No One Cares

I just quit my job today because it was either that or go to jail. I'm not good with children at all. I only took this job so I could have a place to stay and a little money to save up so I could get on my feet. I'm not cut out to work with children. Thankfully, the woman who owns the daycare is letting me stay but I don't know for how long.
My life just keeps going from bad to worse. I'm to the point of becoming suicidal again and I don't want that. My daughter hates me! My family has disowned me! And now I'm out of work AGAIN! Completely broke and practically homeless! God doesn't care about me! If he did I wouldn't be in this situation. No one cares about me! Why am I still living if there's no reason for me to be on this earth! I try to ppen up and ask for prayer in the chat rooms and ask for some words of advice AND I GET SNAPPED AT by people who should be willing to help a fellow Christian! Nobody even on this site cares about me! Why can't I just die! I've prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed but things just seem to be getting worse and worse for me. I give up!

Holly. I pray God gives you peace and guidence. are you going to church anywhere so you can get postive friends and help, as well as encouragement?I pray you get a better job and meet people of God
and a fresh start , in Jesus name amen Turn it all around Father for your glory

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I don't have a church family. I did but I didn't feel good about that church. It wasn't the people. It was the fact that I didn't feel I was getting spiritual clarity and instruction in that church. I'm currently seeking a new church home. That has been hard as well.

you know its so easy to give up but much harder to keep going at times true but life is a journey and in life we will always have ups and downs . when we going through something hard in our life we need to try to remember that there is always light in the end of tunnel .God does care for u . look that woman let u to stay there , try to be thankful for it ... is in it Gods hand for u ? use this chance and try to find something else for u ... new job new place to stay !

i know its not easy , but it cant be all bad . remember ur over comer and time will come when all be well again ... just dont give up ! and dont expect much from ppl , ppl come and ppl go ... God is the only one who will always be near and try to be thankful for what u have now

My sister Holly much love to you... Yes sis we fall down and get back up, sometimes only to be knocked right back down again, but you get back up and each time you do the Lord strengthens you. Study about Peter that man walked on water, but he fell to, his key which is yours also is to cry out to the Lord ... He hears you, every word. Thou you may feel alone, truely you never are. Never left never forsaken. This is Our Father's promise to you dear so please be encouraged, Psalm 37:23-24 (look it up) Stay in His word He has much He still wants to teach you. Others may not understand the pain you go thru and it may seem they are shooting you down, I am sure each means well, but my sister there is One that truely understands and that is your Lord and Savior and He is always there waiting to hear from you. May the LORD bless you and keep you in all you do, and remind yourself daily you are blessed because you are loved........... your sister Dawnbreaking

A poem: You Are Not Alone( please be encouraged)

I remember wanting to throw in the towel
wondering when will it end and even how.
I wondered where those are that love me
those who so called care.
I turned to the left and to the right and no one was there.
I felt lost and neglected
occupied by hurt and disappointment
wondering where should I go from here.
I fell down on my knees and said
Lord Jesus help me please.
I am discouraged and in distress.
My heart is broken...
I am empty...
I am helpless.
I hear your distress call and I've come to answer thee.
Remember when I gave my life way back on Calvary?
My heart was broken I was in distess.
I was rejected and abandoned but I still gave my best.
Do I know what it is like to be disappointed?
to suffer...
to be in anguish..
Yes, I do.
I went through it all just for you.
So, dont give up.
No need for dispair.
Although no one else is present ...
I will always be here.

May God bless you richly and show you that His love is deep for you. You matter to God. I pray for revelation of His love.
When I had no one and nothing Jesus is the only one who was there for me in a deep and real way. He healed my broken heart and restored me. If you close your eyes and just imagine sitting on the Lords lap. He is holding you in His arms. As you tell Him your hurts...He wipes the tear from your eyes and kisses you on your forehead. Then He wispers in your ear..I LOVE YOU. That is real!!! When He says He will never leave you. He means it!! Ask for understanding...pray for grace to help you do what you are not able to do yourself...believe God...

You are His child and His love for you is real. Dont let go of Him!!!

Holly, I see you are going through so much, but sometimes the best you can do is give up. I know how it feels like having tons of things not work out in your life, my advise to you is this: Give up all control over the situations and surrender your life and everything in it to God, He alone can make a life truly beautiful. Our lives are full of different burdens and cares, but burdens and troubles are all eclipsed once you choose to give them to God. Storms are never easy, but God does promise to see us through them! I will pray for you, God bless

its easy for us to say this or that when we dont face it ourselfs . it is hard when you have no support . about ur kid .... i dont have kids , but i think it will be good for u and ur kid to talk . .... think of when u were in her age and how u were acting back then .i am sure ur kid loves u .... i assume things r not easy for her as well . i just ask u to hang in there and try not to give up ... just move on bit by bit

Holly unfortunately we all have to live with the consequences of decisions we have made, many of them not in God's will. However His grace is sufficient for us to get up and be a blessing to someone else, as we bless others, we will be blessed. If we concentrate only on ourselves and how bad things are for us, we will become selfish and take our eyes of the Lord. The Lord never forsakes or leaves us, it is us who do the forsaking and leaving, but He waits .. arms outstretched for us to return.
Faith without works is dead .. we have to do something while we trust.
You have mentioned a lot of things you don't like, what do you like .. start there perhaps. If you don't like children, then perhaps you could go and visit a lonely old person! Also .. start reaching out to your daughter, show her love even if you are rejected. Love conquers everything.

