Am I the only one who that slips and falls
Am I the only one the lord's name is who I call
Am I the only one who can't throw a stone
Am I the only one who wants Satan to leave alone
Am I the only one whos tired of doing wrong
Am I the only one who just wants to sing the lord a song
Am I the only one who needs to turn away from sin
Am I the only one who needs to be forgiven once again
Am I the only one who dose not deserve gods grace
Am I the only one who can't look at Christ in the face
Am I the only one that ever has felt shame
Am I the only one who's self was to blame
Please lord come grab me by the hand
Please put me to my feet and help me up to stand
You know you've seen me weep,it's really hard to swallow
If you keep on leading,I will try to follow
This is David dealing with his sin of adultery and murder in the matter of Bathsheba.
Psalm 51:1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
When I read this I am stunned. You have been caught and exposed in the most heinous crime imaginable and you have the nerve to ask for mercy and ask God to deal with you according to His lovingkindness? You ask that your transgression would be blotted out? Then I was reminded of what the Lord said in Matthew 7 about building our house on the rock. This is the biggest storm that hits David's life. He went through a number of big storms but this is the one that should have brought down his house. But it didn't. Why? Think about Peter and Judas. They both sinned at the time of Jesus crucifixion, for one it brought down their house, for the other it didn't.
We need to dig down to the rock and build out house on that rock. The rock is Christ and if you dig down to that rock you will know His mercy and His lovingkindness. Don't wait for the storm to hit. Judas didn't know God's mercy. How do we know? The Lord said that you should treat others with mercy just as He treated you with mercy. Judas was the one saying "why this waste" when the woman poured out the ointment on Jesus. There was no mercy with Judas. However, with Peter when his mother in law was sick he brought Jesus to her, so we can see that he prayed for his mother in law to be healed. Likewise Jesus tells Peter that He will pray for him after he denies the Lord. As you have done it will be done for you.
David knew God's mercy and we see him also be merciful. He could have killed Saul but didn't. That was mercy.
But how can David be so bold as to ask God to blot out his transgressions? We look at David and we are shocked, horrified, a man of God committing such terrible sins. But then this morning I looked at it a different way. What about the other kings in the region, say the kings of the Midians, or the kings of Philistines, or the Kings of the Assyrians or the Egyptians? All the rulers of that day were like the rulers of a drug cartel. Do you think they would think twice about adultery and having some guy whacked? Suppose you are at work and you do something that is wrong, fair enough, but it is the same thing that half the people at work do and they are much worse than you. For them they can do this and nothing happens, but for you they go ballistic and want to get you fired. Think about David, Saul gave his wife to another man and tried to kill him repeatedly. First secretly and then out in the open. This happens to us, we are in an evil and adulterous age and we can become affected by this age. But we are not bastards, we are children of God and He will treat us very seriously for sins that the world just ignores.
2 Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
This is the point, David realizes he has become filthy and polluted by being influenced by the worldly and fleshly people around him. Just because he experienced God in his adventures with Saul does not mean that he should behave like Saul. He doesn't just want the transgression blotted out, he wants that stain washed away from his soul, he repents of being that person.
3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
This is how we deal with sin. We acknowledge that it is sin. David is not there saying "but what about Saul, what about King so and so". And it is horrifying. "My sin is ever before me" is like Lady Macbeth always trying to wash the blood off her hands. David imitated these other evil rulers and instantly it is as though he has that dead Uriah always looking at him from the grave. He can see the gates of hell trying to welcome him.
4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
Wait, what? How about Uriah? He cannot apologize to Uriah. The only one who is alive that he can repent to is God. How many people are worried about sinning against God, worried about what happens now when God speaks or judges? David did not simply commit a sin against another man, he is a king in God's kingdom and as such he bears the testimony of God. Because of that this sin is against that testimony. For example, when these Catholic Bishops shuffled pedophile priests around trying to sweep the sins under the rug who did they sin against? They might not be pedophiles, they might not have hurt any kids, they might even have negotiated a settlement with the family and had the church pay them. No, they sinned against God. Because of their behavior the Catholic church is evil spoken of, God is evil spoken of, how is God going to now judge the world for these sins when the Catholic church does this? So, God has to deal with the Catholic church first.
5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
Consider that, if God desires to transform us into sons of God in His image and after His likeness who express Him on earth, well He has to do it with sinful men. All of us are sinful. You should not be shocked when your sins are exposed and dealt with severely. This doesn't mean you have become worse since becoming a Christian, no it means you have become more aware and are no longer walking in darkness. The fact that they are being dealt with severely means that you are not a bastard but God is treating you as a son.
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