PROVERBS 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Don't try to do things alone if you don't have to

Isolation is exactly what the enemy wants us to do.
I hope you stay for longer than just a few days though. Trust me there are people who can help, even if it is just simple company for now. I mean that with the truest sincerity. Because I have felt the same way and still do sometimes (I am just getting out of it now very very slowly).
You said you don't even know why you came to the site, maybe the Lord guided you hear? I don't actually know why I came on this site either but so glad I did. So don't box yourself in and away when you can get help, company, advice or just a friend to talk to okay
with love and god bless sister