Sit down and talk

I literally want nothing more than to sit down and talk . About God and the Holy Spirit I feel inside me as I type this.

God wants to talk to me as well. By His nature and grace , He won’t ‘make me’

I have God on speed-dial and yet am terrified to talk to Him.

As sinners , we avoid the bible because it reads us as we read it.

Wonderful to read, I appreciate your vital one on one relationship with Him.
Jesus only did what He saw the Father do, He only said what He heard the Father say and was sent to model for us how the Father seeks to relate to us.
John Wimbers Personal Pilgrimage is a great YT video on his receiving and walking in the Spirit. The Doncaster DHT when Googled will bring you to another great teaching where the teacher gives his testimony at 30 minutes of the second video.
blessings my friend

I've got the whole world
On the other line
But I wanna talk to You

Yes the Bible reads us. so we shy away from it. what if we make the decision to let it read us and help us get rid of that which entangles us and keeps us from His presence.

i read it every day, when you read it, you will see that God welcomes you to talk to Him, read the Psalms. King David did not hold back in talking to the Lord. and God called him a " man after My own heart".

Know that we are to talk with Jesus Christ, we are go with Jesus, not God. When we talk with Jesus, we are talking with God. God gave us to Jesus, this is how we are supposed to do this thing. Jesus called us friends.

You need to see that God loves you. He is not mad at you. Jesus already suffered God's wrath so you won't have to. We dare not approach God in our own righteous. But we can and should come to the throne of mercy and grace clothed in Christ. God knows everything about us anyway. He just wants to clean us up, setting us free what what we detest about ourselves anyway.

We need to start from a position of acceptance with God. He is not looking at you in isolation. He sees you hidden in Christ. Jesus is the friend of sinners. He is your friend. He wants you to become His friend. So run to God when you are in trouble. Don't run away.

Yes this is sound doctrine. Run to Jesus when you have done something. Confess our sins to him, and he is faithful to forgive us.

Even better is to take the situation to Him, perceive and walk out His guidance.