Please pray I'm feeling like ending it

As in my life. The fact that I was abused all my childhood by my dad and now I'm trapped with abusive brother for 8 years ruining my adult life. So basically abused my whole life and then I can't attract any normal men with morals it's always someone who is on drugs or looks like they want to do questionable things to me and I can't attract friends anymore either. Back then the old friends only wanted to go to the club and do acohol and I tried making Christian friends but they want nothing to do with me. I also was bullied my whole life every school, church, and now job. I must be cursed and people are probably going to say because I sin or something I'm doing. I had a "Christian" in the past tell me I am cursed from my family generations and so I suffer and then they claimed this is a past life.

Comfort this person Lord and lead her to know your peace that surpasses all understanding.

"I will pray for you and with you if needed. Life happens for unknown reasons
and acceptance is certainly required, though being hard, I trust you come to understand
it is not being cursed...it's life happening.
'I hope and pray that you come to have a God awareness in your life, and learn that we
can and will endure so long as we keep God's spirit within us...believe it."
"Amen"




https://christianchat.com/media/the_four_candles121-mp4.5353/

Wow we can be some truly wicked beings sometimes. Listen I understand exactly what you mean, not as far as the abuse goes, but the whole lifestyle and seemingly unescapable walls it builds around you, the layers and layers of chains we drag around all while screaming how "free" we are. I truly understand this first hand, and now have been blessed with true freedom from the ONLY way it can be gained. Through our King Jesus!

Now I am sure that sounds like a complete slogan/sales pitch, I understand how and why it does as well, but I am assuming a few things here that are not safe to assume really, so before I go on under false pretenses, can I ask you a few questions? (I'm going to list them, but if you don't want to answer them then just ignore them)

What is your understanding of what being a Christian actually is?

I want to ask this mostly because of my misunderstanding of what this actually is in reality, and how I did go to church for 5 years and thought I was a Christian, and how even sitting in church I was never clearly told exactly what happens when we are born again. It honestly matters that we talk about these things more clearly than just throwing out scripture slogans to the seeker. Just my opinion. Also the Christian that told you that you're under a curse then talked about a past life was kind of wacky. The "generational curse" is in scripture and still holds true. Only now there's some Good News. All of us born of Adam are born under a curse, the curse of being born spiritually dead and disconnected from our Creator. Like in real life, for REAL! This is why Jesus was sent, born of a virgin.

Did you know why this matters?

Because this means that Jesus is not born from the curse of Adam, He was born of the Spirit, so was not born a sinner like every other man and woman to EVER to be born. This is how and why His sinlessness matters so much. We are told that the wages of sin is death, yet our mighty God steps on His creation as a man, born of the Spirit and completely obedient to Gods will in every way. Sinless. Yet we sinful men are wicked to our core and HATE being told we are wrong. So when the Sinless Godman Jesus came to show us how we were created to live righteously we didn't like it, then imprisoned Him, Beat Him, and crucified Him, yet this all pales in comparison to the REAL price paid. On that cross that day, the full force of Gods wrath against sin was poured out on His head. The ONLY man that ever walked the earth without sinning, the only one that ever could have, wasn't made to take it, He laid down His life for the Fathers glory, the only innocent man that ever walked the earth took the full force of the Fathers just wrath, so that wicked fools like me might be reconciled to our Creator as we were meant to be.
I asked a question then the gospel flowed out, but I would still really like to get your understanding of what a Christian is in your own words. Again if you feel like it. If not I pray He continues to draw you closer until your KNOW Him.

That Christian in your past doesn’t know their back side from a hole in the ground…

You are not cursed …that is generational teaching from the Old Testament …on the contrary you are not only blessed you are highly favored in His sight….but it doesn’t feel like it …..does it.

The first thing you need to do is dump that thought ….and everything that you have attached to it….which are all lies. You can’t rise above that until you recognize who you are.



The word highly favored (charitoō) is used twice in the Bible once when the angel appeared to Mary

Luk 1:28 And the angel came in unto her, and said, Hail, thou that art highly favoured, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women.



