Pain

I do hope that I haven't kept you up too late again. You need to "slug" some sleep.
I will try to sleep after seeing your video...I'll try lol.

I don't think I would have a problem. I haven't been in a relationship in over ten years, basically waiting for someone to not only check all the boxes that I mentioned earlier but be intellectually pleasing, which I am attracted to wayyyyy more. I am just wondering if my words can keep you coming back for more or my touch.

I just don't know how you would feel if we went out in public together. I personally don't believe I'd have a problem. I use to secretly hide away in the nerdy room at lunch with all the kids hiding away to have intellectual conversations, while the popular kids were throwing bags of milk at other groups of people standing around at lunch.

I was the guy that had friends in all the groups

I just wish you can keep the faith and not have any doubts.

Another favorite song of mine: Beginnings by Chicago. I think the lyrics are fitting for "beginnings."

Public? I have no problem with the public. I worked with the public for years and was quite good at it. I sort of bonded with my customers. I can navigate being around people (usually). So, just because I'm on the edge of becoming a hermit, I still know how to be normal too. Being out in public with you. I don't see any problem or apprehension.

Your words have been a blessing. I've stayed up with you for another night (it's after 5am here). I wouldn't do that if I weren't drawn to you and your words. Seeing you just added heart palpitations lol

Okay, just making sure. I have a love hate relationship with Californias public. If I go anywhere else, it’s a complete new life to me. I went to Spokane Washington in January and it’s like I was never affected by abuse, didn’t have unprocessed trauma, no heartbreaks, nothing. It was as freeing as graduating high school. Seems like that every time I leave this state. The plane ride back to California, you are reminded why you left in the first place.

But when i do work in the public, i work like I’m working for God. I give it my all. Any work I do. I put others above myself and make sure that what ever project I’m working on that I do everything in my power to get so much done that they don’t even need me anymore. At least until they need me again.

You are a very rare person. I'll be waking up out of this dream soon lol.

Speaking of dreaming... we should try to get some sleep. You have plans!

I seen the Herm on the cam and later I heard an owl.

You made my day end up being a very different day than I expected and very different than any other day...probably ever lol.
Thank you for making it a day that was fire. I feel embraced by words and fire.

I just wanted to be as stimulated as you have made me feel. Especially with some of your bold flirtatious comebacks that absolutely make me go crazy!

I didn't realize my comebacks caused such a reaction

Your video certainly...well, that would be hard to top!

I hope the dream continues but God says there will be tribulations. I think this is his way of just bringing two people together.

I hope we can last through even worse hardship. Such as when my parents pass or if something’s happens to my aunts, siblings or nephew.

I didn’t know you had that ability over me until it happened multiple times today.

Is it hot in hear or what?

Grief is such a harshly painful time and no one should go through it alone. I pretty much went through the extreme harsh part of mine alone. I didn't come here for 2 1/2 months.

talking is a form of making love...


It dropped into the 30s, but I certainly don't need the heater lol

Sometimes I wonder if we’d still be on here chatting away with fellow believers. It’s only been like a week or so but there are so many great people on here

Well I wish I can talk to you all day.

I just realized something. You've been here since last year, why am I just now noticing that?


You are quite charming. I greatly enjoy talking to you... words embracing.

I think I love writing just as much as you are great at writing. I am a far better tester than i am speaking out loud but i have moments of great articulation

I used to write more often...poetry and what-have-you.

I think you are also great with words...and certainly great at grabbing my attention!

I created an account a year ago thinking I can find fellowship here and i never got around to looking at or commenting in any of the forums cause the site appeared archaic to me but once I got pass the design, it was magical.

lol, and here I thought you had just joined...I'm the newbie!