Hello all.. New here. I'm kind of unsure (as my name implies) about the Christianity thing. I guess that's kind of why I'm here.
It's not that I haven't learned or am not well versed in Christian theology and even the Bible. I was born and raised Protestant and went to Catholicism after graduating. Gave up entirely around age 22 or so and dabbled again in protestantism here and there. Now, I'm 27 and I don't know.
I am prone to being very black and white about things, and I feel like that's my downfall. I struggle understanding the disagreements between denominations. I struggle ever feeling good enough when I've been a Christian, or that I'm "doing Christianity" right. And I struggle because I grew up with strange teaching of ideals on what "sin" is and was frequently reminded that it would send me to hell, which makes me constantly paranoid. I also struggle heavily with things that I've done in the past, and I guess, feeling forgiven, or that I even could be forgiven, given how actually terrible and at times even blasphemous many of those things were.
But now I'm at my wits end. I'm struggling so heavily with guilt and apparent lack of understanding.
So I guess that's why I'm here. I want to understand. I want to be and feel forgiven. I want to shed my guilt and move on because this guilt has actually destroyed my life. It's in shambles.
Anyway, thank you for reading.
It's not that I haven't learned or am not well versed in Christian theology and even the Bible. I was born and raised Protestant and went to Catholicism after graduating. Gave up entirely around age 22 or so and dabbled again in protestantism here and there. Now, I'm 27 and I don't know.
I am prone to being very black and white about things, and I feel like that's my downfall. I struggle understanding the disagreements between denominations. I struggle ever feeling good enough when I've been a Christian, or that I'm "doing Christianity" right. And I struggle because I grew up with strange teaching of ideals on what "sin" is and was frequently reminded that it would send me to hell, which makes me constantly paranoid. I also struggle heavily with things that I've done in the past, and I guess, feeling forgiven, or that I even could be forgiven, given how actually terrible and at times even blasphemous many of those things were.
But now I'm at my wits end. I'm struggling so heavily with guilt and apparent lack of understanding.
So I guess that's why I'm here. I want to understand. I want to be and feel forgiven. I want to shed my guilt and move on because this guilt has actually destroyed my life. It's in shambles.
Anyway, thank you for reading.
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