Holly, you first need to invite Jesus to come into your heart and seek him. He there and he wants to be your friend. Once you truly do that, he will lift you above all the trouble that you are haveing. The trouble will still be there and you'll still have to deal with them but it will feel as if someone just reach out and pushed them on the back burner. I have read all of your post and seen a lot of good christian people reach out to you. We all love you and want to see you have a better life. God Bless

Holly, I pray you don't kill yourself, you will never solve anything that way. God takes time to do his work, just as you took time to get back to believing in Jesus. Keep praying and seeking help in your situation from Jesus. Go out and look for work. I pray that Jesus will guide you on your search. Amen

Glad to read you had a revelation...God is good at speaking to our hearts if we are willing to listen.
I pray that you will feel His love in your life and that you will find a job that will be a good fit for you.
In Jesus name amen

That's very beautiful.. God is always on time. Continue to be faithful and go the extra distance to be that much more faithful in him. Do what the Holy ghost is telling you to do.. Victory is yours Holly!

HollyW said:

I hope and pray that God leads this man to Christ.

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Agreeing in prayer with you. In Jesus Name, Amen
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Hi Holly! Jesus loves you and Satan hates you. You are blessed!

I pray this for you, from Eph 6:19-20, and for everyone else that Satan is trying to keep bound up in accusation, torment, and distraction:

Heavenly Father, Let utterance be given unto us, that we may open our mouths boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel, that therein we may speak boldly, as we ought to speak. In Jesus Name, Amen.

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For the rest of this post, I ask for everyone to be patient with me. I don't mean to type so much! What I am writing , however, is very important to the body of Christ in regard to our struggle with sin. Please forgive me, and please try to capture your thoughts concerning me to the obedience of Christ:

Joh 13:34A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.

Tit 3:2To speak evil of no man, to be no brawlers, but gentle, shewing all meekness unto all men.

Pro 23:7 For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he...

Luk 6:45 A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.

1Co 13:4 Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, 5 Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; 6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; 7 Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

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Holly, those thoughts you posted at the beginning of this thread are some of the weapons (rather the results of the workings of his weapons) Satan uses against people to get them to end their lives. Satan does not want you here because of the message that you have:

Sinners die and go to hell, but, Christ will give them His eternal life and right standing with GOD in exchange for their punishment. - Jesus becoming sin for them; He will purge their consciences of dead works by His own blood.

Holly, I pray that you will recognize the battle and set aside every hindrance that interferes with this faith:

The LORD is your righteousness and His Word is your identity.

Recognize that when you start thinking those negative thoughts, that Satan is withstanding you. He is trying to make you believe that you are not good enough, so you will fall into unbelief.

Believing that you are not good enough is to not believe that you are the righteousness of Christ.

Unbelief is the sin that leads to death... and what happens... look at the progression and the fruit:

-Satan accuses us that we are not right (right, ultimately, to GOD) in one way or another, we believe his accusations against us and start to abide in his spirit instead of the Holy Spirit; because, we are not believing we are who GOD says we are by faith in Christ.

-When one abides in Satan's spirit he ultimately ends up jumping off a bridge, or worse, hurting others in the process...

…..because, he who sins is a slave to sin.

To not sin, the first thing we have to do is to believe (to be in faith) that we are the righteousness of GOD in Christ, and to continually abide there by His Word, resisting the temptation (that I'm sure many can sense) to believe that there is something that we have done to make us not right with God.

If one can not believe that He is right with God because of some sin... well, that would be the hindrance that I mentioned above to set aside. Confession to brothers and sisters will burn those hindrances out of our hearts. Confession to one another is in overflowing opposition to any enslaving, destructive habit.

But, confession of evil fruit is not the first step. The first step is to not let Satan even use that hindrance against us, because there is nothing that can separate us from the love of God. As soon as we start listening to Satan telling us that we are not right with the LORD, it makes it increasingly difficult to come into the light for the fear of our deeds being reproved. The LORD is not the one condemning us, it is the Law which we break that condemns us. Satan uses this to his advantage.

Joh 3:20 For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved.

So, the first step is to repent of our unbelief, and to not hate the light. Jesus is the light of men.

If we first stand on our Rock, Christ, in His Holy Spirit, knowing that we are the righteousness of GOD, we can then bring our deeds into the light to be reproved, because, we now know that we are dealing with a loving Father; and not the spirit of the world who's goal is to cut us off from relationship with GOD by empowering sin unto death by the Law of Moses.

In Christ there is no law (that can be broken unto separation from GOD), there is only relationship governed by the Law of Love.

