I'm sorry to hear about your challenges. Sometimes they can be overwhelming, especially without local encouragement. I don't have the answers, but we know Who does. 📖🙏
Hang in there. With God's help, you can get through this.
"I can do all things through Christ, which strengthens me."
I would add Bible memory to your daily routine of morning and evening reading. This is not a fix it quick/ easy solution, but your body, soul and spirit all need adequate support for these trials. God can provide His children their needs as we seek Him and follow His will. I know it's easier said than done. Each part, body, soul and the spirit are connected, but have many individual needs. That means that there's no quick and easy solution, but the main thing is that you follow God's will each step of the way as you make progress. As you heal, you will be able to help your mother better too. She sounds like she is dependent upon you, so I know the challenge is great.
Remember that God is greater and will help.
Death is Not a solution for you or your Mother. That is not an option. I understand your stress because I've worked with difficult people who are not in their right minds.
Just remember that the thought of you and your mother's demise is not from God.
In any problem, the simplest and most common is often the place to start.
This might sound funny, but my personal opinion as a Nutritionist is that most grumpy people have
This problem.<
They are chronically unable to rid their bodies of toxins. The toxins poison every part of their body and they are unable to feel normal.
They feel miserable and it affects those around them as they act out on those who may love them.
They tend to be very dehydrated and especially if they require a caregiver.
When unable to go to the bathroom without assistance, caregivers in general don't like the extra work.
As a result, the patients become malnourished and dehydrated because the nurse has to clean up after them or assist with bathroom duties. The less they eat and drink, the less work necessary.
I'd focus on making certain she drinks the proper amount of good pure water.
Then she needs essential good nutrition. Get her out of bed and mobile. Walk her as much as possible and as often as possible.
This is where I'd start once you find another family member or someone who cares enough to not end your mother's life. I feel your pain, but I hate psychopathic nurses who attempt crimes like murder. I don't care how tough their patients make their job. They are not supposed to be hit men that kill for money. Those nurses need to be marked, avoided, prosecuted and
Judged by Jesus.
I will pray for you and your mother right now.
I'm glad that you sought out others at a time like
This. May this beginning of better days for you both. ❤️