Prayer request, used as scape goat.

When I was a child I was abused along with many other boys. From the abuse I also repeated some of the acts of abuse when I was a boy. When everthing was discovered the boys and many other people used me as a scape goat. They used me to get gifts of pitty. They turned me into the image of a really bad person. They made themself look an image of innocent that was taken advantage of. Those other boys abused me also.

38 years later they are still doing this thing. They have turned themselves into heroes for saying bad stuff about me, stopping me from having relationships. Everyone in the area I live in know who I am, but I don't know any of them.

They one time said that to be with a woman is going to heaven, but not being able to be with a woman is hell. And sending me to hell is what they where doing. They even tried to make me choose men.

Now I believe that where curse abounded, blessing will much more abound. I also believe that God is going to curse those who have cursed me.

Philippians 4:19

I am glad you shown me that. I think I am being impatient. I need to slow down and wait on Jesus. So many things have happened this year. My health, my soul, even my money. It started on Easter Sunday. God spoiled me on Easter Sunday. It was right after I gave a young girl some food at the super market. She was holding a sign asking for help. I purchased her some food to eat.

So, you just want to tell your story in this topic.

When I was last in church, before the pastor of it stopped with that church. I was told I had a great calling from God. A number people in the church said it. I am getting motivated more and more everyday to take the fight to the devil. My health is still improving.
Right now my plan is to start my own church. My own denomination. And I plan on doing this thing without getting educated. Only I need God to tell me to do it, because it has to be he's plan and timing. When I was with Patricia Ruth Holiday in her church, she told me that God had a message. That if I wanted a church I can have it. It has been many many year later, but I don't see any reason I still can't have it. What I want to do is shake the devil's kingdoms into pieces, because I am very angry about what he did. This thing I am complaining about is the Devil's fault, not those people.