And, if there be no law, there can be no sin (missing the mark unto eternal separation).

How can we do anything wrong (unto separation of God's love) if there is no sin, and someone else made the mark for us?

It doesn't mean that we have no sin, it just means that we are dead to it by abiding in Christ. Claiming His righteousness. Dead to sin and it's power unto death (through the Law of Moses) by abiding in Christ, unto life everlasting.

1Jn 5:18 We know that whosoever is born of God sinneth not; but he that is begotten of God keepeth himself, and that wicked one toucheth him not.

Now then, what is sin? Sin is anything not done in faith. If a man does not do what he believes is right, to him, it is sin.

It's the justification of our own righteousness to keep a clean conscience and the dark place that we start to go to when we are no longer able to justify ourselves.

The only One whom we can sin against is GOD, ultimately. And GOD is the only Judge that we have to be accountable to. Now, if GOD is Judge, and His wrath was poured out on Jesus, what is the only way to not be right with the Judge? Unbelief.

However, the 'believer' needs to continue in his belief. For even the demons believe, but are not saved. And we know a tree by it's fruit. If one is consistently and unrepentantly bearing evil fruit, then he is not abiding in Christ, even if he says he believes. If he did believe, this fruit would not grow because this fruit does not grow in Christ, it grows in the spirit of the world when lust and temptation conceive.

Jas 1:12 Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him. 13 Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: 14 But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed.15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.

So this is the battle: don't let lust and temptation (Satan) conceive sin.

Why does God let this happen? To refine our faith.

Isa 45:7 I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.

Isa 54:16 Behold, I have created the smith that bloweth the coals in the fire, and that bringeth forth an instrument for his work; and I have created the waster to destroy.

1Pe 4:12 Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
1Pe 4:13 But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.

Though God does not do the tempting, and it's not by Him that the enemy gathers together, the trial of a persons faith is something that He allows. Like in Job.

Holly, this is what He is doing for you. He is refining your faith and He knows what He is doing.

You went from this:

Why can't I just die! I've prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed but things just seem to be getting worse and worse for me. I give up!

To this:

I know God loves me. I can feel it when I declare my love for Him. I can feel it when I give my testimony to one who is in doubt. And no, I am never alone. God is always there. And I do have friends, very good friends, they may not be close by but they truly care and it took my sufferng to bring so much joy to my heart. I hope and pray that God leads this man to Christ.

How did you get from such a bad place to such a good place? Ultimately, what got you there is FAITH that is alive by works by love.

The faith of the believers that came together to pray for you, it works! Living Faith bears fruit, and that statement of life (that you made and sharing your faith with someone else) is the fruit that stemmed from the faith of the believers lifting you up in prayer (which we all need). This shows that the faith of many of those who prayed for you is genuine and has been tried, and that it is bearing good fruit.

You can compare both of your statements above. One is the fruit of abiding in unbelief, and the other is one of abiding in Christ, by faith.

Isa 54:11O thou afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay thy stones with fair colours, and lay thy foundations with sapphires.12 And I will make thy windows of agates, and thy gates of carbuncles, and all thy borders of pleasant stones.13 And all thy children shall be taught of the LORD; and great shall be the peace of thy children. 14In righteousness shalt thou be established: thou shalt be far from oppression; for thou shalt not fear: and from terror; for it shall not come near thee. 15 Behold, they shall surely gather together, but not by me: whosoever shall gather together against thee shall fall for thy sake. 16Behold, I have created the smith that bloweth the coals in the fire, and that bringeth forth an instrument for his work; and I have created the waster to destroy.17No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD.

Now, how do you stand strong in your Faith so the tempter does not overcome you?

I ask this, because, you will be tempted again and you need to know how to fight and what Satan does as his first attack... he tries to get you in unbelief. So, when the thoughts start flooding in that you are not good enough, or whatever they may be, stand on your Rock:

Isa 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Psa 18:2 The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. 3 I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.

When Satan comes to tempt a person, he comes armed and equipped for battle. Our job is to first disarm him, by our faith (our Shield), and then to allow the victory in GOD's Word to fight him (our Sword).

Here are some links for more information on how to resist Satan with the weapons that the LORD has given us:

http://christianchat.com/prayer-requests/34505-stupid-temptations.html#post597684

and..

http://christianchat.com/prayer-requests/34615-running-god.html#post597852


Holly, you are the righteousness of Christ. This is the first thing one needs to declare when confronted with any temptation. Abide in it, live in it, declare it, and you will continue to bear good fruit from within it.

No one can bear good fruit from within a place like the one where all of those negative statements and declarations of death were being made by your own mouth. Good fruit comes from a place of peace and love, knowing first that you are right with your GOD by faith. This knowledge keeps us boasting in Christ, and not in our own works.

...And just like bad fruit grows into eternal death, good fruit grows into life everlasting.

Gal 6:8For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.

Please know that people do care! GOD cares for you, I care for you, and many others care for you! And that's final.

Much love to you, and don't forget to read the info on those other links.