Prayer/Help

I haven't always done my best. I'm guilty of not handling myself of properly here and in life in many situations. Even when I was being wronged. I'm just as much to blame, even though I really try my best to be honest and good to others.

I hurt alot from a recent bond its deserved and at the same time not so much. My mom really needs healing as well as me, from life self of and each other. Recently its been torture but feels necessary to save her life. Family is about to break apart, really worried about the after effect and also all I can do is pray, and I can't create burdens for others because its overwhelming. I just need prayer to have faith and trust God, trust through the storm, and heal myself cause alot of me shuts down to Gods love even though his grace has been beyond present. Let God fight the battle and let go. Or be prepared to do what's necessary that he asked.

I'm not completely sure Ii just know I cant keep on this way and only God and me can fix myself and it's not my place to interfere all the time but these things have caused alot of suffering that maybe God needs me endure. I'm just in need of prayer for myself, family, and those close to my heart. Sorry for my part from the last time I was here, even though I didnt understand it all and the wrong I felt as well as my shortcomings made. It was a blessing, more than I could even see then. Ty plz pray and I'm grateful for the time.

James 4:8 + Psalm 34:18

"Let us pray not to be troubled by life's challenges', and to know not to
put ourselves down, but to pick ourselves up by turning to God, and to make
a serious effort to hold on to hope of changing our ways for peace and
well being in all our coming and going. Let us pray to know, we can and
will survive troubling times, so long as we are persistent in changing our actions.
Let us pray of this to be."
'Amen'
'Thank God'

For me what I learned along time ago was its so easy to believe have frith for someone else. Oh but for me...its very hard. Faith is in what He said and that He will be is faithful to do it. If two of us agree HE will do it.. if we know He hears us we know we have the petitions /prayers we asked for. We know by His strips we are and were healed. He said lay hands on the sick and they SHALL not maybe not might but shall recover.

Peter and John said to them..why are you looking at us as if we did this by our own power? ITS FAITH IN THAT NAME! Those that knew He could heal but did He want to? Oh HE IS ALWAYS WILLING! So we pray knowing He has already done it. We tend to put Him on a time table. No.. we pray and rejoice.. its done.. in JESUS name! Do we see? Praying

He loves you He is for you.. With man its impossible with your FATHER ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. He told you.. delight your self in the lord and He WILL again not maybe not might but WILL give you the desires of your heart. YES He wants to bless you! Don't let the enemy rob you with lies. Its like this say fear pops up.. you say NO God has not given me the spirit of fear but of power and love and a sound mind. Speak what HE said.. what HE promised you. His word is His will. No matter what we've done.. He does not condemn us and NEVER EVER will leave us.