill out a bunch of paperwork and all that. I look to my left and right and notice a guy taking his eye exam with the chart thing way up over head. Looking at all of the booths mine included i see they all have them overhead. Seeing them i know for a fact that there is no way in hell i would be able to read mine, it was too far away. I still kept affirming and agreeing that im still going to get my drivers license regardless of the images im being shown that say otherwise. Finally after the booth lady finishes up and stamps all of my paperwork she calls me over to a side of the room i didn't notice before. On that side of the room they had an eye exam chart ridiculously close to the counter and the letters are way bigger, and big enough for me to recite the lines of them to the her. That side of the room was right next to the camera too so then she said go stand in front of the camera and poof! New licence time... I was so happy i pretty much glided out of the DMV, didn't even care that i came out looking like a surprised weasel in my new picture lol.
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That is just 1 of probably hundreds of testimony's, but i always have to stay in agreement even if everything says something else.
Key is to stay physically responding to the faith even if the mind doesn't agree. I could have walked off the moment i saw
people taking their eye exams but i chose to walk it out 100% instead and the enemy lost that fight.