The second time is in Eph 1:6 To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.

The words made us accepted is the same word translated Highly Favored ….and that is what you are in Gods sight.



I know …you don’t feel highly favored…. and things suck right now….. I know, I have been there a few times ….but as someone once told me give it a day ….and tomorrow …. give it another day… and everyday thereafter, like you have been doing ….Only now you have gotten rid of the crutch (the lie of the curse) that you have attributed the bad things to (consciously or subconsciously) and you can start to build the truth in your life …Starting with the Truth that You ARE Highly Favored in God’s sight ….

I think I shared this with you before but not sure. I think it's fitting especially right now.
Do you understand what he is trying to say?

Where is your Mom?

Christianity does not believe in Past lives.. But apart from that May you be liberated from your current situation and have peace of mind..

get out of that house and town no matter the cost, you have to do this, do not delay, apply for a job somewhere and just go and do not look back, if you do not you will never be happy and will live a life of regrets, plan carefully take your time doing so and leave that house!

Persevere. S/he who perseveres to the end shall be saved. This is a war of attrition, with the foreknowledge of who eventually wins at the other side of the cesspool. I'm not going to tell you things are gonna change because most likely they're not. In fact God tells us it's going to get progressively worse. Until the time He says it isn't. Persevere. That was His word. Dog it out to the end and yes, S/h who had little will indeed have much.

God said,

Persevere

If you don't know Christ as lord.. that's the first step.. For God so loved the world He gave His only son that who so ever believes in Him shall not die but have ever lasting life.

Well I take authority over suicide, depression and command it to leave you now in Jesus name. In its place I pray the peace of God which passes all understanding, shall guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. And that the joy of the lord is your strength.

As for curses Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us, for it is written: "Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tree." He redeemed us in order that the blessing given to Abraham might come to the Gentiles through Christ Jesus, so that by faith we might receive the promise of the Spirit.

That peace is going to hit you.. oh the enemy is just lying to you. Know He did it all.. He took it all. He never ever will leave you. No matter what you've done.. you are so loved. He will show you

Hello !
How are you today and how are things going now in your life ?

This person hasn't logged in since February.

Thank you @Subhumanoidal for letting us know. That's a sad answer though .

Father in heaven, Please be with this person and give her/him peace, love, comfort, joy, strength, hope, and encouragement and heal her/him of emotional wounds. Amen. I love you.

How are you doing now? Don't believe in curse, keep the good hope in the loving God, Heavenly Father. Do not despair, God doesn't want despair, but zest for life.

There is a national suicide hotline (dial: 988) which would probably be a good resource to make use of. These people are experts, and experts know a thing or two about a thing or two. I'm there, myself. I struggle to find a reason to keep going, especially now that I'm older, and after all the failures, heartaches, and disappointments.

BlueRiverIce,

From a distance, there isn't a lot I can do personally but pray for you and the situation. There are three major types of abuse and my wife spent her young life suffering two of the three at the hands of people who called themself Christian. So you can imagine the challenges she faces living with me; that is, loving me but hating what she thinks my religion is.

I say this to give you some comfort. Don't think about skipping out on your own life. You do have a lot to live for. As for people that again, call themselves Christian well; the best I can offer is stick around here. Maybe you'll find some that change your mind; or at least empathize with you.

As for being cursed; nah...the human race is under a judgement, but in Christ, we are free from that being justified in Him. And He does give us the grace to live daily (if we so choose) to "both will and do" of His good pleasure. You're not cursed yet some of us do seem to attract the crap of the world. It is meant to test and strengthen us. By the mere fact (this is only my opinion) that you wrote on this site, shows you'er not done living or fighting to live for Christ.

Keep posting here...I'm sure you'll find some comfort, support, and counsel that might be of value to you.

I shall be praying for you, BlueRiverIce. And have just sent a message on high. Blessings and Peace.

The OP member hasn't posted since February of this year.

Thank you, MeowFlower. I should look at the date. But since God isn't limited to time, my prayer is as if it were said on the day of the post. I pray BlueRiverIce has found her way.