Hello. I’d like to share my story and introduce myself.
Short Story:
I was raised with the teachings of the Seventh-day Adventists but became deeply involved in heavy metal music, sin, and destructive behaviors. After a difficult period of emptiness and depression, I encountered God's word again, began studying the Bible daily, and experienced a profound inner transformation. Now, I seek to live a life aligned with God's will, away from my past, and hope to share and learn more about His word with others. And I really need to change my life...
Long Story:
From a young age, I was regularly taught the principles of the Seventh-day Adventists. My grandparents spent their entire lives studying the Bible and religious writings. They were very devout, kind, honest people who lived by the Bible, preaching nothing but love and couldn’t harm a fly.
From a very early age, I was fascinated by Satan and his demons, and became intrigued by the occult. Long story short, I became deeply involved in music and hypnosis, particularly in how they affect the mind and people. At the same time, I learned to play many instruments and now play guitar, piano, and drums. I got caught up in conspiracy theories related to the world and Satan, and thought I could never be foolish enough to listen to his music and works. It’s clear in the lyrics of famous metal and even pop bands on the radio, with references to God and sin—it was obvious it was wrong.
But then came a girlfriend, alcohol, parties, and my environment, and suddenly, out of nowhere, I became a massive heavy metal fan. It escalated quickly. Over the years, I forgot God’s word. Sometimes, I would think about returning, but I was unsuccessful. Life went on, I started bands, and with one band, I became somewhat successful, playing live in front of 1,000 people and becoming well-known locally. Long hair, tattoos, blasphemy, alcohol, cigarettes, women for fun, and many other sins filled my years. It’s still present, and changing my life is incredibly challenging right now. I know it’s wrong—I've been in a deep hole, and now I'm in the hole I dug for myself, needing God's hand to help me escape. I hope I have enough time to stay on the path and truly repent. My heart is already starting to change. Overall, I’ve always been a good person—though loud, sarcastic, extroverted, and cheeky—but at my core, I believe I’ve always had a good heart. Yet, I'm still surrounded by sin. I won’t sugarcoat it—I know I am a sinner and always will be. I pray for forgiveness and a pure heart and change my life, so I can minimize my sins.
Last year was incredibly difficult for me. I felt completely empty, lost, and for the first time, deeply depressed without a plan. Everything annoyed me, and I even had thoughts that if I crashed my car into a tree, it would all be over. I didn’t care. Not suicidal thoughts, but I wouldn’t have minded if something happened. Thankfully, it was only for a short time.
And then, suddenly, I started encountering God’s word more and more, from YouTube, advertisements, people—no matter where I went, it was always there, almost as if it was following me. Without truly seeking, it came to me. So, I began reading, studying, and researching. I now study the Bible daily. I ask for forgiveness, for a pure heart, and I want to change my life. I’ve had some intense prayers, and suddenly, it overtook me, and I wept like a child. I feel more love, peace, and tranquility inside me now. I pray daily to stay on the path and not let my surroundings drag me back into the past. Because no matter where I go, I’m surrounded by sin—friends, hobbies, work... it’s overwhelming. I hope I don’t let go of God’s hand.
I never thought it was possible to feel such an internal change. I can’t put it into words, but I’ve read about it as a non-believer before. To feel it firsthand is indescribable. I encourage anyone to engage with Scripture and build a relationship, not just to believe, not just to pray, but to study the Bible and get to know Jesus. It is transforming my life right now.
For example, I prayed for a Bible, and shortly after, I received from mom call saying my aunt and uncle will buy me a Bible and the five books of Ellen White, which summarize the entire Bible. I’m truly happy right now and know that difficult times are ahead. The hardest burden for me is the music and the band—it will be my toughest trial. I must not deny God, and my first step is to share my thoughts here online, so I can also talk about God face to face. I know many friends will distance themselves from me because of what I’ve built over the years, but that should and cannot be an obstacle for me, because eternal life is worth more than this temporary life.
But my struggle lies in my surroundings; I desperately need help breaking free from them, yet my heart still longs for them. I am sincerely praying for a pure heart, one that can despise the things I do, so I can draw closer to God.
Thank you for your attention. I look forward to conversations with you all and hope to gain more wisdom and understanding of God’s word. I hope we can share and exchange with one another. Perhaps there are some Adventists here who would like to talk and share thoughts? I have not yet chosen a church or religion for myself, as I have read the Bible independently of any denomination, but I was raised with the teachings of the Adventists. After doing extensive research, I must say that the Adventists truly align most closely with the Bible for me. They diligently study it, and what could be more important than the word of God? I find their views extremely interesting, but I’ll discuss that mabye in another thread.
