Hello sister. We have something in common. My mom died of internal bleeding in early 1980s, I was ten years old, I saw her pass away. I was deeply effected by it. My parents divorced in late 1970s. My dad was my support. You have pain in your lfe. I do also. Another person who endured, and suffered two thousand years ago. His name is Jesus.
Psalm chapter 22, and Isaiah chapter 53. Bible prophecy. At passover. Judas betrayed Jesus to the religious leaders. Judas received 30 pieces of silver, it fulfilled scripture of Zechariah. The one who was behind it was Satan. Jesus was taken into custody and brought to the religious leaders. They falsey accused Him, and even found false witnesses to testify against Jesus. All of Jesus apostles ran away. Jesus was alone.
It's written in Zechariah, Strike the shepherd and the sheep will scatter. Jesus was Mocked, beaten, and whipped by the Romans. Jesus was crucified on cross. Jesus endured humiliation and pain, so Christian people can repent and serve him. Jesus did it for you sister, me, and those who love, and have obiedence to God.
As Christian people, we can endure some persecution and pain in our lives.
Psalm chapter 111. Stay away from traditions of men. Study sound doctrine. Repent sins to God. Apostates are false teachers. Stay clear of them. Who are we going to stand up for. Jesus or Satan.
Peter denied Jesus three times. Body of Christ will stand up for Jesus. Peace.