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I feel so empty inside this numb feeling seems 2 not go away at all not matter wat I caused alot of stuff n I'm not a good person maybe a jezbel n extremely wicked sometimes I just wish God will just kill me already why he created me I feel so hopeless I feel dead inside its better I didn't exist I wish I wasn't here

That's so sad to hear, please don't say things like that. Romans 10:9 that if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the lord Jesus and shalt believe in thine heart that God has raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.

It's about knowing not feeling. Our emotions change in a moments time but gods word never bends or changes. Open your heart to the lord and let him guide you. Be a vessel. The more we consume godly things the more we grow righteously but the more we consume wicked things the further we grow away from god....our hearts become harden.

I pray for you and pray the lord heals your pain and helps you to grow closer to him.

Alisha I don’t know what you’re going through but I would recommend to get off the Internet and get in touch with another human, family preferably.

God bless you and big hugs ❤️

Yeah I hope so I hope he does hopefully

So sorry to hear that.

As far as being wicked: Not anyone of is is even close to how good and right God is. So by comparison you and everyone else are in the same condition, far removed from how good God is.

He doesnt want to kill you because he loves beyond what you can understand if you are a born again Christian.

If you are not, there is still time as long as you live.

I agree with the advice of being with your family, if not that, a pastor at a good church

It is likely if we knew you personally everyone of us would hug you and love you.

There is such a love in Gods people. Keep looking for one of us to love you. If one of is isn't right keep looking. We wont judge you because we ourselves are wretched and only because of His forgiveness and grace are we free from sin.

Give God’s people a chance to love you, sweetheart!

I remember the song at the church service today: it was saying how lost and singul we are before we come to Jesus and are saved, how life turned around after we are forgiven and are following Him.

Mary Magdalene, perhaps the worst Jezebel ever, was honored by being the first to see the resurrected Lord.

I identify with Mary Magdalene being sinner. I see myself as a shanty dwelling for royalty. No where near how blindingly holy He is, but still knowing He loves me exceedingly.

You are no worse than I am. You are no worse than Mary Magdalene. She loved Him much! Be forgiven by Him and love Him much!

We all are sinners and there is no sin too big or small for God to forgive when we go before Him with repentance. I was a carnal Christian for quite a few years and found out it was a dead end. I had to let go of some friends and started going to church. I have totally renewed my mind/Spirit and so can you.
God is no respecter of persons and He'll do for you what He did for me. Also, when you do this (rededicate) you have no condemnation in you. Words are powerful and we need to quote what the Bible says about us, not other voices.
We are in fact overcomers by 'the Word of our testimony and by the Blood of the Lamb'.
You are loved by God and please reach out to any of us with PM's for further chats if you'd like. Btw, whenever a dark thought tries to enter your mind, carry around a small New Testament, open it up and let the Lord speak Truth in love to you.