Short Story:
I was raised with the teachings of the Seventh-day Adventists but became deeply involved in heavy metal music, sin, and destructive behaviors. After a difficult period of emptiness and depression, I encountered God's word again, began studying the Bible daily, and experienced a profound inner transformation. Now, I seek to live a life aligned with God's will, away from my past, and hope to share and learn more about His word with others. And I really need to change my life...
Long Story:
From a young age, I was regularly taught the principles of the Seventh-day Adventists. My grandparents spent their entire lives studying the Bible and religious writings. They were very devout, kind, honest people who lived by the Bible, preaching nothing but love and couldn’t harm a fly.
From a very early age, I was fascinated by Satan and his demons, and became intrigued by the occult. Long story short, I became deeply involved in music and hypnosis, particularly in how they affect the mind and people. At the same time, I learned to play many instruments and now play guitar, piano, and drums. I got caught up in conspiracy theories related to the world and Satan, and thought I could never be foolish enough to listen to his music and works. It’s clear in the lyrics of famous metal and even pop bands on the radio, with references to God and sin—it was obvious it was wrong.
But then came a girlfriend, alcohol, parties, and my environment, and suddenly, out of nowhere, I became a massive heavy metal fan. It escalated quickly. Over the years, I forgot God’s word. Sometimes, I would think about returning, but I was unsuccessful. Life went on, I started bands, and with one band, I became somewhat successful, playing live in front of 1,000 people and becoming well-known locally. Long hair, tattoos, blasphemy, alcohol, cigarettes, women for fun, and many other sins filled my years. It’s still present, and changing my life is incredibly challenging right now. I know it’s wrong—I've been in a deep hole, and now I'm in the hole I dug for myself, needing God's hand to help me escape. I hope I have enough time to stay on the path and truly repent. My heart is already starting to change. Overall, I’ve always been a good person—though loud, sarcastic, extroverted, and cheeky—but at my core, I believe I’ve always had a good heart. Yet, I'm still surrounded by sin. I won’t sugarcoat it—I know I am a sinner and always will be. I pray for forgiveness and a pure heart and change my life, so I can minimize my sins.
Last year was incredibly difficult for me. I felt completely empty, lost, and for the first time, deeply depressed without a plan. Everything annoyed me, and I even had thoughts that if I crashed my car into a tree, it would all be over. I didn’t care. Not suicidal thoughts, but I wouldn’t have minded if something happened. Thankfully, it was only for a short time.
And then, suddenly, I started encountering God’s word more and more, from YouTube, advertisements, people—no matter where I went, it was always there, almost as if it was following me. Without truly seeking, it came to me. So, I began reading, studying, and researching. I now study the Bible daily. I ask for forgiveness, for a pure heart, and I want to change my life. I’ve had some intense prayers, and suddenly, it overtook me, and I wept like a child. I feel more love, peace, and tranquility inside me now. I pray daily to stay on the path and not let my surroundings drag me back into the past. Because no matter where I go, I’m surrounded by sin—friends, hobbies, work... it’s overwhelming. I hope I don’t let go of God’s hand.
I never thought it was possible to feel such an internal change. I can’t put it into words, but I’ve read about it as a non-believer before. To feel it firsthand is indescribable. I encourage anyone to engage with Scripture and build a relationship, not just to believe, not just to pray, but to study the Bible and get to know Jesus. It is transforming my life right now.
For example, I prayed for a Bible, and shortly after, I received from mom call saying my aunt and uncle will buy me a Bible and the five books of Ellen White, which summarize the entire Bible. I’m truly happy right now and know that difficult times are ahead. The hardest burden for me is the music and the band—it will be my toughest trial. I must not deny God, and my first step is to share my thoughts here online, so I can also talk about God face to face. I know many friends will distance themselves from me because of what I’ve built over the years, but that should and cannot be an obstacle for me, because eternal life is worth more than this temporary life.
But my struggle lies in my surroundings; I desperately need help breaking free from them, yet my heart still longs for them. I am sincerely praying for a pure heart, one that can despise the things I do, so I can draw closer to God.
Thank you for your attention. I look forward to conversations with you all and hope to gain more wisdom and understanding of God’s word. I hope we can share and exchange with one another. Perhaps there are some Adventists here who would like to talk and share thoughts? I have not yet chosen a church or religion for myself, as I have read the Bible independently of any denomination, but I was raised with the teachings of the Adventists. After doing extensive research, I must say that the Adventists truly align most closely with the Bible for me. They diligently study it, and what could be more important than the word of God? I find their views extremely interesting, but I’ll discuss that mabye in another thread.
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